Al-Fatihah for Babah Hj Zainal Abidin bin Ladi.

10.32pm.

Counting the NEW YEAR 2011. I am starring at the wallpaper of my computer ... my late father. I miss him so much. I wish you know how i felt. Days passed fast. Years... Left us in 2002. I wish i spent more time with him. The memories left me with missing him. But yes, other would said the same thing too. Spending more time with him. I really miss him.

KOLEKSI MUTIARA KATA

Peduli lah hal orang jika ia untuk memperbaiki keadaan, jangan peduli dengan cerita keaiban orang jika ia merosakkan keadaan, pedulilah diri sendiri untuk dapat mengelakan diri dari yang buruk untuk memburukan keadaan, dan kekalkan keyakinan diri dengan kebaikan untuk kebaikan keadaan.


Jangan memilih hanya sebab suka. Pilih juga walau tidak suka. Keajiban datang tanpa kita ketahui, kandang yang sebab suka jadi tidak suka dan yang tidak suka jadi suka. Kita boleh kata tapi belum dapat menyatakannya dengan pasti.


Jangan di sesali masa lalu.Lupakan. Hari ini hari baru. Setiap hari yang bakal di lalui akan ada cerita baru, episod baru dan buku baru dalam hidup. Bersedialah dengan kekuatan mental dan tenaga untuk menghadapi apa yang akan di lalui dalam hidup agar ia akan lebih bermakna dalam hidup dari mengenang dan kesal dengan masa lalu.


Kamu boleh jadi hero di dunia. Kamu boleh tipu orang di dunia. kamu boleh ada power di dunia. kamau boleh buat apa yang kamu suka. kamu rosak kan orang demi nama hero. Semua itu hanya di dunia saja and kamu tau itu sementara..

You like hubby orang risiko tinggi. You like single, risiko tidak setinggi hubby orang. Same goes - You like wife orang risiko tinggi. You like single risiko tidak setinggi wife orang. Andangnya tu. Orang punya suka diri punya inda suka. Padahal yang diri punya jauh lebih baik dari orang punya. Inda payah tah buat BLAC...K MAGIC. Karang sudah inda suka, sendiri yang susah. Paham ka?


Harapan memberikan semangat untuk terus berjuang dalam hidup.

Senyum. Senyum lah selagi boleh senyum jangan sampai nikmat senyum hilang baru ingin senyum.

Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. Do whatever you can for today... and let tomrorrow comes when it comes to see you. You see today. Today see you. You can't see tomorrow, but tomorrow will always there to see you..

kalau kan berjaya teruskan usaha, kalau ingin berjaya ya boleh. Jangan menindih orang saja demi untuk berjaya. Setinggi mana pun, akan jatuh tu.. bukan sekarang tapi akan.. lebih dashyat dari yang di imaginasikan..

CREATED BY ZURA

POLITIK?

Politik Dunia, Politik Negara dan Politik Opis. Au ... we were reminded not to touch on Politik Negara that yes understood. Barangkali disebabkan we don't really know what what what .. etc so jangan salah cakap lebih baik jangan sentoh lah. Biar tia orang yang mahir bepolitik handle tu, Kemahiran bisdiorang. Jangan tah ikut-ikutan. What they say 'terlanjur perahu boleh berundur tapi terlanjur cakap.. macam mana???' Hehe.. English nya ... ' ....... boat can reverse but ....... talk.... how you think think lah??? ...

So anyway, somehow everwhere got politik. Entah pandai pandai buat politik sendiri. Politik Opis yang paling hangat di kalangan kitani yang bertugas. Entah apa yang personal apa yang inda, but Politik Opis selalunya personal eh. Nada yang inda. Untuk diri sendiri. Nya orang putih or Mat Salleh... Selfish. Bukan ia haiwan laut or makanan laut. Sedang kan Bahasa lagi ada perbezaan meaning, apa tah lagi kitani manusia ani. Semestinya mempunyai pelbagai attitude mmmm.... character dan caranya. Kalau inda percaya coba you bekerja. Hehe... Inda payah tah jauh, at home pun sama lah. How you handle?

Kalau you handle di rumah, you can handle di opis jua bah. No problem. Pakai lah teknik tenik yang sedia ada atu. No problem tu. Paling bagus lagi, ada buku buku yang boleh menolong kitani berpikir cara untuk handle Politik Opis ani. Kalau you mangsanya, ada caranya. Tapi kalau you Hantu nya... mmmm.... you create POLITIK OPIS .... pun juga ada book about how to handle nya. Okay...

Wish you all the best which whatever POLITIK you are involve in. Yang real Politik, yes okay. But most of all... unutk POLITIK OPIS atu... kalau alum mahir jangan coba coba, dan terlampau mahir, persaan saja tu. Bukan nya mahir, but MIHIR.


POLITIK OPIS!!???

40 hari

Inda terasa berlalu ... 40 hari.

AL FATIHAH

UNTUK NENEK TERSAYANG

HJH MASINU BINTI SARANG MOHAMMAD

YANG TELAH KEMBALI KERAHMATULLAH

10 ZULHIJJAH 1431H/

17 NOVEMBER 2010 MASIHI

MUTIARA KATA

Jangan pura pura baik jika niat busuk. Teruskan kan lah kejahatan atu agar padan dengan muka atu. Bida berpura pura baik depan belakang menabang. Semoga Allah akan membalas setimpal dengan yang di lakukan dan mudah mudahan Allah akan memberi kesedaran tarus agar tidak terlambat untuk bertaubat.

Buat lah apa sahaja yg kamu suka tapi ingat lah kamu akan menerima balasan setimpal dengan nya-ibnu Abbas

HIDDEN POWER??

I asked about WHAT IS HIDDEN POWER?

How public do you want? And should we just keep quiet and let others hurt? Even our Pemimpin HM inda mau bah nie ada di Jabatan Jabatan nya or di Kementerian Kementerian nya. HM surely hoping for the best, menjaga welfare rakyatnya. Banyak yang di berikan kepada kitani sudah. Hospital FREE bebayar only B$1 saja untuk bejumpa doctor, operation all the medical etc FREE. Education Free hanya beli buku bukan saja. Belajar luar negeri pun ada Scholarship, InService, all FREE if you qualified. Tambang Free, elaun sekolah etc banyak lagi.

I tell you, EVERYTHING IS MONEY di negeri lain, inda sama like Brunei. Macam macam ada opportunity untuk rakyat, ada kemahuan boleh dapat asal usaha.

But with this hidden power?

HM has treated us well, the best for his rakyat. But the hidden power by so called people think they are better then PEMIMPIN kitani kah? Pandai pandai membuat agenda sendiri tanpa memikirkan orang lain punya responsibility. HM never menyusahkan rakyatnya and always menjaga welfare rakyatnya. But who are these people with HIDDEN POWER? Yang suka menyusahkan orang-orang just because of power sikit di berikan.

Alhamdulillah semoga HM sentiasa dalam Lindungan Allah, sehat walafiat dan terus memimpin Negara Brunei Darussalam.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin.. I myself bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di Negara Brunei kitani ani, aman makmur yang susah di dapat di negeri negeri yang lain. We have PEACE and HARMONY here in Brunei.

Tapi masih ada jua yang HIDDEN POWER ani di gunakan .. habis habis kan menyusahkan orang-orang. Dissapointed eh. Patut nya berakal lah. Hidup semantara saja. Kaya dengan power di dunia siok.. kalau di gunakan untuk kebaikan apa jua, tapi sebaliknya.. Masya-Allah..


Just an opinion from a friend.

hidden power from my own opinion ada kebaikan & keburukannya...for me 1st thing is niat & keikhlasan. if these ppl sincere & profesional, alhamdulillah the organisation will flourish, great idea & alot of thing can be done..but kalau these ...ppl ada kepentingan diri that organisation will be a in disaster...banyak penyelewangan & unsur2 khianat akan berlaku..

How powerful these people?..hanya ALLAH yg maha mengetahui but they can change policy, tujuan & arah of those organisation..they can control sapa yg naik or sapa yg turun, etc..etc

BUT sebagai ketua mesti lah mempunyai ilmu & keimanan ... these so call hidden power or should i could them lobbist will keep on pushing their agenda. if ketua atu berilmu & berpengalaman alhamdulillah kedia buleh menimbang cadangan , idea atau agenda atu..

Ada satu buku that i read a few years ago but i forget the title, sumthing like the art of management or apakah lupa udah ku..but it worth untuk dibaca..more or less help me on my job & politik opis..hahaa

psst. btw who are these ppl?..it can be a PA, senior officer , opis by?..driver? ..a normal guy or a group of people yang bergaul with ketua-ketua...ia boleh jadi sapa saja..

cheers zura..

Lastly, banyak kesenangan di berikan kepada kitani, jangan tah telampau tamak untuk diri sendiri. Ingat.. hidup semantara saja. Hanya Allah yang mengetahui..

BONUS!!

Pihak polis menasihati orang ramai untuk lebih berhati-hati dimusim bonus ini dan hanya mengeluarkan wang dalam jumlah yang diperlukan samada dari bank atau mesin atm.

Its not about the money..

Membayar $20 for set of Ambuyat is not a problem. I know and you know most fofular set is $16 kan. And no problem to pay but what if the set you're paying not worth even $10? Dissapointed ku tarus. I have to say, i am one of the food lover on this earth. Eatable.. yang boleh di makan. And well.. that $20 for the set i pay not worth it at all.

I asked rah that guy yang keraja sana, siapa punya restoran? Then he told me and i ask for her number. So i got her number. I wanted to call. Tapi dalam keadaan dissapointed atu i didn't call. I don't want to be emotional to tell her how i felt about the ambuyat. May be that's her taste and cara nya membuat ambuyat. My friend said ada that owner inside the kitchen. I don't know really how to tell her. I am one of the customer jua so i think i have rights to tell her how the food are and services jua , especially ambuyat the fave of all people in Brunei ani jua, taste like and presentation of food necessary jua when you already put the price $20.

Psst... not only me yang dissapointed. Yang membayar lainnya, inda happy. Marong and masam jaling jaling jua. I asked kenapa? Kata diorang sudah tah service lambat, sajok lagi makanan, and INDA NYAMAN. I tell you, words spreads faster than you can imagine. Sebab atu tah, kalau ada berita yang entah apa apa, cepat orang kitani menerima and mengantar tanpa tau banar kah inda. But this, banar banar inda nyaman. Kata my friend nya, nyaman lagi kau buat. Ops.. i am not the greatest cook, but boleh jua nyaman jua. Kanyang jua. And bebaloi jua. Adoi..

I don't know. What do you think? She can take it as a positive critic and make it better or she can just look however she wanted to do and people only go there once. That's it. But i hope, yang membuat ambuyat atu just buat ambuyat the way orang atu suka and not thinking yang lain suka like what. Kan?

I went to AA today lunch, and paid $19 saja for 1 set of ambuyat and 1 kasturi and 1 longan. And nyaman berabiz. Fullfilling. Atu baru ia. Walaup pun you put berapa, puas makan puas rasanya and pretty presentation nya.. wala!

Good NIte.

You must know that there are no answers to your questions. Not all.. Just when you really wanted to know why? What? Wish there are ways to know, but that's not how it works. Writing is my only friend. Where i can say how i feel, i can share how i feel and what i want to let at ease.

It be better to be clear than to make confused and complicated. WEll.. again. When was the last time you got the answers to all your questions? Haha!! I am very sleepy. Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. You can plan but it don't always work but at least you will be equip with plans if it doesn't go through.

What if it horribly went wrong? Well sooner or later it will spill, so what the heck! No fun with no pain and no game. I am so sleepy. This is what happen when you're sleepy and wanting to write. I could write more but its the same as saying and telling someone not to drink and drive. Hahah... so not to be so sleepy and writing. Haha!!!!

I m in a romance mood. But being alone... where is my romance mood going to end? I am heating up here and just don't know what to do. Hahah!!! Imagine it. Good nite!

365

coming this New Year 2011.. A project. One project not to be miss. That would be 1st January 2011. Truth dare you... Oh so looking forward. Bad Good that's what i got. Its all in.. Fun horrible yes.. that too. Everything whatever ... yes in too. Haha!!!

I am listening to this song now.. Jay Branan 'Beautifully', makes me smile. Just felt like he is singing it for me.. Oh so perasaan. But okay what to be perasaan rather than no perasaan at all. Agree? NOt? Agree lah. Listen to it. Only for girls saja to listen..

365 days.. Only on the 'D' day i will know. I hope i go through the 365 days without any problem, i don't mind struggle to keep it all the way, that's what's its for. Haha.. i am thinking, should it, would it have what i have in my mind with no censor at all.. not that x rated or whatsoever but the truth of 365..

What?

i am having Fettuccine with Chilli Tuna and Mushroom Soup for lunch today.Slices of muschrooms added to give the texture. YOu could chopp it if you want to.Caramel pudding for dessert which i prepared last night.

Having a good lunch is like having a good sex. This is something.. a good life is an enemy for a great life. So a good sex is the enemy of a great sex! It was once at the dinner table i heard a lady on that table said, he can have his appetite outside but he eat at home. Haha... her husband was the type who like to chat with woman around him and he is funny too. He flirt infront of her (at least he did it infront of her or perhaps he is who he is) and she doesn't mind really. And when asked, how managed all that? How come you are okay with that? She said that its okay. Men are like that. He can have his appetite outside but eat at home. Wow!! Maybe we woman should do that. But what if its too late??? haha..

You got to be strong to face the reality. that's it. But again why bother with people who treat you like that? You and i don't deserve that. Get busy and do what you love to do and have PEACE in your life. Its okay if there's no fun or love, but PEACE that is something to think about. PEACE AND LOVE it don't work like that. Its either LOVE with dramas etc etc or PEACE. No matter how we wish to have both but again it don't work like that. If LOVE AND PEACE ada, well.. it be Heaven on Earth for me.

You see.. i was only talking about lunch tadi, now to love and peace? Haha.. WEll... eat your lunch.

:)

Talking about loneliness, a friend told me - Don't look love in others, look love in yourself. Within you ... - Yes true. Loneliness could happen in whatever way, feeling lonely that is something. But what cause it? Well... maybe you're looking for love from others.

To kill the loneliness? Well.. love yourself. Think of what you love to do. You're not born lonely, just because of that you said you're lonely. I am actually talking to myself now. But if you feel the same, you feel what i felt, its okay. Mean there are two of us or probably more. What i know, when you're lonely, the world shut down on you. Well... not actually, for the meantime only that's how i feel. Looking for that light to appear but noway. YOu got to go and look for it which means you got to go through what you're into then at the end of the day you will find it.

Ahhh... make yourself busy. Like do something what you love to do before. Oh ... nevermind. I wanted to say something but i forgot. How's that?

A friend told me - Through these experience i have in my life, i will have transformation that i would or could not imagine. But the transformation wouldn't happen if i don't go through this. So that i yet to see. To go with the flow.. not recommended. Do what your hearts says. Not where the flow takes you. It's going to be hard, but its not the end of the world. - Which is true. It's not the end of the world. Think about it ... As i said if you feel the way i felt, then this is probably for you. IT is NOt The End OF The World. The worst thing could happen probably ............ But it's NOT the End Of The World.

Okay, now i am inside a thunderstorm, i wanted to see the rain. But still couldn't because i got to go through this and i don't know how long how far it is for me to see the rain. I know when threre's rain, at the end of it there will be the rainbow and the sun will shine.. That's it. But since i am here still in the thunderstorm, i could not see clear where is the rain.

Do you know why i said i wanted to see the rain? Well its better then in the thunderstorm. So i take it step by step. I should.. because i just want to see the sun and no more. Haha.. i don't even know if you follow what i meant. But hey.. again don't complicate yourself in thinking what i have to say and meant. If you like reading that's good for you.

This is MUST to remember. IF YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR MIND, YOU CANNOT CONTROL YOUR LIFE.

Listening to Good Music..

I must say i am relaxing now.. tuning in to Jazz LOVE Songs. I wish all the true love songs sung all for me.. haha! I love to laugh. Some would never see me laugh. I am funny too.. But some would never see me funny. I am water if you are water, i am air if you are air, i am fire if you are fire and i am stone when you are stone. Haha!! again ... Haha!!

I am relaxing i said kan, but some part of my brain is thinking. How can i say i am relaxing 101%? Never? Well... i used to be this and now become this. But why should i tell you that? Why should i even said that? I don't want to actually but i just wanted to write it so i don't have to keep it to myself alone ... inner me, if you know what i mean. Since you're reading this, then only you know. So keep it to yourself too.

The lists of the LOVE SONGS i am listening.. Psst.. when i listened to these songs, wishing there's a romantic person as the songs sound ... Do you know what i mean? Well if you don't, don't complicate yourself in thinking. Haha!! again...

That means songs says it all.. that is how i express myself when i listened to a very beautiful songs... its like a fairytale story. I know probably you giling giling kali by now, but if you understand.. mean you totally understand me. Haha!! again...

OH the songs .. yes

At Last - Malene Mortensen
Close To You - Carol Duboc
Dream A Little Dream Of Me - Tipitina
Let It Be Me - Inger Marie Gundersen
In My Life - Veronica Mortensen
Can't Buy Love - Katrine Madsen
Misty - Donna Tucker
Crazy - Chaka Khan
The Look Of Love - Monique Klemann
Let's Fall In Love - Svante Thuresson & Kat Madsen
Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow - Inger Marie Gundersen
There Will Never Be Another You - Richard Boone
All The Way - Marie Bergman
It Had To Be You - Romeyn Adams Nesbitt
Always On My Mind - Inger Marie Gundersen (now playing) sooothing...
How Deep Is Your Love - Jacqui Naylor


Jazz Love Songs it is. Lovely... I felt my heart is as fragile as these songs.. Just me as a person is so fragile, but hey ... I am me. You're you. So you express your way and i express my way... K.

IKLIM

Produced 1998 by Warner Music Malaysia. Guess why i said that? Now, today 20th. December 2010 i bought this cd. One of my aunty kirim when i was in Singapore but of course nada di sana. So i wonder lagu tahun bila? Siap di kasi title lagu lagi. But only today, its been there in the rack of this one shop, waited for that long for my Aunty. Dia lah yang punya. Hak milik nya sekarang but still with me. This is a memory for me.

The story goes like this - I go to this one kedai cd. Asked for the IKLIM cd. She said this is all she got. Okay.. with serious look face lagi tu just to look for one title in that cd. Dissapointed didn't find that title. So i asked again, are you sure that all you have ... like belabih jua i ani. I asked again, em.. may be in one of the compilation cd perhaps? Well ... demanding you know i masa atu. Expecting her to know one of that title in one of the thousands cds dalam kedai cd atu.. Haha..

Inda jua putus asa. Still standing, those girls looked at me and senyum senyum kambing diorang ani bah.. like season jua sudah lagu atu kali nya and what the heck do i want that cd? You know lah.. young girls yang menjaga ani (boh me ah.. cari pasal tu eh. Hahah!) . So i looked at other cds. Just to get lucky hoping to find may be... just may be ... may be.. aith.. just may be... yes that's what i thought lah, but to my surprised, this rack di bawah all the cds got one IKLIM tape. I picked it up and agai looked for that song and YES!!!!!!! ada. But tape?

I told that lady i wanted this song. So i asked again, do you have the cd for this? Majal jua tu.. bangang jua bini bini ani kata nya. You know i was still standing where i was for the past hour. I stood there, and just holding to that tape till the end. I said.. how ah? I want this cd and of course giling giling said the same thing, we don't have that cd.

Okay... i still have the tape in my hand you know, and told her to test a few cds yang lain. I bought Jamal Abdillah's colllection jua. I bought some of the Slow Rock and whatever Rock Kapak etc, of course yang original ya... yes so true. And when she saw me beli atu, then she called her husband in one of their stores. And got one left. OMG!!!! Yes!!! Kan melumpat ganya inda but i managed to stay calm but yes glowing. Hahah!!!!

And i told her to book it for me. Yes definetely i got it. And one saja yang tinggal. The husband told me that di Malaysia pun ask him to send that cd because dorang pun inda tedapat anymore that cd. Imagine? That cd been with him since 1998? Amazing and the price is still the same. Its been RM$44.90 in 1998 and it is still now 2010. When you really want it, well... that doesn't matter. Its worth it.

I told my aunty about it. She said how did you get the cd? I told her the story and she was so surprised. This is what she said to me .. Masya-Allah. Thank you for cari ing and dapat ting for me. - I smile and feel so good that i didn't give up. I could just easily give up when that lady said that they don't want have it. I don't know why i wanted to looked for it so bad, but i know that one song in that cd meant a lot to her (my aunty) and i felt its a must for me to get that for her. Where i know places where they sell this type of cds.

I told her that cd was there since 1998 and waited for Umi to rescue. I told her 1998 and she replied "WOW!" ... i smile.

and this is where i stop. I feel so good. I got the IKLIM cd that have the song PERGIMU SATU TANDA. And i make her happy. Not much, but i know she be smiling later when she sleep. I told her i pass the cd to her tomorrow. So .. that's a wrap for me.

Nite nite.

ADDICTED!

I got to say i am addicted ..... Okay addicted to what? Haha!!! That be another different story if i am addicted to ...... hehe. I love to make you think to what i am addicted to what?. But got to tell you i am also.. see i used also here.. also addicted to COFFEE!!!!

Not just sebarang coffee, but Ice Blended Mocha at CB. I can only drink this type of coffee or otherwise ... I FAINT! Serious. I am serious. ( i remember when i was in Dallas, during my high school years, mom gave me the hazel flavor coffee. Oh i love the smell of it. Wangi the whole house with coffe beans. Just so YUMMY!! but when i drank one mug, ooooooooh got to say, i was paralysed, almost pengsan .. yes did not move and only my eye blink. Hahah.. if i remember that, i laugh. I find it funny now but not then. Hahah.. And if you ask me, i don't know why?)

Yes that was a bit of my story once upon a time ago, and i started to sip one or two Ice Blended Coffee at CB when i come back to Brunei. And hey i can without fainting effect. Haha.. But i took it when my perut kosong, i am done. Pengsan tah jua cerita nya. Haha!

Yes.. everything starts in Brunei. Ambuyat pun i remember first time when i got back from UK. Kata my ngangah ... bari malu orang Melayu inda pandai makan ambuyat. Wow!! Challange .. satu cabaran yang harus di lalui tu for me .. so i remember in Bunut, sat with everybody berurak bah di lantai, tasting my first ambuyat, can you imagine tejuluak jeluak but talan eh, now its one of my FAVE dish. Pandai menumpahi lagi.. hahaha...

So about coffee, it hype me up. I need one everyday. How come? Entah.. it gives me energy. I like it. That's how come. Hahah. Hello.. hello.. i drank jua green tea. I drink 4 to 5 cups everyday and without sugar. What hype you up? heheh.. you know and i don't know. Its okay as long as you're hype and happy with that feeling ah..

Today, i want to share this with you. I must say that guy was kind. Very kind because he lend us his umbrella. He i don't know who, but yet lend me his umbrella. A person just passed by, holding on to his umbrella, and i just said that time siapa ada payong ah? And guess what? Yes.. you guess it right.

One hand handing me out one umbrella. Wow!! Yup Mama and the rest was surprised too.. but then i asked him, is it okay to borrow for a while, and he said.. yes with a smile. Sweet.

You don't see so many people do that. Yes .. he got off from the rain, and got tempat yang teduh, and dengan menghulurkan tangan nya with that umbrella .. kind. I have to say he have a kind heart. Like others, who would care. Wish there are more people like that too.. haha. Superb. Bless him. That is one good thing you could do today without you realizing it. Its automatic. When you have a kind heart, its always forever kind. Alhamdulillah.

You can also smile. You can donate. But make sure you donate to the right people and for good cause. And you could pick up somone in the rain and ask where they want to go and send them or banyak lagi. But when i said pick up, it all depends. Don't pick up selarah larah nya, make sure your instinc is right and its safe, then its okay. But otherwise you don't have to do that but instead, give them umbrella and let them use your umbrella. Besar pahala. Yang baik atu always di balas dengan yang lebih baik. When.. only God knows and never doubt it.

Mmmm... if i said something tadi jua? Woooww.. i couldn't imagine eh. But you know, i am sure you also got that moment, where you say something it happened. Not always but always when you're not expecting it. True? Yes.. good. So be very careful when and what you or me wanted to do and sayl. I remind you and me too lah. It could be doa yang terus di makbulkan or it could be just a word that you say with nothing happen. But again, rugi if it were to be doa yang di kabul kan terus... OH.. i let you think lah.

Any way.. just wanted to share what happen today. Something good. Hope you do something good too. Take care. I am still working .. and i finish at 6pm.

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"If you cannot control your mind, you cannot control your life."

1432 Hijrah ...

Selamat menyambut tahun baru Hijrah 1432. Semoga di panjangkan umor dengan kesihatan yang di harapkan sihat walafiat, di kuatkan mental dan physical, di kuat kan Iman, di perluaskan rezeki dan semua usaha di berkati dan di beri rahmat dan doa doa di maqbul kan. Semoga segala amal bakti di terima dan di redai oleh Allah. Mudah mudahan kita bertambah semangat baru dalam menempuhi kehidupan ini.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin..


khusus di tujukan untuk pembaca blog ini serta keluarga kitani.

NOTHING IS .. IMPOSSIBLE!

Make today the most important days in your life! No Worthy Goal is Impossible. Open your mind.

Who Knows?

I hate what I dream today. Why I hate? I just hate being lost. First, woke up in this room.. a suite. Beautiful room, but don’t know where and what I was doing there. One blink, I was in another place. I just don't know the purpose? I tried to call and even look for familiar faces, but no.. nope.. i was totally nowhere. That.. i don't like. I realized I lost my phone. Yes my HP. And the next thing, one blink again, i was telling those people i don't know that i lost my phone. And one guy pity me.. Hah! I was totally lost. I hate being lost especially in my dream, and don’t know what’s happening. Okay? So .. I hate my dream today.

Second story… I just have to leave when things get rough. Rough in arguing. When you just know it will not stop and by being there makes it worst. My remedy would be just to leave that place. No matter where you are. I did. I leave. I just have to get out from there or I will mentally be sick. Sick cum gila. Scarry eh.

Third story .. I never sit at the sofa just outside the ladies room. Not liking the germs our from that room. But today, I sat there. Sat there thinking. What? What should I do? Hot outside, crazy I must say. My nose numb I can’t smell anyting. I felt cold. So cold that my heart become cold. Drama? Drama when you’re hungry. Never.. never .. never.. I opened my book, and read this chapter introduction The Miracle of Think and Grow Rich. It said – There Are Miracles In Having A Major Purpose In Life where you alone can direct your thoughts, control your emotions and ordain your destiny. Well… yes.

I would prefer to avoid it rather than being mentally rape... hahha!! Mentally rape with those unpredictable situation and uncontrollable thinking whatever! Just remember, you can control your Emotions.. remember. Yes!

HERE AND GONE FOREVER..

oH its like that. You notice? Well some of us maybe and some not. Not forever not ever. Good ones gone forever and left with us, still the good ones too... mm i think.

So, siapa yang terhebat? You? Me? I also don't know. I know me but don't know you. Do you know me? Do you know you? Again.. you're the only one who have the answer to all.. sometime not but hey.. its like that.

Honestly, i missed all the people i love gone forever. Cut deep hurt like ...... Al Fatihah .......

psst.. take it easy if you feel the same. I felt it too... Let your cry out how ever you want it.. feel it. And open your eyes, syukur that you got those times spend when they are around. Walaupun a setitik sedetik.. that was the time that you will never ever see again but memories remain forever.

DISSAPOINTED!

Boy oh boy.. Nobody smile. Nobody talked about it too. Nobody say even a word. Silent all the way. I can hear only footsteps. No word. No nothing. What an impact that was after watching SKYLINE. Well... Don't know what to say. But sincerely from my view, from me.. Weldone for the hard work for the crews of making that movie. But i have seen better. So you know what i mean. I saw dissapointment on their faces. Maybe you got a different say or view.

CHOCOLATE FAVE!

M&M'S my FAVE!

PSST... i am having M&M's penuts and M&M's PENUT BUTTER... Do you want to know what really happen? Here i share you my story. I love M&M'S PENUT. And here is so very expensive in a small packet. Hard to get the MAXI AND MEDIUM SIZE.

On my way to Kuala Lumpur, transit in Singapore Airport. Oh.. do you want to know what i did? Yes.. i got fours hours until the next flight to Kuala Lumpur. Apa lagi.. i go jalan jalan and i ate lunch jua at my fave place. I had a very NICE MUSHROOM SUOUP.

Stop at the chocolate shop and got my M&M's. I thought only penut. But M&M's got many flavor. Peanut Butter, Dark Chocolate etc. Nice.. I grabbed quite a lot. And now ... only now i opened the peanut butter and peanuts. Nice.. Can you imagine .... the texture and flavor. YUMMY!!!


Story of me and my M&M's ... So, do you have story to tell about you and your fave chocolate?

Did It!

I did my laundry. Yes i did. And i had Ipoh Bee Hoon sup. Heheh... i modified a bit. The reason why.. Ipoh? i got the receipe from there. So everytime i make bee hoon sup, have that touch of Ipoh. Em.. the way i remember ya.

Wether was cloudy, yes rain a bit. I did my laundry.. now its sunny. Okay.. did my bed sheets, quilt cover, fitted sheet, pillow cases. One pair of jeans. Few tops and panty and socks. Towels too... i think i've washed 3 pink, 1 big towel bath and one small face towel purple in color, and one light brown, and one white. That's two weeks of towels used. Oh.. kitchen towels and bath rugs. All done! Weldone me.

Cooked lunch, had lunch and about to go out. Tomorrow i got something to do. And i got to check it out later. Been listening to CDs.. Great CDs i tell you. You would want to know if you know what i am listening... I am also looking for a good song, a realy good one to help boost the mood. Plus plus.

So, what have you been doing? Anything for family? Watch movie perhaps? Oh... i want to watch two movie but haven't got to it yet. But will do that sometime next week. Next week too i will be very very busy. With work, with other things, etc... and cousin's wedding. this is everyday life. Its life. Sometimes its quiet and sometimes it sucks out of you. That would be horrible. Still ... that's life.

I don't expect much, but i am trying to think what and where i should start. I am thinking more about me. What i can give? What i can do? What? What? What? all about me. It sounds me me me.. but it got to start from me. You know.. i don't want to live less, when you can live your life!

How about yoU?

BREAKFAST?

What i had for b'fast this morning? Oh you really want to know.
Okay.. woke up, hungry. A glass of warm water. Got pickeled
onion, i think i have 5 pieces of that. A cup of green tea.

After that, walk around the house, checking some clothes for
laundry.. yup i am going to do my laundry today. I washed my
own towels. And towels are important to me too. Love good
towels.. towels is tuala or plural nya (tualas). Haha!!! I made
that one up.. heheh. Yup... i need that smile. Good for you.

Still hungry. Oh i got left over Fettuccine in the fridge. Plan to
make sup bee hoon today for lunch. More like Ipoh bee hoon
sup. Well i sort of got the tasting ingredients when i was in Ipoh
a long long time ago. That would be 'once upon a time' ... ah!

Okay, Fettuccine. Oh got some baki of tuna chilli in the frigde
too. Must be the labihan extra from tuna sandwich. Still good.
Now... i must have this for b'fast. What i do with it?

I am naming it as Fettuccine Tuna Zura way.. Yes way. Haha.. i
love food and i enjoyed naming whatever receipe i want when i
make or bake em. You don't have to be worried about not being
the PRO CHEF. You can still live and live fun and happy with the
food you create.

You go out and about, wherever in the world,
you pick up the taste of the food you ate, that if you enjoy
eating. Different story if you like shopping only and probably
you will one day open a store or start whatever with whatever
you like and learn. hehe...Me, still eating.

Okay... my bfast receipe. Need not worry with
nothing to eat. You will always find someting to eat. Just make
that move to start cooking. I know i am not an expert, and being not
an expert atu tah telling you that you .. yes you also can cook. So..
when i can cook, no matter how you say you can't, you can
actually cook.


Its in you and just make that move and start
cooking. I know the first one will be a ... may be turn well or not, still its
your cooking and how you cook that makes it work and unique. I would
love to be invited by you to see your first cooking.. why not.


Okay i am still writing. Okay.. okay... here how i make my
pastas.

2 garlic. Chop chop. Heat pan.. pour olive oil. Throw in
the chop chop garlic. Let it until you smell the aroma.. then the
tuna chilli. Fettuccine in, sprinkle salt, a pinch of tomatoo pure ..
DONE!!! Get a white plate for the pasta. Fork to eat it with. OH..
lovely. Simply and just for you.

I ate mine already. Oh i forgot, if for you only, just not so much
with the pasta. Maybe just a cup size for bfast. Cooolll.. you
want to try it? let me know.

You can add red onion or purple onion, all up to you.
I am plain and love my food plain. Love
garlic too.. So i didn't want to add other onions because i
wanted to enjoy the taste of garlic... Haha!!!!

Everyday is always a new experience for me whenever wherever
i am and eating.. YOu?

Selamat Mencoba... Enjoy your b'fast.

Oh no.. i said i want to do laundry. But the weathere out there
look very mendung. What is mendung... cloudy.

AL FATIHAH

AL FATIHAH

UNTUK NENEK TERSAYANG

HJH MASINU BINTI SARANG MOHAMMAD

Lyrics.. need it?

running towards me.
running towards you.
look closely?
none look familiar to you?
Your friend?
Is this your life?
Your life?
no me .. no you...
can you hear me?
.... la la ... la la...
are you going forever?
or just for a moment?
what would you rather have?
Me or just you..
or us ?



Psst.. maybe you want to use one for your lyrics?? Just a thought.. just maybe. Haha.. entah don't know.. Is it? Can it be use as a lyric? I don't know. Only you know... Ending is just impossible in in LOVE.. but its a pain in the ass. Haha.. You tell me, you can create a song from this? heheh..

ANY IDEA?

Sometime you wish you're the one. How many times you wish you were the one? Wishes comes true for some, others just still waiting.. accepting it or just waiting in vain. How's your wishes? Your wishes come true?

How many wishes have you made and ask and pray for it to come true? Are you really wanting your wishes to come true or just something you wish that you wish not?

Some wishes something they wish not but wish too.. withouth think. Ever think that it would never occur to you what you wish for are not the wishes that you actually wishes for.. mmm...

Confused? ... read it again..

Did you ever wish for something you never ever think of wishing but the slip of your tongue the words of wishes flows without you even realize and it happen? And yet what you really wish for ... all these years never comes.. Ever?

Still confused? ..

AL FATIHAH

AL FATIHAH

UNTUK NENEK TERSAYANG

HJH MASINU BINTI SARANG MOHAMMAD

YANG TELAH KEMBALI KERAHMATULLAH KEMARIN

10 ZULHIJJAH 1431H/ 17 NOVEMBER 2010 MASIHI.

A MINUTE AGO..

Just a minute ago..
i felt like i am about to die.
My heartbeat really fast, fast.. really fast.. and i was really scared.
Entah for whatever reason i think of that just that moment ago, i am really scared.
I am not ready to go. But who am i to know when i leave and when i stayed.
Its just a blink or less than a blink away that i am here with you.
Really scarry eh. I pray .. good health and yes.. take me when its time.
But still i am not ready. Are you?

'S' JOINT..

I just wonder what's running in his mind?? Not even a blink. Really wonder whats in everybody's mind? Wow!!!!! I have never see one like that since BKK? Yes.. i remember, since BKK. But here in J? That's someting. Something run wild in my mind. Ops!!! That is serious. What? Here in J? No way. For all i know in T only. And yes topless in other countries... ! i laugh with blood rushes in my adreline. Gila!!! Berabus my mind oleh nya. In J? I can't believe it eh. But i've seen it. Yes once is enough. Wow!!! Saw men like lorry drivers sat in the middle of the SJ, and as soon as it finished, a live band from quite a popular group on, well... they got up and went back. OOOOOhhhh... i told my friend, au jarih tu karang. But not sure siapa? Crazy i have to say, but puas to see that it does exist. Only the Girls, how bout the men? Apparently got. But when? Not staying longer.. All i can say, my ears were red, i blushed, and its HOT! What a day today to start my Friday here in J. I can't say no more. But if i am really relax, may.. just maybe i will share what i see with my naked eyes.. Haha.!!

Hello..

Don't live to impress and please others.

HARGA DIRI??

Where? Mana? Have you seen? Yes .. like depan mata you. Have you seen? I have. And its funny.. Funny in a way like beli daging or like di pasar. Just di Club saja like jual apa? haha.. Oh well.. So not shocking, but thought never would see that happening depan you. Hiya.. macam macam orang kan jual. Bebisnes dari apa saja sampai jual diri pun ada. Very interesting kan.

I saw she her merunding harga. Harga Diri that is. A bit funny, usually kitani runding harga with our finger untuk barangan, but this is body.. I must say.. ada harga jua and dapat runding like that.. I think from $500 go down to $200 then lama lama ... entah berapa kah. I'll get back to this lagi karang. Later.

ZURIAT..

Having zuriat is the greatest thing ever happen in your life.. But nada zuriat is the saddest. But when you can its wonderful and amazing feeling to have, but if you can't, its sad but not the end of the world. Banyak cara to have one.

When you don't want to have one mean NADA LONG LASTING EVIDENCE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN TOGETHER (and what the point) yet you know you could. Sayang sayang sekali. But then again.. up to individu. How you see life.

Happy Morning!!

Keep Up Semangat!

I said i wanted to update it. But no time jua this week. Been a great week. Been a busy week. Been apa apa jua week lah. Drama pun ada. Hiya!! What to do with life?? Keep breathing, keep that semangat kuat and Insya-Allah you'll or me live for many many years to come. Quit semangat might just as well Die..

Bah banar jua tu kan. What do you want to do? Jadi Corpse but masih hidup? No lah ah.. yup. That's good. Nop.. Say Not me..

Sometimes i wish someone would understand me. But i wish i would understand someone too. But entah lost in the Bermuda Triangle or short BT. Kalau paham bisai. Ia tah, kan mengeloh buat apa jua, kan happy pasal apa? Entah what happen. Lost ... just lost. Jangan sampai ku menyanyikan YOu LOst Me .. hehh aiseh .. Au cukup popular oleh Christina Aguilera.

Keraja siang malam, macam atu tah kehidupan tani. Kehidupan i jua lah tu. But is that it saja kah? Drama sana sini.. happy ending expecting. But inda jua. Masih jua. But ia lah, dangar bawa bersabar saja. .... ....

Apa kan Zura cakapkan ani.. Haha!! Entah me pun inda tau.

My cousins drop by baru ani. We felt like dwarf. Well she did. And i do too. Like tried that 7" heel dah but masih jua. Thought tall tah sudah ni, but once you stand next to your other cousin only 11 and 12 years, ooh oh oh ooo become short. Every day shorter and shorter. I gues life pun like that, just we didn't see it. Its coming your way and my way too.

I am looking forward for November ani. Very interesting chapter in my life. I hope! How about yoU? Flying anywhere? Me? Yes.. looking forward.

Here is some tips. Don't know if it works with you. When you feel like you want to go away for a while, go. Do it. Don't let anything held you back. Go do it. Darn it. I lost it again. Esuk lagi samboong.

Psst. I am listening got GOLD. Oh just love em. Not the age factor. Been liking it forever. When you love someone, and someone not loving you back, its okay. I am sure someone out there love you but just that you don't know. Sayang kan. Hahah!!! Whatever! CheerUP..

FRESH MUD NYA ATU..

I saw red car ramuk jua and still muddy. I was in my car, baru sampai at the parking lot tadi and saw this car .. well kena tarik pulang tu. Inda ia belajan sendiri, cana jua mun picak memicak atu. I guess out of control or mengantok or etc ... banyak lah yang boleh kitani katakan tapi yang memandunya sendiri hanya tau cerita sebenarnya.

Hari atu one of my friend sikit lagi accident sebab ambok. Tapi one of my friend lagi accident baru baru ani, and kata nya kereta atu kesiring siring and membuatkan ia ke siring rasa kan mengelakkan tapi tekandas pulang ia sendiri. Macam mana jua tu? Alum jumpa ia lagi kan dangar cerita nya. Tapi somebody text me to ask me how my friend is doing? Buleh? Well.. my other friend saw my friend punya kereta, nya doesn't look good. But Alhamdulillah, my friend ani okay. Inda cedera. Kata nya nasib baik ia pakai TALI PINGGANG KESELAMATAN. So... apa lagi, jangan lupa pakai lah kalau memandu ya.

Lama inda berUpdate .. OPS!

Wow... been a while ya. Been busy jua. But so many to tell.. Saw many things happened. And thought i needed updated in life jua. Hahah... Many many to share. And i tell you some i didn't know but now i know and banyak lagi. Haha... i can't stop laughing when i think of that one too. I will be updating my blow later in the evening hopefully. Got to go to work later at 2pm to 6pm.

But yester FYI if you missed the news, Paul passed away. Yup.. i was in my car, at the parking lot waiting for the time to pass until i start my night shift.. Tuning to Kristal FM and BBC News was on. So yes got to hear the latest news around the world. Its better than reading.

For you yang hate reading atu, best not to miss at least to listen to the news or watch one. You have to, so you know whats happening too. Ya lah.. its hard but try lah . I will get back writing later.

shower and work.

DOA KU HARI INI

Ya Allah, jauhi aku dari maksiat mata, hati, mulut dan telinga. Lindungi aku Ya Allah.
Ya Allah, janganlah Engkau membiarkan aku dengan cobaan yang ku lalui ini seorang diri, bimbinglah aku, beri aku petunjuk .. Ya Allah .. aku merindui hidup yang bahagia, hati yang aman dan tenang, aku inginkan bersama orang orang yang ku sayangi dan menyanyangi aku..

Ya Allah .. lindungi aku.. jauhi aku dari penyakit hati.. Selawat dan Salam buat Rasul S.A.W serta kerabat keluarga dan sahabat sahabat baginda.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin..

HATI YANG KAU SAKITI..

Mengalih jua di sakiti ani.. apa kata aku pulang yang kan menyakiti.. Why not?
Bebaik salah. Jahat salah. Apa perlu di lakukan? Ya Allah..

Lawa lagu ani. Tapi sangal ku mendengar jua sebab selalu saja menerima bila di sakiti. Bukan kalah, malas kan fikir kali bah. Tapi ia lah.. sampai bila jua mau di sakiti, ada had nya. Pandai berfikir dan bertindak sendiri. Jangan pura pura saja...


pepatah :

Bagaimanapun keadaan kita pagi ani, apa pun masalah yang kita hadapi, percayalah, Tuhan memiliki rencana yang baik untuk kita.. Ya Allah.

ALL GOOD THINGS..

All bad things happen in life are all yang labih-labih kan di tapis yang jahat dulu. I terima. Tapi jangan jua di pajal. I am going to be away next week. And for some, wow.. great. And for me, super wonderful.

AWAKEN ..

I awake every morning, wishing and praying to Allah, i will move on and deal with what i have to deal in life with what Allah got in stock for me for the rest of my life. But sometimes, i sat, i got frustrated, i am being fooled. I ask myself, was i foolish or is this just another what i have to go through to? Well.. okay. Its life. Who says its easy, but why make it difficult when its already is, and trying to manage and sort life to be in one piece. And ...

So when i am frustrated, i pray to Allah, its just too heavy for me, i just pray and wish Allah take me. Take me.. .. ..

When i listen to Maher Zain's song AWAKEN .. now and now and now.. i cry. Yes.. i am touched. I am one of that person. And I thank you Allah.. for this signs a way to reach me and a way for me to reach Allah that i shouldn't forget that i live for Allah, and not for anyone. I live to have a family, child, husband and families to make me happy to live in this world, and i still live for Allah. And yes ... that song meant a lot to me too...

A sign send to me by the Angels from Allah, through that song. So i be awake by the AWAKEN .. there are reasons why songs are created, its a way for some people relate to it and be awaken in whatever situation they faced. Well.. that's me.

We have given so many prizes in our life.
Allah is watching us.

TRANSPARENT?

Do i have to be faithful? ... Do i have to be fool? - You ask that yourself. No point in blaming people. I don't see. Yes.. but you know you're being watched every single minute in your life. You did wrong, may be you can get away with it, but not really if you can really see it all..

Good Luck!

BERSEMANGAT BAH ..

LETTERS TO JULIET.. Lawa jalan cerita nya. Must see movie lah. Romantic. Don't know how many yang romantic di sini ani, tapi kalau sekiranya you hilang that romanticness in you, its about time to watch this movie and feel it again.

Bersemangat tarus tu. Serious eh, you would want to feel you again. Rugi kalau hilang romanticness in you. Rugi. Rilex all the muscle in you, and a good terapi too to ease your mind with good romantic movie.

I watch diam diam, sudah atu in the middle, ketawa ketawa ... (ada orang pikir aku chatting) tapi meliat dvd in my note book kali ah, then teary sikit almost to the end, and woweee... cun cun berabis. Nice. I am touched.

Yes i know how that felt. Really do. One moment in time, when you're lost and full of doubts, a pinch of love, will wake you up and smell the fresh new you with all the romanticness you longed for . oh... lovely eh.

Padan jua mua atu eh... baik baik memandu bah.

either you go or you stop, or you give way. Apa lah. Jangan tah kan di sumbat kereta atu. Bila di sumbat, inda bejalan yang lain. Ani tah masalah orang-orang kitani. Inda ada kan bertolak ansur. Pikir kehadapan bila kan memandu atu. Bila stuck arah jam, especially area sekolah, jangan tah memandai kan menyumbatkan kereta atu saja. Selfish jua eh. Sudah di sumbatkan macam banar tia. Yang di belakang ani kan menyamboh tia jua. Nampak jua ketuyuan atu. Di buat lagi depan bini, anak anak tu, rosak tah banar.

Memandu ada undang undang nya. Bila memandu common sense pun pakai lah. Jangan tah siok sendiri. Bila kan beri jalan, liat dulu kereta di belakang jua, jangan diri kan beri jalan, orang di belakang inda ready kan beri jalan, telanggar cerita nya tu.
Tapi banar eh, irritating dengan bapa mama yang mengambil anak sekolah, yang siok sendiri, yang parking tangah tangah jalan, macam ia seorang ganya kan mengambil anak nya. Adoi.. kan cakap bari malas. Buang tah tabiat siok sendiri atu. You know lah apa yang siok sendiri.

Inda kan asal tengah hari, makan sumpah tah ganya. Inda jua orang puas hati tu, ada yang baik, diam saja, tapi ada yang sebaliknya, menyumpah tah ganya.

Bukan jua apa, atu taim drive, ani taim shopping pun ada mama menyumpah yumpah anak nya ani bah. Kan mati jua banar.. nya kan arah anak nya ani bah. Inda ia sengaja kali bah, andang suda memang jadi percakapan nya kali tiap hari, so biasa tia. Tapi aku yang mendengar ani, wah... takut ku mati anak nya atu dapan ku dengan waktu nya menyumpah. Ia menyumpah pasal apa nah??

Anak nya meliat barang bahagian tabir, sekali ia mencari cari kali bah. Bila nya tejumpa, kan mati kali eh.. kata nya. Tetoleh ku, tapi like pura pura ku inda meliat jua. Bari ijap. Nah, atu yang menyumpah anak nya. Ani biskita yang mendrive inda tantu, orang lain jua kita atu, kena makan sumpah eh kalau memandu macam orang inda waras, or siok sendiri nya aku tu, or menyumbat-yumbat kan kereta suka suka membuat kan lagi trafik jam yang tidak sewajarnya berlaku.

Bertolak ansur lah ketika memandu, sama sama kita tidak membuang masa dengan stuck di trafik jam, and memandu lah dengan penuh cermat dan mengunakan akal fikiran (common sense) yang boleh bertindak cepat ketika di perluka nya bertindak untuk mengelakan dari kesesekkan jalan raya.

Saling menghormati antara satu dengan yang lain. Sentiasa menggunakan tali pinggang keselamatan, signal, lampu isyarat, cermin kanan dan kiri, side mirror, yang tengah, dan menguasai jarak jauh dekat kenderaan yang lain, dan patuhi lah undang undang dan speed limit jalan raya. Insya-Allah ... selamat sampai ke destinasi.

Bukan jua, kan bercerita tah ku jua. Depan ku ada motor bike bah, taim drive ni. Sekali ada kereta ani, sebelah kiri menuntumi kereta jua, bike ani sebelah kanan, depan ku, and sikit lagi terpelanting kalau ia inda mengelak. Kereta sebelah kiri menyimpang ke kanan, tapi inda bersignal. Suka suka nya, tekajut biker ani, and dengan cepat nya ia melaju kan motor nya. Paloi banar orang atu. At least pun, pakai lah signal.

Ada setengah orang, nya inda jua bekereta, bahapa kan pakai signal. We never know. Kadang kita saja nampak nada kereta, tapi actually ada. So ada inda, bila kan masok simpang, pakai tia signal kereta atu. That's what its for. Inda rugi tu. Tapi menyelamatkan pulang tu.

BENCI OR SUKA?

Up to you lah. Banci or suka? Up to you. Inda orang melarang. Banchi banchi. Bila jua semua suka? You think ada yang suka you ganya kan? Ada jua yang banchi you kali eh. Ani betambah tia jua.

For me banchi, well... not so. Dislike ada but not so serious. I can't be bothered. But banchi.. nop. For what? And suka? Well suka jua. That also can't be bothered.
Banyak lagi perkara lain kan di pikirkan. Unless you are mentally sakit. Zahir batin sentiasa membenci. Entah kenapa you di lahirkan membenchi??

Nasib baik i tidak di lahir kan membenci. Di benci ada, tapi its okay.. Siapa jua suka semua. kalau suka semua, hahah... inda tia life. LIfe is full of surprises kan. Kan kata Forest Gum.. life is like a box of chocolates.


Nah... paham pahami tia. Kalau semua suka, inda tia real. Oh.. kan tanya, macam mana kan suara buat buat ani? Selama ku keraja di radio ani, sama saja suara ku.
Kalau ku bejalan jalan (malas jua kan bercerita, tapi kan bagi paham sikit yang bodoh atu) kalau ku bejalan, becakap ku sikit, keluar suara ku sikit, tarus tia kenal aku. LIke inda ku kan minta di kenali, tapi apa jua boleh buat. Kenal jua ia suara ku. Macam mana tah pulang kau cakap suara ku inda sama?

Kalau suara ku macam si BOBOY di Kristal atu, datang ku becakap dengan orang suara ku lain, barangkali kau boleh cakap catu. Ani tarang tarang suara ku suara ku.. (psst.. BOBOY jangan marah ah. Just bagi contoh arah orang yang bodoh or berlagak bodoh, tapi pendangki... and inda tau kan membezakan suara banar, belakun, suara pura pura, suara buat buat ... etc lah nya ).


Entah entah, inda pernah becakap sama aku kali. Kalau bejumpa, lain kali tagurkan. Inda ku marah. Mari tah kitani bercerita. Inda kan suara radio ku pakai suara becakap dengan kawan kawan, atu bida tu eh.

Kalau inda tau, jangan tah banyak mengomen. Kalau inda suka, kan muntah rasa nya, tukar chanel. Banyak chanel station radio di Brunei ani. Alum ku hilang peminat mun ganya kau and mungkin ada beberapa kan tune in to other channel.

I listen to KRISTAL, NURISLAM, HARMONI, PILIHAN, ERA, HITZ FM, GOLD, KISS FM, ETC. Banyak lagi sebenarnya. Inda pernah ku mengucap mengucap aku inda suka. Bila inda suka, jangan dangar. Jangan jadi kan masalah mu atu masalah orang. Tanggong sendiri.

Psst.
Mendengar Radio ada lah salah satu terapi untuk menghilang kan STRESS. Stress ani memendekkan umor biskita.
Jadi, senang senang kan diri dengan mendengar DJ kesayangan biskita ke udara dengan pilihan lagu yang menyenangkan biskita.

Okay tu... Jaga diri.

Orang Kawin ... Tambah keluarga.

Bekwin kawinan. NicE AND SIMpLE. Bejumpa SANAK SAUDARA. SEMUA AKHIRNYA CONNECTED AS FAMILY. I LIKE IT.  Baju COLOR SKY BLUE, like KELUARGA PENGATIN ... wHISpeRS from relatives. AnggOK-anggok saja kepala ku. Au baNar jua Family Jua. 

Hiya!! OP park there????

Suka suka hatinya parking kereta nya di sana. Like ia punya. Satu lagi OP jua lagi. I mean Hellew... we don't park our car tangah-tangah jalan. Or arah trafik light di mana mana in the world. OP tah pulang macam si taie... Inda ku anti OP, but jika inda mematuhi undang-undang, mean nada respect in our country Brunei.. Mentang-mentang warna kulit nya putih, boleh buat suka hati kah? Well... rules is rules. You need to follow rules or end up in Jail or paying for the fine. Remember, that goes to every country jua with rules. Jangan buat bodoh sana atu.

So anyway, know undang-undang di jalan raya lah ya. Kalau inda tau undang-undang jalan, then jalan tah drive. I give you vision di mana OP atu parking kereta and kenapa ia tinggalkan di sana. YOu know the junction ke gadong, trafik light yang ada jua exit dari hiway ke gadong, arah trafik light atu, ada Court Furniture kan, so ia parking just after the trafik light. Pikir ku kereta nya rosak kah. Sekali inda rupanya. Parking tah ia sudah tu. OP bini pulang ni, jalan macam orang inda bedosa ani bah, ke CF atu ia tah pulang. I was at the trafik light. Wanted to take picture ia park di sana ah. Tapi inda sampat. My phone was arah my handbreak. Siapa jua kan menyangka ia kan park di sana. If i sempat ambil gambarnya, wah.. sudah tia ku post picture nya. But hey... its okay. I share with you pun hope you can bayangkan lah. Cali jua eh. Cali bodoh manusia ani jua ya.

So.. itu lah cerita nya. Inda jua salah ia masok simpang and park kereta nya arah CF atu. Banyak jua parking. But entah apa ada di kepala otak nya. Lain lagi tu, pasal parking. Ani lori laju laju bila you on the road jua. Inda dorang sadar kali ada speed limit. Apa lah. kadang ada yang biadap and kurang ajar jua, bila di HON di lajukan kan nya lagi, macam tah kan membawa ia belumba. Wal hal, mengHON atu, memberitau arah nya ia driving terlalu laju. Hiya!!!

psst... my friend mental hari ani. Inda ia dapat menyelamatkan ambok. Helew... orang yang mendrive atu melanggar ambok, and the body tepelanting arah kereta my friend. Emm.. i guess ia not so close jua, tapi macam close jua bunyinya. This is on the way to Bandar from Hiway Jerudong to bandar. He was on the left lane and the other Lancer car grey color was on his right. So laju jua lah on the hiway ... siapa jua inda, so he hit the monkey, monkey terpelanting ke kiri and the body just tepelanting ke jalan siring (hope inda kena run over, kalau inda kecian tu eh.. ) Tapi, bahaya jua kalau menyelamatkan haiwan yang terkena nasib like that ketika memandu. Antara dua nyawa, monkey atau diri sendiri. Mudah mudahan berhati-hati lah.

Apa nah kata mama nya, kecian ambok atu. Haha... nya my friend 'WHAT??????? kecian ambok? Aku?' hehhe... sian my friend. Masih ia nervous. So tips nya, kalau di jalan, laju tah jua, ada tah haiwan kan menyeberang, well tough luck kalau inda dapat di selamatkan. Its not that you want to hit it on purpose, tapi .... But be very careful lah. Tapi selamat kan nyawa biskita dari menyelamat benda yang kan melintas. Langgar tia. Cruel bunyinya, tapi kalau nyawa hilang, well.. you can't buy it anywhere in the world. Lagi sedih kan. Nada news yang baik jika menyelamatkan haiwan yang meyeberang jalan. Selalu nya bad news.

Hati hati lah. Take care. I go dulu.

WANTED?

Takajut when i heard the news atu. What happen? You know life is not going to be kind. You got to get tough to get a life that you want. Its not easy. But what actually happen? I know the last time i saw you was on the road. You were driving a white car and driving towards the roundbout Qlap. And you wave at me. The next few days you text me and told me that you got a new number.. I didnt text you back, but i save your number.

So what's all this wanted thing? Are you around? Are you in town? Wow.. may be you're not in town. What happen? Did you witnessed something that you're wanted or did you do something that makes you WANTED? ... i don't know. Only you know.

Wah.. macam banar aku ah. Becakap dengan orang wanted. Mana tau ia baca my blog?? Mana tau lah. Well life is not friendly to you, but go and get tough will give you a life. But not tough like tough something else, but tough in every good way and bad way for good reasons for have a great life, yes.. why not.

People go through the lives in their own way. Own style and own perspective on whatever there is for them to think about and look. Me.. i have my own and you? You have your own too. Tough luck.. well, that if you loose. But that doesn't mean you loose lah. No harm, coba lagi.. Why not!

i need your love
God speed you love
to ... mmmm ... me.. (oh yes listening GOLD)

Oh my late dady's fave...

and now
so i face the final curtain
my friend... mmm....
which i 'm certain..
i live a life ....
travel each way on every highway..
i did it my way...

Oh... laju jua. This is a perfect song for my late daddy. Ada meaning, i m sure, that's why his fave. ... More much more than this .... i did it my way. Yes there was time, i m sure you know... I miss him. Al Fatihah babah.. He sang this song loud and proud!


Anyway.. about WANTED. What happen? Was life treating you bad? Was it what???? Well.. nothing i can say more than this, just wish everything's well. You can run.. But how far can you run?

Serigala VS Zebra

Namun.. perasaan Zebra ia manang. Manang apa kan? Zebra yang berbelang belang tembelang, lawa pulang tapi tembelang jua eh. Haha.. Cute kan.

I am trying to imagine all the zoo families atu gathering bah.. which do you like the best? Lion, Tiger, Leapard, em.. fly or zebra, or what? Hawk.. belalang, monkey, barok, orang hutan? Snake, lintah? Cacing, kancil, buaya? Arnab? apa .... let me know.

I am trying to imagine if serigala jumpa zebra. Or lion jumpa zebra? Would it care about the belang colors its have or or it see zebra as food. Em.. makanan? LIke daging muda, fresh and wow.. yummmy to have? heheh... baibun bah eh.

Black and white kan tu? What color would you like for zebra to have? I must say the black and white state it as a real Zebra. OUch!! I would like to have Zebra in my Zoo. What animals would you like to have? LIke some.. ada yang suka lintah too.. em buaya pun ada, and monkeys too. Jarang ada penyu jadi piliharaan, tapi kura-kura ada. You apa?

Oh... gajah, tikus and banyak lagi eh. I like Lion jua. Not bad. I like Tiger too.. Nice kali ah. I still wonder what you like? Ada babi hutan.. ganas tu eh. Inda ia melapaskan alum di arok nya dengan tanduk nya. Eh.. ada tanduk kah? Tajam kali giginya, jangan tah kan angan-angan minta gigit, gigitan maut boleh jadi gila babi.

Siput.. au. Ada yang sukan makan tu, and ada jua yang gali, bari gali jua eh. Tapi jangan ... siput tetap siput, walau pun slow, tapi maintain you!! Ah.. buang panas? Mana saja ... you think you're cooler than me , i like this song eh. Jangan perasaan..

I had a great weekend. A long weekend and my house already like jungle house. Hahah.. its called Zura Jungle Hut.. Au serious. Haha.. I beli all the plants, i wish to get this one beautiful plant, basar eh.. tapi next month lah. That would fit perfect. That's why i talk about the zoo.. haha.. and i already got monkeys and i tell you, susah nak cari tu. Haha.. i mean di halaman rumah you know.

Ada jua yang berjanji, tapi tinggal janji lah. But its okay. I fill up my times with something to forget that promises. I hear something good happening, and i am happy too. Oh well... if you like the zoo.. plan to go to the zoo. If you like the sea, plan to go to the see, if you like the fish.. go take the diving cert and dive in to see the fishes.. Why not!!

Oh bout the Serigala and the Zebra, i would like to be serigala for now. You be Zebra lah ah.. Just for today. Hahah.. YOU?

Cheer up! xoxo

Bullet Proof Vest?

Yes .. wear it all the time. All the time. You know why?

Bullet proof Vest could be anything. Em.. you can say 'i am wearing one pun' .. Anything to save you and your heart lah. Heart selalu di main-main kan. And inda nyaman bila nya sakit. So bullet proof vest yang ini mean for your heart lah. Haha.. Sasak?

Some are happy. And some are sasak. Some are gila and some are waras dalam menghadapi kehidupan yang penoh dengan segala-gala. Ada buaya, ada serigala, ada sang kancil, ada kura-kura, ada ular dan ada tupai. Haha... perangai tu. Bermacam-macam ada.

So kalau pakai bullet proof vest .. apa jua bullet cannot tambus dang. Ada yang senyum membaca ani.. entah perasaan nya terusik kali jua.. ada yang serious .. mmm memikirkan apa ceritanya .. ada yang selamba like nothing happen. Macam macam jua ada tu.

So.. bullet proof vest nya jua pakai. Jangan inda. Menyasal melayan hati sakit sebab itu ini itu ini.. Bukan senang nak dapat ketenangan, ada tu pakai nya. Hahah.

Hiya.. xoxo.

ALLAH IS WATCHING YOU .. AND ME ..

Ya Allah ...
ampunkan lah aku ...

Ku akui kelemahan diri ..
ku akui kejahilan diri ...
Terima lah taubat ku ..

Setiap hari ..
nafas yang di beri ..
di pinjam semantara untuk menikmati dunia ini ..
hanya semantara ..
ku sedari .. masih aku jahil Ya Allah ..

Ku mohon perlindungan ..
sentiasa dalam beriman ..
tidak kalah dengan hasutan ..
dari syaitan syaitan ..

Ya Allah..
Ampun kan aku ..
Ampunkan suami ku ..
Ampun kan kedua ibu bapa ku ..
Ampunkan anak-anak ku
Ampunkan adik beradik ku ..
Ampunkan ipar ipar ku ..
berikankan rahmat serta hidayah ...
Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama ..
Semoga Allah tetap menyangi kami ..
hamba Allah sehingga ke akhir nya ..

Temukan aku serta keluarga ku
kehidupan yang Allah berikan
dan di jalan Allah kami menuju
dari keredaan mu ..
Insya-Allah kami mencium baru Syurga Mu.

Amin... Amin .. Amin ..

Sejarah eh..

Good Morning. Rise and Shine. Live up to the fullest in life.. and enjoy every moment of it. Never regret it, but learn from it to be wiser. You'll love every moment of it when you recieved it with full forgiveness and love.

Oh..oo...o. One day, menangis dalam hati. Tanggisan happy, marah ada jua, penyesalan ada jua, kebecian, kekeciwaan, terharu, entah apa ku rasakan ani, semuanya ada. Gerigitan pun ada jua, tapi inda lah too bad. Tapi tenang saja lah.. inda jua bad. One thing good about it, i learn something from all this.

Dari awal till the end. I don't understand awalnya, tapi hey.. the process teaches me something valuable in life. Very interesting. Very very interesting. But whatever yang you rasa the same as i do, well ... i hope you learned form it too. Seriously, if you felt the same, just learned from every bit of moment from it, and just smile.

History.. yes it become history. History can be sweet, bitter and can be sour for you. When you combine sweet, bitter and sour together, you get a great tastes. Yup.. banar tu. And that makes you smile. What a memoir..

So its history lah. Yang dulu its history. Another episod in your life. Tapi jangan di buang. Jangan di lupakan. Its history kan. Never di lupakan and never the buang. Its the facts in your life and keep it, jarok ia, and siman ia sebagai kenangan terindah yang inda dapat di jual beli. Pengalaman yang mungkin you sorang saja yang kena kasih.. mana tau. Its a gift of life. A special one. Simpan and belajar dari nya..

Yang dulu, jadi history
jangan di lupa
jangan di buang.

Yang sekarang mulakan kehidupan penuh bermakna, jadikan titik permulaan kehidupan baru dan akhiri dengan kebahagian bersama keluarga hingga ke akhir hayat you. Jangan ada alasan ani lah, alasan atu lah.. bina lah kehidupan yang di beri ani sesunggohnya, agar ia akan terus bermakna dalam hidup you. Meaning... sadang sadang tah.

Tinggal kan tia kehidupan menipu, curang, menyakitkan, bermuka-muka, berkelakar, mempermainkan dan entah apa lagi kategori yang inda guna atu. Okay pulang awal atu, its okay. I am sure you pun curious kan, apa perangai perangai ani and impack nya. Menghasut pun masok tu. Menfitnah.. bercerita yang tidak benar etc etc eh banyak lagi. hahah.

Anyway, be happy with whatever you have in life now.


Live not regret
Live to the fullest
Live not with hatered
Live with Love and Respect
May Allah Bless our journey in our life


Salam.

Gift..

A gift could be anything. Anything. Living healthy and surrounded by great families, that's the greatest gift ever. For the healthy yes.. being healthier are the great gifts. The unhealthy ones, well.. the greatest of all gifts was just to be alive and to be with families and hoping and wishing to be healthier.. and given a chance to live to see another day is also a gift. It could be anything. Not necessarily things. Gifts also include love, TLC and many more. Hearing what one had to say.. that's also a gift. Donating organs, that's a gift from someone to you and having to live your life to see good things coming your way, that's just a super gift you ever get.

Why i talk about gift. You're living healthy. And sometimes you forgot to appreciate with what you have. Just little things matters. I forgot too. I thought i would love to live like this and that. But when you watched health channels, well, it immediatelly open your eyes, there are people struggling to live.

How strong are you? How strong are you? How strong are you if that people are you? Are you going to be that strong? Are you? Am i? Am i? I asked myself.. Am i.

Why whine when you are in well and good contidion? Small things upsets you? You got to see the worst ever real story about surviving from living in hell (though i don't know how living hell is... ) but have the courage to live. And never surrender..

So never forget ... you're still okay. A gift is a special gift and look how you are now.. be thankful that you got to be living like you're now.. than sebaliknya. Your life is a gift from Allah.. What's your gift to others?


Psst.. i am very sleepy. nite.
xoxo

HAPPIER THAN YOU THINK..

You are actually. Yes you are. No doubt about that. I felt it and its the same to me. I woke up and yes.. true. So embrace it while you can. You might not have this chance anymore. Don't abuse it. see it clearly.. very clear. And smile. That would ease the pain that you felt which actually you're happier than you think.

xoxo.

Congrats My Friend!

I am listening to Norah Jones The Fall... nice and easy. I can't believe my friend menimang baby girl. Oh.. so sweet. So sweet. I wish to have baby girl too. I have one boy, and wish to have baby girl too with my hubby.

Hearing people menimang baby, babies... wow. nice. I don't know if i want want. And i don't know if my hubby want one too.. Haha.. i rather not talk about it. But hey.. it was a great surprise when i knew my friend welcomed a new member in the family. I thought one girl saja. You're so lucky. Eh.. tapi cepat jua buat? Hahah...

au ah... nine months kan tu. That's right.

Well, you got to be really inlove to have one child in this world. No money pun i think you can survive lah. But no child.. no not really. Entah apa ku cakap ani kan. No money, like not so much, well.. a struggle jua to bring up children. You got to be able to bring them up, prepare everything once you have them till they turn 21 . That would be their years, not you anymore.

Oh.. am i glad to hear the news that my friend got a baby girl. I am glad i know the baby's name in advance lagi tu.. but ganya i didn't know, banar kah inda jua, not sure, there would be baby, baby girl lagi. Confirmed! and Congrats!!!! Congratts!!! Oh. May Allah bless you and family my friend. Take good care of you.

Though we don't meet anymore.. but i hear news about you. Great news all the time. Wish everything well and wish one day we could meet again. It's been a while, but hey.. i am glad. I am really glad. Hugs and kisses for dearest baby BR. Cute too. Heheh..

I am sure your hubby love you. And i am sure you love him too... Jeles ku. Mesti buat baby nie.. Haha. Need to discuss this with my beloved hubby. Wonder what he thinks about having another child. Adding one more in the family. I miss those time. I miss having a small one in the family. Haha... Cali eh

Apa yang a bit cali, relationship was like ombak ombang ambing, but one beautiful baby girl the angel was sent by God to make this relationship work. Insya-Allah with doa and prayer, relationship will be better than you expect.

Hiya.. i miss my hubby eh!!! haha.

NOT ONCE BUT TWICE

I got a feed back from what i wrote about the sex scandals one roof. Some .. some shared thier problem too. Gosh.. i don't want you to look for me for this. Try to find out how to do this really.. to help the girls yang victims of this abuse.

One said, the brother in-law 'tampar-tampar sayang' on her 'cipap' while sleeping. And yes brother in-law for sure. She was 16 and wonder why would her brother in-law did that. Twice.. the next morning she told her mother that she wants to move out from the house. But didn't tell her mother about what had happened.

Another one said, brother in-law went in her room, betuala-tuala and 'ampai-ampai' nya the Coc*!!! She wonder why would he do that.. and then her sister masok, cepat cepat ia cover tarus.

Another said, her nenek jalan dekat dekat and geselkan his hard c**k arah badan nya, while in the kitchen. And ask her to hold his co*k.

Another said, her uncle sat outside in the living room, everybody were sleeping, and flashing his c**k... malu ia.

I am sad to hear stories like this. Now some yang told me are married dah. They have this dirty secrets, that they have to live with forever. I can't imagine.

But whatever happens, need to find a HOTLINE NUMBER for these people or the younger one who faced this problems and get things straight. I wonder if anyone care? And i wonder if the confidential is really CONFIDENTIAL. You know lah... you know i know also.

So ... I wish someone would come up with a number HOTLINE for HELP THE ABUSED and aired all the time. So someone can call and straighten things up.

I guess that's why these people loose respect of their older ones because of 'kecabulan' yang di lakukan terhadap mereka when they were children and nobody help them. Nobody... They live with this bitterness and so undeserving or forgiveness forever, no directions to where they can reach for help. Hate is their friend. Was Hate.. now HATE!! Kecian kan..

So, sometime when you see people bullied you, well they were once bullied. To them its okay and normal, because they were the victims too. Hated their life so much. That they can't see people happy. So that's why they hate you.

But little did they know, that all of us got issues. And what's the issues, we only know. That's the secret we have.

AKU KAH .. KAU KAH ..

Aku mula mula kan cakap - Aku banci orang yang banci aku. Entah apa kan yang ku buat yang buat ia banci aku. Kalau kau banci aku, alah.. aku pun boleh banci kau bah. Tapi aku pikir lagi, buat apa tah aku kan banci kau. Aku pun inda kenal kau bah. Aku pun inda tau kau banci aku pasal apa. Aku pikir kau ada lah manusia yang bermasalah. Jadi bukan bisnes aku untuk membanci kau. Membuang masa aku saja. Kalau aku pun kan banci kau, well... bodoh saja. Because coba you liat, you sapa? Aku sapa? YOu you. Aku aku. So ...

Jadi aku berterima kasih arah orang yang banci aku ani. Selama ani aku hidup bukan jua senang sebab aku tahu hidup bukan senang. Banyak tanggongjawab kitani. Inda payah tah ku kan memberitahu lagi. Sebab you pandai, you ada extra masa untuk banci aku.

Aku berterima kasih kepada orang yang banci aku, sebab kau banci aku atu membuat kan aku sadar yang dalam hidup ani bukan mudah untuk sesuatu perkara. Sebab orang banci ani tah yang memberi kesadaran arah ku, thank you eh.. yang aku dapat menjadi aku.

I learn from the hard way. I tell you.. pengsan you mendangar. Lagi you banci aku.. Haha!!! Gila jua sudah tu. Tapi aku tau aku adalah aku, buat apa aku kan banci orang. Aku sayang kamu. Aku sayang and respect kamu. Anak sapa kamu, entah sapa sapa lah.. ada indung and nada indung, tau indung kandong atau inda tau indung kandong.. aku tetap sayang kamu. Aku nada masalah eh.. Sayang sekali, kalau kamu sayang aku jua... .... wah!! nada WAR!!! PEACE jadi nya.

Nah.. nah... tapi hidup ani mana ada PEACE. Kau pun tahu jua kali kenapa kan.. Ia tah.. sebab atu kau banci aku.. Hahaha!!!



Get your act together ...
I learn it from the hard way...
Its not going to be easy..
but ... but... LIfe be Great!!!

CHEER UP!!! LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE, YOU'RE ONE OF A KIND TO HATE ME. OH THANK GOD!

Hospital

Kalau kan bawa kanak-kanak ke hospital, baik tah ibu bapa or penjaga larang kanak-kanak atu belari-lari, berteriak-berteriak and bemain-main di luar lorong hospital. Sudah jua di beritau jangan tah di bawak kanak kanak ke hospital. Tapi kalau terpaksa jua, pelase jangan tah di biarkan macam di rumah. Hospital bah tu.

Di larang jua sudah. Kalau di tagurkan, marah. Biut muka. Apa kan masalah kitani inda paham paham dengan rules hospital yang di larang membawa kanak-kanak? Bukan apa tu, untuk menjaga kamu jua tu. Menjaga anak-anak biskita. Macam mana tah lagi kan Pihak hospital kan memberitahu? Inda ku paham.

Sudah tah orang tension dengan keaadan orang sakit di hospital, ani tia lagi kanak-kanak inda di tagur, di biar tia.. Sampai ada yang bemain rah tangga atu bah. Tinggi jua kali tu. Teludah ludah ke bawah. Basar jua sudah kanak-kanak atu. Beumor jua sudah. Berakal jua kalau 9 tahun ke atas kali ah. Beludah ia di tangga atas tingkat 3 and ke bawah. Membari gali jua tu. Eh!! ada ada saja.

Ani cerita di hospital. Ada etika nya jua. So baik baik tah. Pelan kan ke hospital, kalau bawa kanak-kanak atu, bah larang larang tah. Ibu bapa penjaga tah punya peranan tu. Supaya nada ada yang marah. Buat apa jua kan. Biskita ganya dapat di harap untuk menegor. Biskita saja tau and kenal bisdiorang atu. So.. buat ah. Jangan inda di buat. Action perlu dong!!

Jangan tah sampai pihak hospital mengeluar kan surat lagi, di tampal sana sini kanak-kanak di bawah umor inda boleh di bawa ke hospital jika tidak ada urusan or tidak sakitlah. Jangan tah sampai ada label TIDAK DI BENAR KAN MEMBAWA KANAK-KANAK BAWAH UMOR KE HOSPITAL.. bida eh. Okay tu. Paham paham.

Rumah sakit tempat orang sakit. Bukan tempat orang besuka ria. Banyak virus, penyakit beterabangan. Jadi inda patut lah kitani sebagai orang tua ibu bapa penjaga membawa kanak-kanak ke hospital tanpa sebab. Tanggongjawab kitani untuk menjaga anak anak kita agar terhindar dari penyakit berjangkit dan terhindar dari virus yang berterbangan in the air atu .. Bukan kitani yang mengulukan. Mun paham bisai.

Bukan apa ah, keraja nurse ani bukan nya mudah. Entah, kadang ada yang inda puas hati dengan keadaan. Ada jua yang babal atu, tapi ada jua yang really baik atu. Iatah kitani manusia and mempunyai attitude tersendiri. Bertuah lah jua jika kena dengan nurse yang baik. Yang perihatin. Yang betul betul menyumbangkan tenaga seikhlas hati, dengan niat yang baik menjalan kan tugas nya, nyaman jua hati. Tapi bila terkena yang sebaliknya, well.. terima saja. Macam atu tah ganya yang dapat kita terima, buat lah yang terbaik. Jangan gadoh. Inda bisai jua.

Memang inda dapat di nafikan. Ada yang baik and ada yang inda baik. Sama sama lah di mana mana jua. Frankly, for me, yang me liat ani, bukan senang menjadi nurse lah. Banyak tugas tugasan bisdiorang atu. Menjaga orang sakit bukan senang. Inda banyak yang sanggup. Membersih kan atu tah terutamanya, bukan senang.

Memerlukan skill. Imagine dalam satu wad, berapa orang kan di jaga, kan di salin, kan di mandikan etc.. banyak eh. So jangan cakap banyak lah. kalau inda puas hati dengan cara nurse nurse, bawa cakap dengan baik. Beritau bisdiorang yang kamu inda puas hati. Jangan tah emosi. Memang lah emosi, tapi control control jua. Bah.. kalau kamu nada, diorang jua yang menjaga. Biarlah bisdiorang menjaga dengan hati yang tenang and tiada benci. Okay tu.. boleh bincang.

Ia tah ... again. Bila ku meliat tugas tugas nurse ani, wah... bukan senang. Macam macam. Anyway... that's what i see now.