Wednesday, September 29, 2010
So what's all this wanted thing? Are you around? Are you in town? Wow.. may be you're not in town. What happen? Did you witnessed something that you're wanted or did you do something that makes you WANTED? ... i don't know. Only you know.
Wah.. macam banar aku ah. Becakap dengan orang wanted. Mana tau ia baca my blog?? Mana tau lah. Well life is not friendly to you, but go and get tough will give you a life. But not tough like tough something else, but tough in every good way and bad way for good reasons for have a great life, yes.. why not.
People go through the lives in their own way. Own style and own perspective on whatever there is for them to think about and look. Me.. i have my own and you? You have your own too. Tough luck.. well, that if you loose. But that doesn't mean you loose lah. No harm, coba lagi.. Why not!
i need your love
God speed you love
to ... mmmm ... me.. (oh yes listening GOLD)
Oh my late dady's fave...
so i face the final curtain
my friend... mmm....
which i 'm certain..
i live a life ....
travel each way on every highway..
i did it my way...
Oh... laju jua. This is a perfect song for my late daddy. Ada meaning, i m sure, that's why his fave. ... More much more than this .... i did it my way. Yes there was time, i m sure you know... I miss him. Al Fatihah babah.. He sang this song loud and proud!
Anyway.. about WANTED. What happen? Was life treating you bad? Was it what???? Well.. nothing i can say more than this, just wish everything's well. You can run.. But how far can you run?
Monday, September 27, 2010
I am trying to imagine all the zoo families atu gathering bah.. which do you like the best? Lion, Tiger, Leapard, em.. fly or zebra, or what? Hawk.. belalang, monkey, barok, orang hutan? Snake, lintah? Cacing, kancil, buaya? Arnab? apa .... let me know.
I am trying to imagine if serigala jumpa zebra. Or lion jumpa zebra? Would it care about the belang colors its have or or it see zebra as food. Em.. makanan? LIke daging muda, fresh and wow.. yummmy to have? heheh... baibun bah eh.
Black and white kan tu? What color would you like for zebra to have? I must say the black and white state it as a real Zebra. OUch!! I would like to have Zebra in my Zoo. What animals would you like to have? LIke some.. ada yang suka lintah too.. em buaya pun ada, and monkeys too. Jarang ada penyu jadi piliharaan, tapi kura-kura ada. You apa?
Oh... gajah, tikus and banyak lagi eh. I like Lion jua. Not bad. I like Tiger too.. Nice kali ah. I still wonder what you like? Ada babi hutan.. ganas tu eh. Inda ia melapaskan alum di arok nya dengan tanduk nya. Eh.. ada tanduk kah? Tajam kali giginya, jangan tah kan angan-angan minta gigit, gigitan maut boleh jadi gila babi.
Siput.. au. Ada yang sukan makan tu, and ada jua yang gali, bari gali jua eh. Tapi jangan ... siput tetap siput, walau pun slow, tapi maintain you!! Ah.. buang panas? Mana saja ... you think you're cooler than me , i like this song eh. Jangan perasaan..
I had a great weekend. A long weekend and my house already like jungle house. Hahah.. its called Zura Jungle Hut.. Au serious. Haha.. I beli all the plants, i wish to get this one beautiful plant, basar eh.. tapi next month lah. That would fit perfect. That's why i talk about the zoo.. haha.. and i already got monkeys and i tell you, susah nak cari tu. Haha.. i mean di halaman rumah you know.
Ada jua yang berjanji, tapi tinggal janji lah. But its okay. I fill up my times with something to forget that promises. I hear something good happening, and i am happy too. Oh well... if you like the zoo.. plan to go to the zoo. If you like the sea, plan to go to the see, if you like the fish.. go take the diving cert and dive in to see the fishes.. Why not!!
Oh bout the Serigala and the Zebra, i would like to be serigala for now. You be Zebra lah ah.. Just for today. Hahah.. YOU?
Cheer up! xoxo
Bullet proof Vest could be anything. Em.. you can say 'i am wearing one pun' .. Anything to save you and your heart lah. Heart selalu di main-main kan. And inda nyaman bila nya sakit. So bullet proof vest yang ini mean for your heart lah. Haha.. Sasak?
Some are happy. And some are sasak. Some are gila and some are waras dalam menghadapi kehidupan yang penoh dengan segala-gala. Ada buaya, ada serigala, ada sang kancil, ada kura-kura, ada ular dan ada tupai. Haha... perangai tu. Bermacam-macam ada.
So kalau pakai bullet proof vest .. apa jua bullet cannot tambus dang. Ada yang senyum membaca ani.. entah perasaan nya terusik kali jua.. ada yang serious .. mmm memikirkan apa ceritanya .. ada yang selamba like nothing happen. Macam macam jua ada tu.
So.. bullet proof vest nya jua pakai. Jangan inda. Menyasal melayan hati sakit sebab itu ini itu ini.. Bukan senang nak dapat ketenangan, ada tu pakai nya. Hahah.
ampunkan lah aku ...
Ku akui kelemahan diri ..
ku akui kejahilan diri ...
Terima lah taubat ku ..
Setiap hari ..
nafas yang di beri ..
di pinjam semantara untuk menikmati dunia ini ..
hanya semantara ..
ku sedari .. masih aku jahil Ya Allah ..
Ku mohon perlindungan ..
sentiasa dalam beriman ..
tidak kalah dengan hasutan ..
dari syaitan syaitan ..
Ampun kan aku ..
Ampunkan suami ku ..
Ampun kan kedua ibu bapa ku ..
Ampunkan anak-anak ku
Ampunkan adik beradik ku ..
Ampunkan ipar ipar ku ..
berikankan rahmat serta hidayah ...
Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama ..
Semoga Allah tetap menyangi kami ..
hamba Allah sehingga ke akhir nya ..
Temukan aku serta keluarga ku
kehidupan yang Allah berikan
dan di jalan Allah kami menuju
dari keredaan mu ..
Insya-Allah kami mencium baru Syurga Mu.
Amin... Amin .. Amin ..
Oh..oo...o. One day, menangis dalam hati. Tanggisan happy, marah ada jua, penyesalan ada jua, kebecian, kekeciwaan, terharu, entah apa ku rasakan ani, semuanya ada. Gerigitan pun ada jua, tapi inda lah too bad. Tapi tenang saja lah.. inda jua bad. One thing good about it, i learn something from all this.
Dari awal till the end. I don't understand awalnya, tapi hey.. the process teaches me something valuable in life. Very interesting. Very very interesting. But whatever yang you rasa the same as i do, well ... i hope you learned form it too. Seriously, if you felt the same, just learned from every bit of moment from it, and just smile.
History.. yes it become history. History can be sweet, bitter and can be sour for you. When you combine sweet, bitter and sour together, you get a great tastes. Yup.. banar tu. And that makes you smile. What a memoir..
So its history lah. Yang dulu its history. Another episod in your life. Tapi jangan di buang. Jangan di lupakan. Its history kan. Never di lupakan and never the buang. Its the facts in your life and keep it, jarok ia, and siman ia sebagai kenangan terindah yang inda dapat di jual beli. Pengalaman yang mungkin you sorang saja yang kena kasih.. mana tau. Its a gift of life. A special one. Simpan and belajar dari nya..
Yang dulu, jadi history
jangan di lupa
jangan di buang.
Yang sekarang mulakan kehidupan penuh bermakna, jadikan titik permulaan kehidupan baru dan akhiri dengan kebahagian bersama keluarga hingga ke akhir hayat you. Jangan ada alasan ani lah, alasan atu lah.. bina lah kehidupan yang di beri ani sesunggohnya, agar ia akan terus bermakna dalam hidup you. Meaning... sadang sadang tah.
Tinggal kan tia kehidupan menipu, curang, menyakitkan, bermuka-muka, berkelakar, mempermainkan dan entah apa lagi kategori yang inda guna atu. Okay pulang awal atu, its okay. I am sure you pun curious kan, apa perangai perangai ani and impack nya. Menghasut pun masok tu. Menfitnah.. bercerita yang tidak benar etc etc eh banyak lagi. hahah.
Anyway, be happy with whatever you have in life now.
Live not regret
Live to the fullest
Live not with hatered
Live with Love and Respect
May Allah Bless our journey in our life
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Why i talk about gift. You're living healthy. And sometimes you forgot to appreciate with what you have. Just little things matters. I forgot too. I thought i would love to live like this and that. But when you watched health channels, well, it immediatelly open your eyes, there are people struggling to live.
How strong are you? How strong are you? How strong are you if that people are you? Are you going to be that strong? Are you? Am i? Am i? I asked myself.. Am i.
Why whine when you are in well and good contidion? Small things upsets you? You got to see the worst ever real story about surviving from living in hell (though i don't know how living hell is... ) but have the courage to live. And never surrender..
So never forget ... you're still okay. A gift is a special gift and look how you are now.. be thankful that you got to be living like you're now.. than sebaliknya. Your life is a gift from Allah.. What's your gift to others?
Psst.. i am very sleepy. nite.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Hearing people menimang baby, babies... wow. nice. I don't know if i want want. And i don't know if my hubby want one too.. Haha.. i rather not talk about it. But hey.. it was a great surprise when i knew my friend welcomed a new member in the family. I thought one girl saja. You're so lucky. Eh.. tapi cepat jua buat? Hahah...
au ah... nine months kan tu. That's right.
Well, you got to be really inlove to have one child in this world. No money pun i think you can survive lah. But no child.. no not really. Entah apa ku cakap ani kan. No money, like not so much, well.. a struggle jua to bring up children. You got to be able to bring them up, prepare everything once you have them till they turn 21 . That would be their years, not you anymore.
Oh.. am i glad to hear the news that my friend got a baby girl. I am glad i know the baby's name in advance lagi tu.. but ganya i didn't know, banar kah inda jua, not sure, there would be baby, baby girl lagi. Confirmed! and Congrats!!!! Congratts!!! Oh. May Allah bless you and family my friend. Take good care of you.
Though we don't meet anymore.. but i hear news about you. Great news all the time. Wish everything well and wish one day we could meet again. It's been a while, but hey.. i am glad. I am really glad. Hugs and kisses for dearest baby BR. Cute too. Heheh..
I am sure your hubby love you. And i am sure you love him too... Jeles ku. Mesti buat baby nie.. Haha. Need to discuss this with my beloved hubby. Wonder what he thinks about having another child. Adding one more in the family. I miss those time. I miss having a small one in the family. Haha... Cali eh
Apa yang a bit cali, relationship was like ombak ombang ambing, but one beautiful baby girl the angel was sent by God to make this relationship work. Insya-Allah with doa and prayer, relationship will be better than you expect.
Hiya.. i miss my hubby eh!!! haha.
One said, the brother in-law 'tampar-tampar sayang' on her 'cipap' while sleeping. And yes brother in-law for sure. She was 16 and wonder why would her brother in-law did that. Twice.. the next morning she told her mother that she wants to move out from the house. But didn't tell her mother about what had happened.
Another one said, brother in-law went in her room, betuala-tuala and 'ampai-ampai' nya the Coc*!!! She wonder why would he do that.. and then her sister masok, cepat cepat ia cover tarus.
Another said, her nenek jalan dekat dekat and geselkan his hard c**k arah badan nya, while in the kitchen. And ask her to hold his co*k.
Another said, her uncle sat outside in the living room, everybody were sleeping, and flashing his c**k... malu ia.
I am sad to hear stories like this. Now some yang told me are married dah. They have this dirty secrets, that they have to live with forever. I can't imagine.
But whatever happens, need to find a HOTLINE NUMBER for these people or the younger one who faced this problems and get things straight. I wonder if anyone care? And i wonder if the confidential is really CONFIDENTIAL. You know lah... you know i know also.
So ... I wish someone would come up with a number HOTLINE for HELP THE ABUSED and aired all the time. So someone can call and straighten things up.
I guess that's why these people loose respect of their older ones because of 'kecabulan' yang di lakukan terhadap mereka when they were children and nobody help them. Nobody... They live with this bitterness and so undeserving or forgiveness forever, no directions to where they can reach for help. Hate is their friend. Was Hate.. now HATE!! Kecian kan..
So, sometime when you see people bullied you, well they were once bullied. To them its okay and normal, because they were the victims too. Hated their life so much. That they can't see people happy. So that's why they hate you.
But little did they know, that all of us got issues. And what's the issues, we only know. That's the secret we have.
Jadi aku berterima kasih arah orang yang banci aku ani. Selama ani aku hidup bukan jua senang sebab aku tahu hidup bukan senang. Banyak tanggongjawab kitani. Inda payah tah ku kan memberitahu lagi. Sebab you pandai, you ada extra masa untuk banci aku.
Aku berterima kasih kepada orang yang banci aku, sebab kau banci aku atu membuat kan aku sadar yang dalam hidup ani bukan mudah untuk sesuatu perkara. Sebab orang banci ani tah yang memberi kesadaran arah ku, thank you eh.. yang aku dapat menjadi aku.
I learn from the hard way. I tell you.. pengsan you mendangar. Lagi you banci aku.. Haha!!! Gila jua sudah tu. Tapi aku tau aku adalah aku, buat apa aku kan banci orang. Aku sayang kamu. Aku sayang and respect kamu. Anak sapa kamu, entah sapa sapa lah.. ada indung and nada indung, tau indung kandong atau inda tau indung kandong.. aku tetap sayang kamu. Aku nada masalah eh.. Sayang sekali, kalau kamu sayang aku jua... .... wah!! nada WAR!!! PEACE jadi nya.
Nah.. nah... tapi hidup ani mana ada PEACE. Kau pun tahu jua kali kenapa kan.. Ia tah.. sebab atu kau banci aku.. Hahaha!!!
Get your act together ...
I learn it from the hard way...
Its not going to be easy..
but ... but... LIfe be Great!!!
CHEER UP!!! LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE, YOU'RE ONE OF A KIND TO HATE ME. OH THANK GOD!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Di larang jua sudah. Kalau di tagurkan, marah. Biut muka. Apa kan masalah kitani inda paham paham dengan rules hospital yang di larang membawa kanak-kanak? Bukan apa tu, untuk menjaga kamu jua tu. Menjaga anak-anak biskita. Macam mana tah lagi kan Pihak hospital kan memberitahu? Inda ku paham.
Sudah tah orang tension dengan keaadan orang sakit di hospital, ani tia lagi kanak-kanak inda di tagur, di biar tia.. Sampai ada yang bemain rah tangga atu bah. Tinggi jua kali tu. Teludah ludah ke bawah. Basar jua sudah kanak-kanak atu. Beumor jua sudah. Berakal jua kalau 9 tahun ke atas kali ah. Beludah ia di tangga atas tingkat 3 and ke bawah. Membari gali jua tu. Eh!! ada ada saja.
Ani cerita di hospital. Ada etika nya jua. So baik baik tah. Pelan kan ke hospital, kalau bawa kanak-kanak atu, bah larang larang tah. Ibu bapa penjaga tah punya peranan tu. Supaya nada ada yang marah. Buat apa jua kan. Biskita ganya dapat di harap untuk menegor. Biskita saja tau and kenal bisdiorang atu. So.. buat ah. Jangan inda di buat. Action perlu dong!!
Jangan tah sampai pihak hospital mengeluar kan surat lagi, di tampal sana sini kanak-kanak di bawah umor inda boleh di bawa ke hospital jika tidak ada urusan or tidak sakitlah. Jangan tah sampai ada label TIDAK DI BENAR KAN MEMBAWA KANAK-KANAK BAWAH UMOR KE HOSPITAL.. bida eh. Okay tu. Paham paham.
Rumah sakit tempat orang sakit. Bukan tempat orang besuka ria. Banyak virus, penyakit beterabangan. Jadi inda patut lah kitani sebagai orang tua ibu bapa penjaga membawa kanak-kanak ke hospital tanpa sebab. Tanggongjawab kitani untuk menjaga anak anak kita agar terhindar dari penyakit berjangkit dan terhindar dari virus yang berterbangan in the air atu .. Bukan kitani yang mengulukan. Mun paham bisai.
Bukan apa ah, keraja nurse ani bukan nya mudah. Entah, kadang ada yang inda puas hati dengan keadaan. Ada jua yang babal atu, tapi ada jua yang really baik atu. Iatah kitani manusia and mempunyai attitude tersendiri. Bertuah lah jua jika kena dengan nurse yang baik. Yang perihatin. Yang betul betul menyumbangkan tenaga seikhlas hati, dengan niat yang baik menjalan kan tugas nya, nyaman jua hati. Tapi bila terkena yang sebaliknya, well.. terima saja. Macam atu tah ganya yang dapat kita terima, buat lah yang terbaik. Jangan gadoh. Inda bisai jua.
Memang inda dapat di nafikan. Ada yang baik and ada yang inda baik. Sama sama lah di mana mana jua. Frankly, for me, yang me liat ani, bukan senang menjadi nurse lah. Banyak tugas tugasan bisdiorang atu. Menjaga orang sakit bukan senang. Inda banyak yang sanggup. Membersih kan atu tah terutamanya, bukan senang.
Memerlukan skill. Imagine dalam satu wad, berapa orang kan di jaga, kan di salin, kan di mandikan etc.. banyak eh. So jangan cakap banyak lah. kalau inda puas hati dengan cara nurse nurse, bawa cakap dengan baik. Beritau bisdiorang yang kamu inda puas hati. Jangan tah emosi. Memang lah emosi, tapi control control jua. Bah.. kalau kamu nada, diorang jua yang menjaga. Biarlah bisdiorang menjaga dengan hati yang tenang and tiada benci. Okay tu.. boleh bincang.
Ia tah ... again. Bila ku meliat tugas tugas nurse ani, wah... bukan senang. Macam macam. Anyway... that's what i see now.
Are you looking forward for something today?
I plan to go RIPAS later after work. Stay for few hours.
Back home. Tomorrow working early suboh shift.
Oh.. its been an interesting week.
What was your interesting week?
Share lah when you got one.
Open house sana sini.
Or tomorrow i got one invitation.
Em.. Moniq jeput open house.
I think tomorrow. Not tonight.
I will check again.
Today, received text from a friend.
Sian jua eh. Ada adek beradek, pun tak mau tolong.
She took bus dari rumah nya kan ke RIPAS.
I just woke up. I didn't know she wants to go.
I think i will meet her at RIPAS after this before i go to work.
Perhaps i will send her home.
I don't want her to stay too long at RIPAS.
She said she's not well.
I rasa like everyday ani gone very fast.
Kalau dulu taim budak budak, tidak pun terasa.
Tapi sekarang... wow!
Mana boleh gustan lagi. Terus sahaja.
Tunggu bila bila saja meneriama sahutan KUbur kata Mari.
Belum lagi i rasa i prepare. Takut pun ada juga.
Melihat sekeliling kadang rasa macam di butakan dengan dunia.
Eh.. betul eh. Bukan lagi macam.
tapi .... ... bila duduk di hospital,
tengok orang muda pun ada sakit,
orang muda pun ada yang mati,
then kenang teringat kan umor diri,
eh.. dia lebih muda dari aku
dia pergi dulu,
aku.. adoi ... ... bila bila lah.
So , stand by saja.
Kalau dulu masa muda muda like UNTOUCHABLE
tapi sekarang... ... very TOUCHABLE.
bila bila lah.. menghantui i you know.
I tidak tau you pulak, tapi i cam tu.
Jangan lah nak komen apa i kata sini
cermin dulu diri sendiri
Hanya sekadar pencuci mata you
untuk membaca i punya blog ni
just to get that adrelinin rush to your blood stream
entah apa i cakap pun kadang i tak tau
tapi as long as masa i tulis nie, make sense.
Eh.. make sense kah..
Apa jua you buat today.. I hope you enjoy your day!!! Have a great super duper morning and end it with a beautiful evening with a great memoir to bring..
i am going to take shower.. eat my breakfast.. go RIPAS .. then work. Talk to you later. We do not know what today brings us.. but just hope wish and pray for the best and semoga kita and keluarga and kawan kawan all di dalam lindungan Allah... Amin. Amin. Amin.
One two three in counting. I am counting the days.. Today i witnessed something .. something that we should not be too sombong to people. Not sombong lah.. we are living with masyarakat keliling us, us as one of them too. We support each other lah.
Now we sihat, yes.. we can do it all ourselves. But imagine when you're not sihat, someone got to do things for you. I realized ada jua yang suka menghasut in that condition, just to memanaskan hati, but for what? Adoi.. bari ijap. Like i can see so clear.
Satu lagi, jangan tah ada sampai gadoh gadoh sesama kitani. Because why? because you might need help one day.. help from that person jua. Or maybe anak anak nya yang help you. Or you might be help by them jua.. Jangan tah ada persengketaan antara sesama. Biar lah hidup harmoni.
If you have that problem, then try to find solution how to settle that problem. That wajib di usahakan lah. I see it and i can't explain. Migrain ku tarus. Dari ku di CCU tadi. Oh .. it was a long day for me today.
I am actually sleepy. I am going to take my beauty sleep. I'll continue again later. NIte.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Ada orang pakai syabu untuk menenangkan fikiran, ada pakai
syabu untuk memberikan semangat, ada yang pakai syabu
untuk menguruskan badan. Yang pakai syabu macam macam
lah alasan untuk kesusuaian pemakaian bagi setiap individu
Syabu dan impaknya. Inda ku pernah merasa apa yang di
rasakan oleh orang besyabu, tapi bila ku tanya jawapan nya
sama saja. So inda payah tah kan di coba.
Some girls would use syabu for exitement.. au banar excitement
eh. And some girls would use syabu for slimming down. Can
you imagine? What was running through their mind?
For male.. use syabu for whatever it is. Also not sure what goes
through in their mind. But here's a story. A story that i could
not believe but have to believed it because it is so true.
It is a secret. I woun't let you know this person is. It remained a
secret. I wanted to share in this story what syabu can do
to you and your family.
Its a family scandal. How's that..
It was a secret telling time. Some you can korek stories when
people are drunk, some you can dig the darkest secret ever, stories and go deep into
the skeleton in the closet. How?
When you get really confortable and trusting each
other. TRUST is important. And sometimes you just trust someone else rather than your family or your other half. Wonder jua why and what's with that?
Guilt. Its probably the guilt growing inside that makes this person just can't seem to find the answer how to ask for forgiveness. Shared the darkest secret ever,
the story untold and now told .. heheh.. Only with me. I think it makes it lighter. No one knows, only this person knows until now.. i know. Can you imagine.
So what i am about to share, do just keep it in your mind and
soul. And just know that nothing in life is perfect though it
looked perfect. And i hope you will learn something out from
this. After all, we all do have skeletons in our closet.
Psst... i don't only got one story, i got a few.. will share it along soon. How can you make people trust you? Trust with life. At least one know to tell the story one day.. one day when we grow old...
Syabu and what it can do to you.
When you got sisters, you are very lucky. You have someone to
share your life stories with. You trust your sisters. Staying in
roof until you reach puberty and until you got married. That
too, either you stayed with your family after marriage or you
Sometimes, you woun't expect the unexpected. You hope and
wish for a good life after marriage. Yeah.. we heard about
scandals among some people ... married people with other
party. But can you imagine scandals at home? At the very home
It's actually happening at the tip of your nose?
And you yourself can't smell it. Why? And you got that feeling,
your said its your instinct. Well that instinct could be true and
could be the worst nightmare. And that nightmare will live with you till the last breath you breathe.
Married couple. This guy are always on drugs (nothing good when you take the illigal drugs) Whatever kind of drugs, yes all dah coba. Even sell some poison to
other people too. That was the past. And married early too..
Past hunts you and will you ever forgive yourself?
Wife works. Families works. Sister finish study at the UNI. On
break looking for jobs. At home doing the house work. Husband
at home, not working, jobless.. at that time. Got children and at
home. Sisters looking after them. Wearing pjyamas of course
lah at home, who would expect some intruder would jump in
So intoxicated with syabu, the impact ... mmm.. not looking
good. Syabu is also use to boost your sex life. Em.. yup frankly,
some enjoyed it for good sex. Ketahanan and staminar when
beraksi. Well.. they said its like more than one hour to two
hours and if you are taking syabu, for the girls giving the BJ is
the best. Now .. this is use for sex. Yang lain use for other
So.. at first a different dark secret shared. Then this one. This
caught my attention. Syabu.. pemusnah keluarga, pemusnah
perasaan, pemusnah kehidupan.
Syabu dan impacknya
Peeping her when she took her shower.
Turn him on. At first, while she slept, he went into her room. Slide his hands
inside her and touch tip of her vagina. She woke up, but said ..
'what are you doing? ... Don't do that...' - She didn't react much.
And he went out. In his mind.. if he can touch her, and no
reaction .. GREEN LIGHT.
After a month later.. still rutin doing laundry, wearing pjymas. Children
were outside - he grab her from behind, pressed himself body to
body and that hard thing press upon her back and she said
'don't.. don't do it..'. He became really outrageously out of
control, just wanted to sex her up. She said 'don't .. somebody
going to see...!' he pulled down her pjymas, his hands slipped
under, kisses her all over, and slide into her. She moan and cried
in tears while he was doing her.. (gosh my heartbeat beats fast
Virgin rupanya .. She was a virgin. She was the older sister. She bled and said ...
'don't you ever touch me. Don't you ever do it again..' ... he
screwed her for an hour!!! OMG! Tell me ah..
And you know what, that wasn't the last. They have been
having sex till she got married. They did it in the toilet, while showering etc..
It more than bebelasan times. And spend many many hours sexing!!
Who to blame? Who would expect in your own home. In her bed, in his bed.. and everywhere in the house. Nobody was in the house. Who would expect? Nobody see..
okay.. what does that mean? I mean, staying in one roof,
making love to your wife and screwing your sister in-law?
Okay... where is the love?
Do men really think with that head? Oh.. please prove me
So anyway.. wife got this instinct. But husband not approving
with that instinct. It nonsense he said. Now... got to be very
careful, so they didn't get caught. Sepandai pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatoh juga tu.. bila? Dunow.
At first the sister were terrified, because yes.. she was a virgin.
But i wonder if she have feeling to towards her sister's husband?
mmm.. that only she knows.
Sister share baju, okay lah. Share seluar dalam pun masih okay. Share baju dalam pun okay jua. Sama sama makan same plate pun okay.. but when sister share her feelings with her sister's husband? Well..
She said, it was painful at first, but then she kind of like what he did to her for the rest of the betrayal process... to her sister and her families. And the
husband .. guilt built makes it worst. And mind you, still
staying in same roof.
Now that she's married, they stop doing it. Yup.. yes married.
Her husband didn't know and even sister too. Kept it secret and
they go on with life everyday normal and seem perfect.
Still in the same roof. Will it ever happen again? Will this scenario
ignite lagi nanti? That only them know.
YOu figure that out.. Have you learn anything from this story?
This is in one roof only. She's working, her sister working,
husband of her sister working and he himself the husband of
this one.. pun working. Looked happily ever after, but there's
this dark secret only me knows.. And yes, i will keep it secret.
Something i share, that i thought siblings would make you
happy, respect you in every way (though you don't ask for that respect)
but hey, rupanya ada jua duri dalam rumah,and its your own blood lagi.
Be very careful. Living together for so long in harmoni ...
now everybody grown up, starting own
life with families, with strangers just join into your families, i
hope it maintain to be harmoni. Atu inlaws, alum lagi orang
luar seperti pembantu.
You never want to think about this happening to you, but hey it
happen. And you just have to be very careful. You got a choice.
Don't let strangers ruin your beautiful life with
your families. Its crazy for me to share this but i hope you
Staying together, jaga baju, jangan sampai
membari tais liur. No eye contacts with in-laws lah. Pelik tu.
Becareful with terlalu ramah with in-laws jua. Ada had and limit.
Lain karang cerita. Bukan main main ni. Serious ya.
When someone did something, something is BETRAYAL and
he/she can get away with that, to him/her its okay to do it. So..
to you and me .. i hope it never happen to our families. Doa lah
saja.. agar di jauhi dari segala bala. Who knows?
Dia yang bisa membuatmu tersenyum,
bisa juga membuatmu menangis.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Appearance ya.. then shoes ya too. But actually the personality caught my attention. Yes.. memang sesuai lah. Sangat LUAR BIASA. I wore blue that day and lemon is just the right color too. Haha.
Only the senguine.
Only the senguine.
So, whose the owner for that lemon pair?
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Dalam tidak sedar.
Setiap hari kita memohon didalam solat kita..
tetapi sayangnya, kita hanya memohon tanpa memahami..
sekadar tersebut dibibir, tetapi tidak tersentuh dari hati kita selama ini..
Marilah kita mula menghayati ketika kita duduk di antara dua sujud semasa solat..
Dengan rendah hati nyatakanlah permohonan ampun kepada Allah
Rabbighfirli (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)
Diamlah sejenak, buka dada dan diri kita untuk menerima ampunan dari Allah seperti membuka diri ketika merasakan hembusan angin sepoi-sepoiatau menerima curahan air hujan ketika kita masih kecil.
Tetaplah membuka diri kita untuk menerima ampunan Allah. Ulangi permintaan itu beberapa kali hingga kita merasakan ketenangan Kemudian sampaikanlahpermintaan kedua,
Warhamni (sayangi aku)
Diam dan tunduk kanlah diri kita untuk menerima kasih-sayang Allah yang tak terhitung besarnya. Bukalah dada kita seluas-luasnya agar semakin banyak kasih-sayang Allah yang kita terima, Ulanglah beberapa kali hingga kita merasa cukup.
Berturut-turut sampaikanlah permintaan2 berikutdengan cara sebagaimana tersebut di atas, satu persatu..
Wajburnii (tutuplah aib-aibku)
Warfa'nii (angkatlah darjatku)
Warzuqnii (berilah aku rezeki)
Wahdinii (berilah aku petunjuk)
Wa'Aafinii (sihatkan aku)
Wa'fuannii (maafkan aku)
Setelah selesai, diamlah sejenak lalu sampaikan rasa syukur kita.
Betapa besarnya nilai sebuah doa ini..
sebuah doa yang kita hanya lewatkanbegitu sahaja..
Dalam tidak kita sedar selama ini kita seperti sedang berpura-pura
Sebaik-baik manusia ialah orang yang dapat memberi manfaat kepada orang lain (Hadis riwayat Al-Qudhi)Please, forward to your family and friends.
Jazakallahu Khair (May Allah reward you for the good)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
You know why? Sometimes you got carried away. Yes.. carried away with what you do, you think you are doing the right thing. But you know what? Its a mess!!!. Not quite right. And evaluating yourself and assuming others like you... ah ..ah .. that's so UNCOOL.
Whereever you are, whatever it is pun, its always a learning process. Problem is, you just so UNCOOL, that makes thing just so UNCOOL.. Arggggghhhh!
Learning bah eh. Everyday. Open heart, accept the reality. You're there, so don't let go. Don't fall just because you said you are THE COOLEST..
(ngalih ku eh... i need to sleep already. esok esok lagi think what to say. My mind want to shut down. Just not COOL when you don't have enough sleep. HEHHEHE... )
NYTE!!! Psst... jangan marah. Jangan mimpi. Rilex...
I start to think with that 10 seconds or 15 seconds. Would you want loose or would you gain? Love and respect?
Just for that last touch.. would you hate to loose points with the game you played, or would you rather spend that last 10 seconds or 15 seconds to hold hands? Just hold hands.. or just to have that one last kiss?
I would have that last kiss even for the last 10 seconds.. That's much more priceless compare to losing one point for that.
Psst.... kalau inda tau apa cerita, jangan tah mengomen. Heheh!! Deep thought, silent please. Nothing to do with you, just something in my mind at this time.. haha!! Again.. not accepting comments. Save it.
What's with the oldies with the HORROR? Why?
Monday, September 13, 2010
Just want to let you know, i saw a lot of blue today. Well... since 1st raya, 2nd, 3rd and now. I'm telling you, i saw a lot of blue. More blue color.. light blue, dark blue, jewel blue, sea blue, sky blue .. blue .. blue .. blue and blue today.. Other colors are just probably 5%.
Sajok with blue. So what color did you see most? Haha.. let me know. Psst.. you know ... i don't know if you noticed it too.. since that day, one beautiful lady wore the blue kurong, wow.. i must say, the blue color was so right, tone was so perfect, just simply beautiful, she wore it so flawless, so beautiful, so so so .... amazing. And that day, i saw blue. Blue is the in color now. Went to weddings, and even the flower girl wore that blue. Just amazing. Blue .. blue..
Now, i felt like a must have blue kurong too...#4@!!!?
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
Yesterday heavy rain. I felt something's not right. But i don't know. Spoke to my brother where they are about. He told me he is in Serusop, then he said going back to KB. I didn't know he drove back from KB to Bandar last night jua because anak bulan nampak. They drove all the way to KB to pick up their daughter, wanting to celebrate raya with us in Bandar. But ..
I was at home. That accident caused bruises on the head, face, neck. Child, fractured arm, and swollen face, bruises on her feet and in wad now under observation. 1st raya, i guess hospital is the main house for this year. Nini there in wad as well and my brother punya daughter pun in wad. Different wad.
So many accidents yesterday, everywhere you could say. With weather like this, you can't say. Extra careful. I doubt my brother's car is okay to drive. Condemm. that's how bad the accident was. He said, his wife and himself wore SEATBELT. But their child was lying at the back seat sleeping. So i guess now, when you seat at the back seat, please wear your seatbelt.
Rindu kan raya yang dulu.. tapi dulu.. Teringat, kalau nenek sihat, tentu malam raya ia sibok. Walaupun dalam keaadaan yang mengalih, mengamas rumah, membuat makanan untuk raya, masak lontong.. bising lah.. ada ada saja kan di dangar.. Tapi now.. Ya Allah, mudahan mudahan nini cepat semboh. Mendengar Takbir.. ... i just don't know what to say.
Visited her last night, entah.. i told her what time it is. I told her esok raya. Everybody were there last night too. I can see this year is not going to be as meriah our raya. Its a good year, but its just not the right time for us.. I felt kesedihan my mom and her sisters and her brother. It's easy for them. Though they try to hide the pain.. I can't stand it. I looked at nini's eyes last night, i berdoa semoga Allah melindungi nini, i berdoa semoga nini kembali sihat pulih seperti sebelum nya. Mengalir air mata nini.. tarus ku pusing kepala ku away from her.. i went to the corner of her bed, and stayed for few minutes to control myself from crying. It's not easy.
I can't imagine how my mom and her siblings felt ... Ya Allah. It's already heavy to see.. ..
Anyway, I would like to wish you Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Semoga kita termasok dalam golongan orang orang yang beriman, bertaqwa dan di beri rahmat serta syafaat dan berkat. Semoga kita, ahli keluarga kita, kawan kawan kita dan sesiapa saja yang kita baru kenali dan belum kenali, yang akan dikenali.. di dalam lindungan Allah.. Amin..Amin..Amin.
Psst.. kalau kitani dalam keaadan yang bersedih pun, ceriakan jua hari tani dengan orang orang yang ada berada di sekeliling kitani jua yang menyanyangi kitani.. Balance kan our life. Sentiasa meningati sesama kitani.. Jaga diri. Salam.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Its like love. Love language ada kan. So as Personality too. You need to know their personality. I know.. i know... MTKI? heheh.. Its okay. I understand how you feel.
I have been working as a Radio Presenter since 1998. And yes, some stay and some go. Lots of personalities to learn there jua. So where ever you are pun, its the same. There's not going to be any different so long you have someone you work with. You can't change people punya personality. But you can learn what are their personality and tune yourself with them. How about that?
You don't like it? I know some don't agree. If you don't agree, well you better work out your EGO. That would be a big problem when you work that you would not get along with anybody. Only the one you choose to work with that can get along with you, but hey... not so fast. That people you choose, probably are like you, but worst than you that not 100% liking you too.
Hehe.. apa kan.
So learn their personality when you want to work for long and enjoy the friendly environment and good communication with your collague. If ada tiger attitude, beware, just don't push it too far, and knows what's best for tiger. If you got snake attitude, well.. beware too.. if you etc etc etc.. like you will know and you will say.... eh.. macam perangai dot dot dot, well, take cautions and understand what's best with that attitude. Control your EGO and humble lah, no matter who you are, people will love you.
Be a person people like to be around with. Look presentable, dress to work, not play, polite to people, SMILE, make yourself useful to others while working, and always appreciate them whatever small things your collague did for you.. THANK YOU is the magic word..
I wanted to thank you to my collagues for the help and support they gave and share with me for the preparation of my Raya Program. We spend wow.. quite a long hours in the production last night to finished up our programs for Raya and our promo..
Wonderful.. Macam macam attitude ada, and that makes it fun. That's the quality everyone DJs in PelangiFM have and that's really Special. One thing, That's why PelangiFM is the best there is in Brunei.... :))))
Yang cali nya, bila mic atu di depan, wah... macam macam karenah keluar and macam macam gelagat suara pun di dangar, berani. Tapi bila kan dengar balik suara suara nya, hahahh... bila orang malu. Cali jua tu kan. But hey, you all Pelangi DJs are superb. And also our friends Taufik, Feeqah and Cdie.. Huray!!!
its a WRAP!!
psst. you like or you don't like, :) we are still here to entertain! xoxo
The power of her smile, lingers in my mind. so weird, but i really needed that feeling just now. Luckily Angels are around to protect us, with fasting, Allah knows us better. Cobaan dugaan yang di beri, kita merasa melalui until that limit, nah.. di perlihatkan nya seorang wanita (istri) dengan senyuman. I felt it and i was grateful. Until now, i terbayang betapa happy nya couple atu tadi, especially wife nya senyum with senyuman yang masya-Allah beautiful.
I am not sure if you can feel what i feel, but i hope you can feel at least a bit of it. Its those time, that time when you feel ..OH!! super uncontrollable feeling, like upset etc, i guess body tired kali, and just that moment jua you will hear voices.. voices coincidentally when you felt that horrible feeling, you will hear a good word just to remind you that life is not that bad as you think you might felt that moment. Do you get it? Well.. you will know what i meant.
I just wanted to share, no matter how you felt, no matter what you going through and what you've been through right now, just take it as it flow, and don't forget to say Alhamdulillah dengan ikhlas dan tenang. You know why? Allah have plans for us. And When you're given such a difficult task in your life, that you feel you can't do or go through, actually, you can. Allah loves you so much, that Allah wanted to show you something better after that. Its like, when you want something, you have to work on it baby. Its not going to come like that for FREE or easy.
So, that you know, though we don't know whats for us, but Allah have the best plan for us that's far more better than we plan. Alhamdulillah. Don't forget. For woman out there, if you're not happy with keadaan etc, please do baca astaghfirullahal'azhim (Aku mohon ampunan-Mu ya Allah Yang Maha Agung) as many times as possible. Very important.. you will feel ketenangan. Seriously..
As i said, woman with unconditional love, i tell you, you sure don't have to try whatsoever product of beauty out there, its that LOVE DEEPLY AND THE TLC you got from your hubby or someone you love that love you more than you love that person, will make you a SUPER NATURAL BEAUTIFUL WOMAN that you could never ever imagine.
Oh i am so happy. In my heart, deep in my heart, i am super happy. That's the impact when you looked at someone's HAPPINESS. This woman just give me that loving feeling again, she herself didn't know this, but those happy feeling with a smile so youthful and just so STRESSFREE makes her the GREAT PERSON for today for me!
That is one HEALTHY HABIT that we need to have in our everyday life. I AGREE!! DO YOU?
Saturday, September 4, 2010
i wonder what would be the top 5 government offices yang where you meet people?
Friday, September 3, 2010
I imagine lah my bestfriend dulu, kalau jalan jalan, stop jap minum at some restaurant, boleh ia tidor tutup mata ani bah while i talked to her. I don't think i bored her, but i think she just.. entah apa eh.. zzzzz ozzing bah inda sadar baik. Bukan ia main main jua tu. That Miss Sleepy Head! . Serious. haha.. So that's how i felt last night. Sleepy berabiz. Inda sadar ani tetidor depan TV. Inda sanggup lah.
Tapi this week ani weird sikit. My body felt panas sajuk, bepaloh taim bilik atu sajok. That i don't understand. And rasa takut pun ada. Takut like bejalan dalam rumah, takut dengar bunyi, tekajut apa apa yang rasa teliat, eh.. drive, on the way to work and dalam studio taim keraja pun ada.
Entah, i don't know how to explain how i really felt. Like that tah tu. Like when i walked, i looked back macam ada shadow following me. Like i know something lah ada. Kan kata ketaguran, well not sure jua. Kalau inda pengsan tia. But i was so weak, that all that comes across my mind. Paloi jua tu. Mengalih kali bah, i was totally drain kali bah. #?$%*##@@@ WAh!!! while typing ani, on my left ani rupanya ada disco light ... Haha. Pikir apa yang begarak garak ani. Wow.. ready for Raya sudah Studio ani rupanya. That's great!
Suspen kan, bila you baca, like orang gila menulis bah. Haha... i learned that during the penulisan creative di UBD. Yup.. ada penulisan stail gila. Yes.. i think i am one of them.. Yang punya stail writing like gila gilahan. Only writing eh.. bukan nya gila. You? You notis how you tulis? Check it out sometime lah.. Yah.. jangan komen komen saja.. hehehe.. Psst: Jangan marah ya. Puasa? Ya.. selamat berpuasa. Enjoy.
Just want to let you know, i was so very sleepy kemarin atu. Work suboh at 6am to 10 am. Sampai lupa ku mengambil my RoadTax and Insurance Kereta. Inda tidor balik rumah. Buat laundry, mengamas katil tidor, membersih kan itu ini, then duduk jap, gong nya eh.. tidor jap eh tanpa ku sedar tertidor tu ah dalam 20 min kali, tapi pun inda jua cukup rasanya. Kekadai depan rumah, beli dua dark merun chocolate basin untuk laundry. Huh. then petang atu rest di rumah saja liat tv jap. Then malam sungkai rumah mama. Lepas atu went to my mummy's house jap. Sempat makan desert with mom di rumah. Kecian ia sungkai sorang. Then ke RIPAS with my mommy melawat nini di SICU. Alhamdulillah..
Balik atu, bah paning paning lalat. Tau you paning paning lalat ani kah? Hehehh... bukan main main mengantok tu. Inda dapat driving kalau perasaan like that. Abis tu tidor ceritanya. So be very careful eh, kalau mengantok jangan tah bejalan. Tidor tah dulu.
Menguap guap taim driving me atu di malam. Cerita lah pada mom pasal kurang oxygen kalau orang menguap ani. So cerita rupanya di airport di Japan ada oxygen atu di sediakan. Orang yang tau saja yang memakai tu. And kena teach pulang tu how to use it. Wah... steady eh. Advanced jua sudah tu, untuk menambahkan oxygen dalam badan. Because you know, kalau kitani kurang oxygen dalam body tani, our immune system low, and berisiko tinggi menghidap virus or penyakit penyakit lah. So.. Jaga diri lah.
Ah.. my badan need urut. Massage buang angin and urat perlu di lurukan jua arah Jag.
I must say, i really like Mutiara Kata yang kena share with me today. I want to share it with you jua. From Mutiara Kata ini boleh menyedarkan kita dari angan angan yang membuat kita terpaku hari ini...
Enjoy it.. Mutiara Kata:
Apabila satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup,pintu yang lain terbuka tetapi sering kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup itu sehingga kita tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan untuk kita.. Dari Eyul,Tutong..Tq dj,happy fasting..=))
hargai hidup pada setiap saat kerana waktu tidak akan berpaling lagi walau sekuat mana kita menginginkannya. hargai orang yang ada di samping kita kerana kita tidak akan tahu bila kita akan kehilangan mereka. Dari Mizah, Gadong.
Sesungguhnya malam itu panjangJanganlah kamu pendekkan nya dengan tidur dan Sesungguhnya siang itu pnjang janganlah kamu pendekkan nya dengan dosa mu~
Cinta itu memang buta, kita harus tahu cinta itu perlu pengorbanan. Oleh itu jgn di sia-sia kan. cintailah dia sepenuhnya dgn seikhlas hati. dari fatyn di k.s.k =D
didlm khdupan ini harus dtruskan wlaupun brbgai rntangan yg anda hadapi kerna itu mungkin coBaan buat kita. Dari siiadiq@khairul dmuara
Alikhan - Bila kita ditimpa nasib malang,jgn kita myumpah,kerna ia akan membuat syaitan membesar dan tak takut pada kita..Ucapkan lah,astaghfirullah,kerna ia akan membuat syaitan mengecil dan takut pada kita...
Hanya orang yang berada dalam kebenaranlah orang yang bebas. Dari Bob,gadong
Nujaimin - Kalau doa kita dikabulkan cepat ini bermakna Allah sayang pada kita. Tpi kalau doa kita tidak juga dikabulkan ini brmakna Allah ada rancangan lain yang lebih baik lagi dari apa yg kita pinta. Ssungguhnya Allah maha tahu apa yg sesuai pd kita. Jgnlah brprasngka buruk pd Allah.
Kiarah - Jgnlah kamu brlumba-lumba mengejar harta dan pangkat~kerna itu tidak akan menOlongmu diakhirat nanti~192 of berakas
Margrate - Bila kita gagal bukan lah bererti kita gagal selamanya..Coba dan coba lagi sampai mencapai apa yg kita ingin kan..Memberi itu lebih baik dri kita menerima..Kerana kita akan merasa bahagia bila kita memberi sedikit pada yg sangat memerlukan ...nya..Kalau kita selalu baik pada org,org akan merasa senang bersama kita..
salam zur...tiada ada insan yg boleh merubah nasip kita kecuali kita berdoa dan mengubah sikap sendiri dari juita.
SaLam Lai. "ALLah dah mberi bnyk masa untok kita d dunia ini. Tp kita sLaLu mgabaikannya tok kta soLat&Beribadat.Kta yg sbenarnya tak mhargai masa yg ada.AnniE.
RicqoVocalist EpicTragedy DetikAkhirnya - Salam DJ Zura :)...Mutiara kata dan pedoman...Membiarkan orang lain sahaja yang bermotivasi dalam memperolehi pahala bukanlah sifat orang beriman. Jangan biarkan kata-kata negatif orang terhadap sesuatu yang baik untuk akhirat anda, membantutkan semangat. Jadikan ia pendorong dan motivasi..." (Ust Hj Zaharuddin Hj Abd Rahman)
I love Mutiara Kata you all share today. Beautiful.....