Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Sambong-Sambong 31.10.2007
PADAHAL KITA TAHU ...suara kita memang tak sedaP!!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
IRI HATI
Alhamdulillah i besyukur walaupun i come from a broken up family, tapi my mom and late babah always thought me to bersyukur with what i have. Even the last week of his life di dunia ani, i sat with him at the corridor outside his wad, di RIPAS atu, he advice me dengan lembut how to live my life. How i should be very careful in everything i do, and to remember not to hurt anyone with words, perbuatan and a lot more. I thanked God of what i have become.
Lately this week, i miss my babah so much. I cried almost every night. I don't know why. I really cried... Tadi pagi i talked to my brother about him. I cried but i tahan my tears not to come out from my eyes. But my heart just so sedih. This time i really want my Babah's love, attention, but sayang he's not around. I don't know how.
Even now, writing this blog menitik-nitik air mata. I wish he's around. I miss him so much. Rindu ku kasih sayang nya. I wish i can go back now and see him and tell him how i felt. Rindu ku arah Babah. So i was talking with my brother about the day he went away, i was at home, with his body yand sudah bemandikan, there dengan bacaan Al-Fatihah for him, just starring at mayatnya Babah, berbungkus dengan kain putih, i can still tercium bau kapor barus fresh.... God... miss him so much...
My brother was at kubur that time, he was there menciumkan tanah for the last time. The story of my life with my family was so banyak story, but i was glad, well, we were all glad, that even both my parents were divorced when i was very-very young, the last few weeks we all were together with Babah. Mom, brothers and myself until Babah di kebumikan.
I miss him so much. I do miss Babah so much. Pain my dada actually now, i could not express how much i miss him. I know he's gone, but i wish he's around.
Girlfriend
Body-parts - contents nya like perut landir, perut buncit, ada stretch mark lah, kaki berurat, kulit tangan kasar, arm pandai melambai... ha.aa... ada ada saja.... paha inda macam dulu, banyak lagi lah. Ada yang belum kawin memang solid. Tapi ada jua inda eh. So we talk lah about body parts ani. More on arms. So i give a little tips jua lah on how to tone up your arms as long as rajin. Atu saja. Like you can do it everyday, anytime tapi properly. Light and easy, just everyday routine. Whatever it is, makan jaga, health jaga, and happiness pun jaga.
So settle the body-parts. Then, about relationship parts tia. And mula talk about hubbynya. It's like the song "ketahuan by Matta", caught right handed. Bukan sekali tapi banyak kali. She ask me how would i handle it if i were in her shoe. I dont know how but i just tell her if it were me, mun berkali-kali kenapatan atu, malas tah ku kan melarang. We are talking about perangai seseorang atu bah, we can't change it. No matter what you do. Tapi kecian kan, she cuba control him. Pakai b.mobile kan sekarang ani got live cam. So she check on him everytime, and sort of call him everytime just to check where he is. But still, she feel like he still have affair.
So, eh banyak jua so nya ani... The more you control, the more challangeing it will be for him, and the more he will screw you up. It's fun when you are in this situation. Now, let me tell you this, this guy ani got another phone. A different phone. He leaves it at work, and use it only when he's at work or probably hide it somewhere in the car. Check it out girls. Tapi not only men doing this, the woman pun ada. But then again, atu their problem.
But i know, for me, when at the end you know he is like that, that person that you wish would be the opposite, just have to let it be. They will not stop. They will only stop if they want to. Let it be. We are only human, and we just do whatever, however we can to the limit, that if you want to save the marriage. Apart from that, berdoa lah selalu, kerana doa akan di makbulkan kepada sesorang yang selalu berdoa meminta pertolongan agar dapat diuruskan segala yang diri sendiri tidak dapat menguruskan dengan cobaan dan dugaan yang di berikan. Insyallah kebenaran akan nampak dan hanya Allah saja yang dapat menolong diri ini dalam keaadan apa jua.
Kalau inda, mental tani olehnya. Why do we want to be mental pulang to think about it. You have to be strong jua kan. Its not that you inda laku jua. Its just my girlfriend ani masih ada respect arah husbandnya and she thinks of the children. Then, bila sudah tau perangai nya like that, have to tahan tah saja.
But i tell you, bini-bini pun ada had nya. Their love will be forever for you, i for instance, will love and forgive, but i will not forget. So i don't know how many woman yang catu? But different lah how people see it. Like me, After my divorce with my husband, it take a while jua to accept that you are actually divorced with the one you love and think would be together for life till death do you part. When you plan to get married, nobody even think of divorce. We all think fo a great future, to be together, for good for worst. But the reality, you have to accept it. To me nowm my 'x' husband and his wife now are one of my closest friend. That i can say. (Hi Sinar!! glad to hear you are back:)
Some friends ask me how did i do it? Well, its just forgiviness that change the whole thing. I accepted it, knowing that i want my son to grow up and respect people, whoever they may be, and to do that, i have to show examples and especially yang paling terdekat, his father and his stepmother. Walau apa pun, he is still the father kan, and the stepmother is going to be the a second mother for him.
And from that, once we the adult berfikiran wisely, then insyallah our children would do the same thing. Kalau kitani menjahati someone and kanak-kanak meliat all that, well, its going to hurt them and they will say one day, indung kami inda jua peduli. Kancang kancang lagi my family. Is that what you want kan? So it's actually up to you, you decide yourself on how you want your life, your kids to be. Atu saja ah....... melarat tia pulang...
Anyway, got to go now and have lunch. Tonite i will be on-air at 8pm to 12 am. Of course segmen cinta again, i got a good and cute topic...he.e.. tune in if not doing anything, or doing something ya. SMILE...
Check it out, i got it from MSN Movies - Just love horror movies. Only movies saja.
By Dave McCoyMSN Movies
When Norman Bates, dressed as his mother, ripped open Janet Leigh's shower curtain and knifed her to death in "Psycho," horror movies changed. Along with Leigh's blood, classic horror style and romantic figures like Frankenstein and Dracula went right down the shower drain. The veiled sexuality and hidden violence that dominated most classic horror films suddenly were gleefully dragged into the open, for everyone to exploit. For better or worse, style often became as important as substance, and booming box-office numbers proved that horror was serious business. The shifting times created opportunities for filmmakers to innovate, finding new and terrifying ways to scare the pants off audiences.
The mark of a great horror film is whether it sustains its vision of terror through several generations of increasingly desensitized viewers. Does the movie still make you jump or squirm or sweat or scream? The following efforts do all of the above.
10. "Eraserhead" (1977)David Lynch's cult classic is the closest thing to being stuck in a nightmare: Not much makes sense, but you get the feeling that nothing is quite right. Lynch employs dinners that walk off the plate, eerie silences that become deafening and an infant that makes Rosemary's baby seem cute and cuddly. So chilling it's damn near unwatchable.
9. "The Exorcist" (1973)The real terror of "The Exorcist" may not involve Satan and possession, but the helplessness of a parent trying to save a child. Of course, a ton of harrowing special effects and director William Friedkin's somber respect for the supernatural subject matter doesn't hurt either. It's horror for grown-ups.
8. "Halloween" (1978)John Carpenter's film is blamed for the rash of slasher films that destroyed the genre in the '80s, but "Halloween" possesses a style and intensity that most of its copycats lack. From the opening sequence -- when we see through the eyes of little boy Michael Myers as he stalks and murders his sister -- onward, the film relies on suspense rather than sensationalism. Our fear is caused by what might happen rather than actual events, as Carpenter spends a good amount of time in darkness, making us see things that may or may not be there.
7. "Don't Look Now" (1973)Donald Sutherland and Julie Christie head to Venice to forget the tragic accidental death of their child. However, it's impossible to forget when the dead child keeps reappearing. Nicolas Roeg's labyrinthine film is rich in dreamlike atmosphere and works on a purely psychological level: It disorients, frustrates and builds to a horrible climax, reminding that tragedy can never be forgotten ... and neither can this film.
6. "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre" (1974)A group of annoying teens make a wrong turn on a road trip through Texas and encounter the most dysfunctional family imaginable. It's a teen exploitation flick shot like a documentary. Wonderfully grim, mean and inhumane, director Tobe Hooper's debut doesn't spill much blood, instead opting to giddily, relentlessly torture and chase its audience (much like Leatherface treats his victims) for 80 minutes. It feels like days.
5. "Nightmare on Elm Street" (1984) Before dream-killer Freddy Krueger became a quipping pop-culture reference, he represented the most twisted monster unleashed on the public since Halloween's Michael Myers. Seeking vengeance by slicing and dicing the children of the parents who murdered him, Freddy scared the hell out of Cineplex audiences. His on-screen entrance remains terrifying, as does much of director Wes Craven's surreal, smart and shocking masterpiece.
4. "Suspiria" (1977)"Suspiria" is a full-on sensory assault by Italian horror master Dario Argento, the cinematic equivalent of an anxiety attack. A poor American ballet student arrives in Europe and Argento berates her with weather, grisly murders, a possible coven of witches, his virtuosic camera, and possible the freakiest score ever conceived (by the director himself). The plot barely makes sense, so just let it terrorize you.
3. "Night of the Living Dead" (1968)A group of kids get trapped inside a farm house by an endless stream of flesh-eating zombies. Sounds silly, but director George Romero takes his simple premise and redefines the genre with a shoestring budget. The amount of sadistic gore, the claustrophobic tension, the rising levels of hysteria and an increasingly deflated awareness that a happy ending is impossible make this a nasty classic. There is no hope here, only suffocating terror.
2. Repulsion (1965) Director Roman Polanski did more horror afterward, with "Rosemary's Baby" and "The Tenant," but this -- a menacing, nightmarish profile of one woman's descent into madness -- may be his most realized effort. Catherine Denueve embodies sexual repression as a young woman left alone in her apartment -- and to her deluded fantasies -- for the weekend. The film is nearly silent, creating a mounting mood of dread. Try watching it alone with the lights off and see how long you last.
1. "Psycho" (1960)Alfred Hitchcock's blueprint for contemporary horror: More than just a film, "Psycho" was a cultural slap in the face. Censors wanted to ban it, while screaming audiences couldn't get enough of it. Hitch employs all of his tricks -- shifting audience sympathies, killing off the main character halfway through the film and a ton of macabre humor -- but more importantly he makes the horror internal. Norman Bates isn't a monster in the classic sense; he suggests that the greatest evil can lurk beneath the quietest, most pleasant surface.
CONTROL WHAT YOU CAN - ONE AT A TIME
Monday, October 29, 2007
Counting
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IRIL
Home
Just a tips, if you are not well, don't force yourself to exercise. Get well, the most important thing on the list, the health that is, then baru tah exercise but biar mild. Jangan terburu-buru, because your staminar not the same like your other friends. Remember ah.
Biasa lah, lapas berurut, inda kena suroh touch water. So inda tah mandi. Better to stay at home lah kalau inda mandi. I am not working today, so its just nice. Rupanya angin also can kill you. I heard this lady while doing her presentation, suddenly her jaw got jammed. Imagine tia, how painful was that? So because of angin jua tu.
I remember i got muscle spasm, i was in my restaurant early that morning, then suddenly i felt from my chest upwards jammed sort of paralysed. I pushed myself to the wall behind me, and i stood straight. I just couldn't move at all. I slowly sat myself down on the floor, and i just couldn't move. Luckily, at that time, i stayed on the 3rd floor of that building, and my workers have to carry me up. Yes, i couldn't explain the pain. My eyes just blinked and i was lost. I didn't know what just happened.
I told the manager to call the ambulance and my mother. She came with my late aunty, and they weren't sure what was going on. It was sure really scary when you just didn't have any idea of what went wrong. I guess at that time i was thinking too much, work and business. So stress and worn out. But anyway, i felt real good when the ambulance arrive.
They have to carry me down from the 3rd floor with the stretcher. They were really really good and professional. The one guy, i forgot his name, but Pengiran who work with the ambulance, he had done a good job and very professional. I was in real pain, and he told me that he got to angkat me from here to here. And i said ok and i was ready. WALAAA... he was good. He knew what he was doing.
Reached the hospital RIPAS and i found out that i have muscle spasm. Well, i was told to relax and got few japs. My son, he was next to me, hold my hand and i can see tears running down from his eyes. So sweet. I told him i will get better soon.
So, now i know not to be so stress out. Its hard to say sometime, but at least of what had happened atu, i just take it lightly kalau stress pun, but not all at once.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
CLOSE - MILES APART
MILES APART - you tell hime you love him and he says "Me too".
Updates
1....the fren of a fren who committed suicide - What really went wrong for that kind of decision?
2....Just a fren of a fren, a girlfriend is in process of a divorce with her long time husband because the husband ada affair with her sister at home while she's at work, yes the younger one. And plan to divorce her and marry her sister. That means his sister in-law he is about to marry and ditch the wife. How cruel is that? Jodoh? What went wrong?
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Dialysis Treatment
Thank you to His Majesty The Sultan of Brunei, provides medical care for Bruneians for free and especially for kidney patients for the free Dialysis Treatment. We actually have a lot of kidney patients here in Brunei too. If di luar negeri, you have to pay each treatment you do, and that is where the medical insurance is a must to have. The treatment is so expensive, that your insurance pay for your medical tu. In Brunei nada catu tu. Aren't we lucky.
I remember when i was in the States for holiday kan hari atu, i wanted to rent a car, and they ask me my driving license, id and insurance. So, tell me about that. So anyway, Bruneians should be thankful jua with the health service we have here. If you've been abroad, you will know, and you will appreciate with what we here here in Brunei.
What's the sign she have? My friend punya story, she felt damam-damam, bangkak-bangkak and nada selera makan pada awal atu. Lamah badan nya, every time. She was basically a very active person. She could not imagine she anak bungsu daripada ramai siblings would be having problem with her kidney. But so far, she's very determined to live life the fullest, and she is very strong. She went through a lot.
She was in a COMA for a couple of times. There were times she was in the ICU and families and relatives baca Yasin already for her. But one time i visit her when she was in a coma, her body bloat, and i hold her hand, i felt like she was trying to talk to me. When she woke up from that "deep sleep", she said she don't want to die yet.
Anyway, this is the pictures i took today when i visited her at Rimba. This is yang arah tangan nya. But she did once a upon a time kena put the small tube to her heart for 3months. She said that it was really painful.
Ps. The male nurse who did the process of removing the "everything", have been doing this for 17 years. Imagine how he did it. He is really really good.
Last Night
"Life is just like a box of Chocolate"
I'm sure you've heard it, right?
Sometimes you're lucky and sometimes not
One day you ate the bitter dark chocolate
Another day you ate a dark but sweet chocolate
Again you ate your favourite chocolate flavour without knowing it
Then it makes you smile but just for a while
Then you just keep on and on eating a different one each day
So it get interesting every time you ate it
And at times it makes you wonder, really wonder
Who created chocolates?
Where is it actually from?
How do they know what combination flavor?
Would people like chocolate?
What make them buy the chocolates?
Oh well....
I still have a lot left in that box of chocolate
Just don't know what type and flavor i will eat tomorrow..?
That's how life goes..
I have been eating all different kind of chocolates too
It is so unpredictable, mysterious, some are unimaginably tasteless
Just hoping tomorrow I will get to eat the sweet one
That melt in the mouth and smile with satisfaction
And enjoyed it with pleasures.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Be It
I am the type of person who will give you a chance.
I will let no lies for you to plan.
So be it.
Be happy when you are done.
Be happy when you are satisfy with it.
Be happy when your plan went well.
I will not stop you.
For whatever reason you want to deal it with.
I have ear and i will hear.
But again, i will let no lies for you to plan.
I want you to know that.
Yesterday... and the suicide
Tapi as i grew up, not really like that ah. Very different one. Oh and also, every time i pass at the Alat-Alat Kebesaran DiRaja, always reminded me when there was once the Churchill. The Aquarium with lots of fish, lobster, seahorse and some other ocean species. That was where i first see all. And i do appreciate those kind of things. My father used to fish a lot, and he bought back the king crab. And many more. I guess we all have a different things when we grew up kan. My father was so into nature. So i appreciate the beauty of nature that we have in Brunei and wherever i go and teliat.
So yesterday punya story lain lah. I read a lot and did a lot of research for work. Just to be prepared. I'm off a couple of days. And soon be on-air. I heard a fren told me that a fren passed away taking his own life. Bless his soul. It's sad when we take matters in our own had. Especially our life. The beginning of life starts there, not here. And it's just sad to hear that from a fren.
This reminds me when i was younger, i was in my late teens. I got a fren who was 16 at that time. And she was depressed about her life. About her boyfriend and his family. She got pregnant and the boyfriend didn't marry her. Instead he marry the other girlfriend of his first, and then only he marry her when she was close due. I look after her during her pregnancy, i told her i will take care of her baby. I even give name for her baby girl. She's probably in her teens now. I wish i know where she is now and to have a chance to see her one more time.
So anyhew.. it was too much for her. Her husband was on drugs, and just too much... way too much.... She gave me her baby, and i only have her for a while. Then her husband took that baby away from me and ran off. Ever since, i never see her anymore. Its a girl. I would love to tell you her name here, but for safety reason i rather not. So anyway, my girlfriend ani commit suicide. She drank racun rumput. it took her less than 24 hours to take her life and just gone!!! She told us that she was scared, she saw a black creature in her dream taking her away. She was at RIPAS hospital. The next morning, she was gone. She cried that she really regret doing it, and that she was really scared that something evil that she herself could not explain is waiting for her. Can you imagine?
As i go through life, this was a lesson for me too. Always, remember the love ones you have, who love you, and Allah loves you and given you a test that Allah knows that you will for sure go through it with his blessing. And to remaja out there, no matter how cool, how bad you think you are, just remember that Allah loves you more that anyone in this world and that no matter what you do, please jangan tinggal kan Solat.
That the story in Brunei. A fren commit a suicide. But when i was studying abroad in USA in one of the High School, i saw with my own eyes a guy was shot in the cafeteria of our school. How sad was that? Too many and too much to tell you if i want to. But well, everyone have a different stories and experience that no one can buy. And through that, its all about life kan.
Oh.. still reading The Historian, the part i read is getting interesting. Spooky and chilling.. nanti lagi ceta tu. Oh i paid my car yesterday, and my boss call me from the office re. something (ha.a.. i let you be curious on that one ah..) then home.
Tomorrow i am off to Miri to see my dentist. Yeah, dental appointment so far away. Its going to be fun. Good nyte.
What i do today?
Beyond The Sea (Kevin Spacey & Kate Bosworth)
Stardust - Mathew Vaughn Film (Claire Danes, Michelle Pfeiffer, Robert De Niro)
No Reservation - A Scott Hicks Film (Catherine Zeta-Jones, A'aron Eckhart)
All were great. About life. Beyond The Sea that he got to find out that who he thought was his mother was his grandmother. Very touching story about his life. About Bobby Darren, and how he become famous and then on and on and on... if you haven't seen it, go get the DVD and see it yourself.
Stardust is about love. Different kind and different way, but all just a lesson learn from all this but it also depends on you. How you see it. So very interesting too.... A bit childish, got witches, unicorn, a star and etc. I like em.
No Reservation is also about a woman and her career. Very interesting toh. I like it. The character the man have in that film, i wouldn't mind to have that kind of man. Romantic in a different way. It also depend on you. How you see it.
Just being at home today. Some friends ask me if i wanted to join them out and about, but nah... i prefer to stay home.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Revision
Earlier i watched the Prison Break Season Two. Very nice. Very interesting. One of the brother look like my brother. Yes, i even told him about it, and i asked him today in the morning when i met him, weather anyone ever told him that. Ha.a.a i am not alone, true...true... The character reminds me of him too. I will leave you with the curiosity for that.
Anyhew... i miss those words. Katherine used to say that, and wow.... her birthday is coming soon. She did say she wanted Jelly Belly in a Big Jar too for her birthday present. What remind me of her too, i went to "kedai kominis" and saw GILMORE GIRLS dvd. I remember i took her picture at the Santa Monica's Pier, there a place where they shoot one of the episode, she was so happy. So sweet. I wonder how she is now. I am sure she's looking forward for her birthday party.
My mission for this week is to sit with Luqman and do revisions with him. One two subjects he have a problem with but not that bad. His marks are very good. I am proud of him. Waking up in the early morning just to send him to school is part of my duty, and cook for him dinner. He is a simple boy, and a very loving one too.
Oh, i masak nasi ayam for lunch today. Great food eh... I named it "Nasi Ayam Anih". Yes.. true..
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Open House Raya
Before ke rumah Fina and Shukriez, went to rumah bosses. Then after all the visit balik rumah. Very letih jua ah makan inda beranti. One house i makan nasi awal atu, the second i makan roti jala and curry chicken and teh tarik kali ah, then makan tandori chicken di rumah fina and Shukriez.
Oh.. sambong lagi semalam, i got to see the Prison Break Season 2 until 1.30am. Au eh ikirim salam jua eh akhir tidor kan kalau meliat dvd atu kan. That's why i don't spend so much time dapan tv. Bukan apa, banyak masa bebuang catu saja. So, alum habis lagi season 2. will be continue lagi later. Interesting so far. Sometime its not fair jua ah, yang innocent atu dalam penjara, yang set up all di luar inda peduli nyawa orang. Gila eh cerita atu. I'm sure ada kebenaran nya jua cerita atu, its just a way saja to tell us and remind us.
Oh.. semalam atu rah Fina & Shukriez open house, i met one of my late father punya student. He told me a lot about me and my brother when we were younger. It was very interesting. Well, he said i was only about 3ish at that time, chubby... he.e.. and it was good to see someone you look after you when you are a baby. He is a Major in the army. He actually saw me last nite, then he approach kami punya table. Cerita cerita with my fren and of course he said to me inda ia ingat nie.... yeah.. not quite ingat jua, but one of his anak married to Fina & Shukirez punya one of the sibling. He told me about my dad, how he was, and on and on... it was very interesting. What a small world.
Now working with Lydia until 6pm. About to finish and soon beraya open house to Zack and Zaty today. Balik change to baju kurong, then off jalan jalan. Peace.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Mutiara Kata - 20.10.07
PRISON BREAK SEASON 1
It was raining heavily eh yesterday, since petang to evening. That's why i got the time to watched dvd whole one season. Syok berabiz. Maybe sometime this week, i want to finish up the second season. Berhabok sudah dvd atu ampai ampai. Anyway, it was a laid back day for me lah yesterday. Got 1st visitor to my house for raya. Ha..ha.. kelam kabut bah menyimpan kuih raya and etc, maklum nadai amah. So sendiri lah. But it was fun..
Oh i like the part that the doctor in the prison atu, Sara.. she said "I am not a jealous woman, but a careful one", that tells me about me..haha... yeah vain.. You can learn a lot just by watching all the movie ani. Today ada open house lagi, tomorrow ada open house lagi.. and so on...
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Eueh...
Now if you need attention, and no one give a da** about you, write your own blog. Publish your own, where you can express yourself. May be about me, you know, like i give you the title of you blog - em.. " i hate zura.. she is a bad woman".. ops.. young woman.... or "what i think of zura" or "i am the perfect one" or many more. It's ok for me. Then link to Simpur. I am sure people will read your blog. Ps. if you know me too well, tell them how i was brought up, who look after me, and how close you are with me and my family. Ok...
So anyway, how bad you think of me, at least i am not intruding others business in their lives. What i say and write in my blog is what i see everyday. And i won't tell or mention who and who for a good reason. To tell me to not play with fire, who are you to tell me? Have you been in Hell and reincarnated back to earth in other body and become like this? Or what? So tell me how good you are, and that you are an angel. I am all eared.
I must admit i am not an "innocent girl". Living for how many years now, and this is what i become. That be a lie if i say that i am a good girl. To be matang in this world, bad and good you go through it. Not just ...bla..bla..blaa..a.a...... But i am simple in life. And who are you to judge me? Have you been there all my life i grew up? Have you seen what i see? Have you been through what i have been through? Do you really really know about me? I be ashamed to tell someone what i think of that person knowing that i am not a perfect one myself. How about you? Are you not ashamed. Proud hah.. good for you..
How do you see a prostitute? Did you grew up with them? Did you know how the prostitute live their live? You must be joking if it were only the FUC*.... Haa.a..a.. There got to be a pure reasons for that. And would you understand? Do you think all the people in this world live perfect like you? Have mom and dad to look after you, support you, give you everything you want? How do you live for you to "suka hati" judge people like that? Do you know there was once a prostitute in this world, she saw a stray dog on the street, gives water to it, and she goes to heaven for that. I think, since God the creator, you don't have no right to tell people, not just me, of who we are. Get it?????
If you are not sure of yourself too, go and cermin yourself too.... I am going to wait and see what you want to say next. Ok. So i know you are still reading my blog. Take care of you. We are all human, and only Allah can forgive us for our own wrong doing. If you still have faith, if not, well, i let you figure it out yourself.
Wow.. i am working now. Hi Pelangi 8pm-12am. Sajok hari ani, been raining since petang. Got to visit my brother today, and i am happy that he is happy. Makan luntong again. Got to go now. Been sleeping the whole petang tadi, just to be fresh malam ani....
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
RADIO CELEBRITIES - TOP 5
ZAYN - PELANGI 91.4FM
HARUN - NASIONAL 92.3FM
RIAN - PELANGI 91.4FM
ISKANDAR - HARMONI 94.1FM
JOHN - PILIHAN 95.9FM
Cheating Wife
By Heidi MullerRelationship Correspondent - Every other Sunday
You're in a relationship with a wonderful girl, which makes it even harder to fathom that she may be cheating on you. A cheating wife or girlfriend is a concern that haunts many a man in relationships, and the thought of your lady putting her paws on another man makes your skin crawl.So how can you spot a cheating wife or girlfriend, and what do you do about it?
signs of a cheating wife. Although there are signs that can indicate that your girlfriend is two-timing you, the thing to keep in mind is that you're looking for a change in her behavior patterns. The key to spotting a cheating wife or girlfriend is change , so if she's always been a guy's girl and has a lot of male friends, don't get all paranoid when you hear that she was seen with her friend Max at the movies, for example.
The following are 5 signs that she may be letting someone else taste her pudding:
1- She's no longer as needy. If she was never able to go shopping, exercise, or cross the street alone, and she suddenly doesn't need your company, it may mean that someone else is filling your shoes. It's possible that she just needs time to herself, but if she's unusually independent when she used to be overly needy, it may signal that she's just no longer as needy... of you.
2- She no longer gets angry. She used to get angry if you didn't want to meet her for lunch or come out with her and her friends, but now everything you do is all right by her. Once upon a time, your every move had to be premeditated, but now all the small things you used to mess up aren't enraging her. This could be a good thing, but you wonder why she no longer cares.
3- She's being secretive. She's no longer sharing her daily events with you, and in order to find out what she's doing, you'd have to break open her diary because she's not volunteering any information regarding the goings-on of her life. Of course, you could always ask...
4- She places the focus on you. When you do ask her questions, she turns the tables on you. The former chatterbox's batteries have run out and when you ask her how her night was, mum's the only word. It's now all about you, you, you, rather than "I did this" and "I went here last night."
5- She showers you with pleasure. Now that it's all about you, your girlfriend is always complimenting you, asking you to go out, giving you "I love you" cards for no reason whatsoever, and even offering to wash your car and watch the boxing match with you. While these gestures are more than sweet, it's this kind of overcompensating behavior that can make one suspicious. If she's bombarding you with niceties, it might be nice to know what's really going on.
Ps. something i would like to share about woman and man. If husbands out there cheat on their wives, therefore there also wives who cheat on their husbands. Men is always a hunter, but should i accept being cheated? I probably cannot accept wife cheat on husband, why? Number 3.She's being secretive. - There must be a reason why? Not necessarily she cheat on her husband. Maybe her husband didn't care about her. Or maybe she doesn't trust her husband anymore, maybe just maybe the husband is the "kiss & tell" type. If been together for a long long time, i am sure the wife knows the husband better. There got to be many many reasons for that. How many man and women you know cheats on their wives and husbands here? If you said none, then you are lying to yourself. I've seen a lot and well, there's always a questions i ask myself. Why? Is he better than him? Is she better than her? ....
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Top 10 : Reasongs Why Men Cheat
By Oliver JamesonRelationship Correspondent - Every other Sunday
Adultery has been around forever, and has always given us something to talk about. Most reality TV shows these days center on it, as do gossip mags. But we are far from cracking the big mystery: Why do some men cheat in relationships?All men know, at some level, that cheating is wrong. From the earliest age, we are taught the virtues of monogamy. "Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife," . Yet we still do it.
blame it on the genes.
In troubled relationships, cheating can be an easy alternative to the burden of a breakup or the agony of divorce. It's a quick fix for the sake of the couple's or the family's integrity. Some of us have even gone so far as to enact the long-distance code: If you cheat in another zip code, it doesn't count.And with evolutionary psychologists telling us that we are wired to lay our seeds in as many women as possible to ensure our genetic survival, adultery is slowly becoming a defensible misdeed, which may explain why women are catching up to men in the game of infidelity.Because of our insatiable appetite for sex, we men can sometimes only be as faithful as our options. Here are the 10 main reasons why some men will opt to shed their devotion and cheat on their partners.
Number 10
Your lady doesn't put out. Every man has heard that the best way to get a woman to stop having sex with him is by marrying her. Apparently, long-term relationships seem to suck the sex drive out of many women, leaving men gasping for fulfillment. With the need for more sex, some men will start "working late" more often.Or it could just be that the sex has become boring. She doesn't want to try new things in bed, or won't perform fellatio. Some men may cheat because they don't want their girlfriends or wives to perform certain sex acts that would ruin their "good girl" image, so they get a mistress to take care of it. Like Robert de Niro said in Analyze This , "That's the mouth she kisses my kids good night with!"In light of this, I call on lawmakers around the world to create an International BJ Day, where men and women get the day off from work and get all the oral satisfaction they need from their partners. I'll bet that this alone would cut infidelity by at least 75%.
Number 9
She cheated on you. So you found out your lady was being unfaithful, and the only way you can relieve your anger is by doing the same. For many men, this is the only way to get back at their cheating girlfriends and even the score. Some men might even cheat to get back at all the cheating women they've had the misfortune of dating throughout their lives; now that's efficiency.
Number 8
It's challenging and exciting. If you consider the women you sleep with "sexual trophies," chances are you have already cheated at least once in your life. Some men simply cannot leave behind the thrill of the hunt, the chase and the conquest. For other men, the excitement is in the variety, like changing ice cream flavors for one day after years of sticking to just one.
Number 7
You can get away with it. "What eyes don't see, the heart doesn't feel," goes the old adage, and it still holds true, as long as there are no cameras around. The knowledge that no one will find out and no one will get hurt is reason enough for some men to grab a different helping. But be careful; as men get craftier with avoiding detection, women get more sophisticated with detecting, not to mention boosting their network of spies.
Number 6
It boosts your ego. Nothing lifts the old self-esteem like discovering that other women still desire you sexually. When in long-term relationships, men may begin to question their sexual marketability, which will lead some of them to sow their clandestine wild oats. Once a man knows he can get back in the game, he'll return to his mate; or not.What's a guy to do when his girlfriend's-a-naggin' and opportunity comes-a-knockin'?
Number 5
The opportunity was there. It's an uncontested fact that most men can't say "no" to sex. Although guys aren't constantly bombarded with sexual offers, sometimes an irresistible prospect presents itself. Maybe it's a frisky ex-girlfriend, maybe it's a horny hottie on the dance floor. A guy may see it as once-in-a-lifetime occasion that might never be available again. Carpe diem , as they say.
Number 4
Your girlfriend is a nag. Most men have experienced at least one woman who thrives on making him feel like crap. Constant nagging, fighting and squabbling in the right ratios is the best recipe for a headache. Cheating with another woman is a common escape from this domestic hell, and works better than aspirin.
Number 3
Women let us. Truth be told, women are quick to forgive men for their unfaithful behavior. Maybe it's their fear of being alone, or that women are simply the more merciful ones of the human species. Some women might even blame themselves for their men's infidelities, and take steps to improve their relationships. The fact that many women let their men get away with murder might compel them to double deal repeatedly.
Number 2
She doesn't turn you on anymore. Long-term relationships have the annoying habit of making people lazy. No longer concerned with staying fit and attractive, a committed woman might lose the allure she once had. Her man may simply not find her beautiful anymore, and making love to her is not as stirring as it once was. This is why most mistresses are gorgeous, young women.
Number 1
You don't love her anymore. Alas, after a long time together, you have lost the feelings you once had for her. But the relationship has remained too much a part of you. Separating seems so painful, so radical that it's almost inconceivable. So instead of separating, you go elsewhere to get your physical gratification. Most times this does not help matters, but only prolongs the inevitable breakup.
My personal thought on - your cheating heart. In the end, cheating is no joking matter. If you are cheating on your girlfriend or wife, it might be that you are unhappy in the relationship, or that you have issues that you should address. Look at the big picture and see your unfaithfulness as a symptom of a bigger problem.Cheating might feel good as a quick escape from your problems, but it's only an anesthetic -- not a long-term solution.
Monday, October 15, 2007
TOP 5 SUARA PELANGI 2007
SITI @ KB
My Thought - 2nd Day Raya
This raya, promise myself to visit relatives to introduce to my son who they are. Like me, didn’t get much chance like this. But I want my baby to get to know them too. Since he is my only child, I want him to know that he is not alone in this world one day when I am gone.
Visit all relatives that have many-many children ah.. My Babah side. Curious ku how they manage to live together for that long with many-many children. I would love to be married as long like them and in love till we part. Amazing, I ask few aunties and uncles, and I must say its amazing. Even life weren’t that mewah, but they are happy. So its not money kan the problem in marriage. But seems like money is the problem. How come ah? Is it because perbelanjaan rumah naik? Perbelanjaan sekolah naik? Perbelanjaan and perbelanjaan?
I admired being married and inlove so much. When I make that choice, I wanted to be married for life. But jodoh tidak panjang. I got married in 1997 and divorced in 2000. Twice divorced with the same man. Didn’t say we didn’t try. We did, but communication break down. I guess my age was right to be married that time. But I think I met him too soon and married within that three month. I thought he is my soul mate. But inda jua. People always ask me if I am married. I used to but not anymore.
Anyway, today early during the day out of the blue, I went to visit Siti in KB. She’s also a single mother and she has seven children. They all stayed in Bandar. I have one son, and well, I wish I have two. So then from KB, balik Bandar and went out with my son jalan-jalan to visit my aunties and uncles and cousins. I have so many cousins. Wah, they told me they terjumpa me sometimes, tapi takut tagor salah orang….he.e.e.. So this time inda boleh escape kali ah. I told them to say hi to me, coz very manyak-manyak dorang atu and I don’t think I can ingat all the faces. Oh well, I try next time to tagor them first. Oh one work at RTB jua. And when I went ke rumah my uncle, the anak says he always saw me, tapi takut tagor. Ha..aha..a. cute… then we talk a bit. It was nice eh to see them. Big family. Nanti tah I share the Raya Album. For now I still plan to visit whoever soon.
I HAVE SUCH A GREAT TIME TODAY. REAL GOOD TIME. LUQMAN ENJOYED IT so much when wE STOP ON THE side of the ROAD just to catch the beauty of bunNGA API… HE.E.E. I MISS THE TIME WHEN I WAS MARRIED TOO. OH WELL….
But when I see my saudara-mara tadi atu, it gives me more strength to see married life would be better for me next time, insyallah and just hope and pray I will be married to the right man. May be not perfect, but BERIMAN. Love me for who I am. Accept my son Luqman, and I will love him for who he will be. As long as BERIMAN, can jaga me and lead me kejalan Allah. But don’t know when. All my love for Allah and my only child. My family and friends.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
FIRST DAY RAYA
I miss my father eh. Went to Nenek’s house and have my favourite “Luntong” then off to visit my aunties and uncles. Second house at my ‘muda’ and everybody were there. Except my dad. I sat there and watched my cousins’ children, young and happy with a smile and laughter that’s so fresh that remind you when you once was. But I never got a chance to see my Babah and Mami grow old together. I wish I was given a chance. Sometime I cried. Missing their love that would have been super-wonderful. So I always like to remind the young people, to appreciate your life with your family. It woun’t be the same you know without them. One day you will know what I mean. one day you will. So when they are around, spend more time with them. Ask them about their younger times. Sometimes even now you only know something that they would never tell you if you never ask….
So anyway, it was great to see everybody again. My problem ya, i don’t remember their children. Like grown up sudah kali ah. Suddenly they are in their 20s. Wow… wow… time past us fast hah… How many of them, their names…ha.a..a. so funny and cute I must say. So many and they grew up so fast. Amazing. Talking about that too there be a gathering reunion for the family from my mother’s side soon sometime this month. I would like to see that and find out who your relatives are…. Nanti ah I will update with that too.
The story- not familiar with families ani, ia-tah nah ni, di tapok-tapok kami ani when we were young. When any of the other relatives came to visit my grandma’s house, we were asked to go into the room. So jadi kebiasaan tah, when relatives come over to visit, we all rushed in the room or the kitchen without knowing who and who. Terjumpa on the road, the mall, restaurant, they be the one to say hi, and familiar with the words “inda ingat ni saudara sendiri?”, yeah, and you be so malu-malu like not really. Embarassing kan. Imagine like tadi, my uncle visit my grandma with his families, then all the 1st cousin, 2nd cousins etc, rupanya ramai work in RTB. How amazing is that. I saw them but I never knew they are related. HUH… that’s scarry. In what way nah? Well in many ways. I leave you with the couriosity saja.
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