Sadang tah mengumpat.

Jauhilah dari mengumpat, memperkata perihal orang, mencela, menghina dan banyak mengkritik. Hal macam ani dapat mendatangkan kesusahan dan kesedihan pada diri kitani sendiri.

Sikap ani akan menghilangkan pahala, mendatangkan dosa, dan menjauhkan ketenangan dalam diri kitani. So sibok kan saja diri kitani dengan memperbaiki 'aib sendiri dan jangan pedulikan aib orang lain. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menciptakan kita maksum - yang hanya di miliki oleh RasulNya. Kita semua memiliki dosa dan 'aib, makanya berbahagialah orang-orang yang sibok dengan 'aibnya sendiri dan tidak mencampuri 'aib orang lain.


Salam...

NIKMATILAH HIDUP TERIMALAH YANG BISKITA PEROLEH SEBAGAI NIKMAT

TANYAKAN DIRI KITA - Apa sebenarnya yang tidak ada pada diri kita?

Banyak hal yang kita tidak miliki, jika pun memiliki, masing-masing berbeda. Yang sama kita miliki -

Orang punya hati, kita juga punya hati
Orang punya mata, kita juga punya mata
Orang punya telinga, kita juga punya telinga dan seterusnya

Meskipun sama bentuk pemilikannya tapi belum tentu sama cara memfungsikannya. Hanya orang-orang yang beriman yang boleh memfungsikan semua organ tubuh dan segala sesuatu yang ada padanya, sesuai dengan fungsi yang sebenarnya/semestinya dan sewajarnya.


Allah berfirman:

Dan sungguh Kami jadikan untuk isi neraka jahanam kebanyakan dari jin dan manusia, mereka mempunyai hati, tetapi tidak dipergunakan untuk memahami ayat-ayat Allah, mereka mempunyai mata, tetapi tidak dipergunakan untuk melihat tanda-tanda kekuasaan Allah, dan mereka mempunyai telinga, tetapi tidak dipergunakan untuk mendengarkan ayat-ayat Allah.

Mereka itu seperti binatang ternak, bahkan mereka lebih sesat lagi. Meraka itulah orang-orang yang lalai. (Al A'raf: 179)


Apa sebenarnya yang kita miliki?
Kita sebenarnya tidak memiliki apa-apa. Kita hanya memiliki SEMANTARA.



Membari takut jua tu. Pun ada yang berani mengata-mengata. Mmmm... tidak berfungsi kali. Macam tah you atu Kekal, walhal Semantara saja tu. Puas puas tah mengritik, mengomen, tapi puas puas tah jua bertaubat awal. Sama sama belajar dari kemarahan, kebencian yang ada dalam hati, jadi penyakit hati. Bersih kan tah dengan berzikir dan berdoa dengan Al-Asma Al-Husna.

Salam.. dan selamat malam. Mudah-mudahan kita semua serta keluarga, kawan kawan yang baik, dan kawan kawan yang tidak sayangkan kita dan keluarga nya jua, dan yang baru kita kenali dan akan kita kenali, dalam lindungan Allah. Jauhkan dari hasutan Iblis dan syaitan, dan mudah-mudahan diberkati dan dirahmati Allah dalam apa jua yang kita lakukan setiap hari. Amin..

Psst.. biar segalanya dengan NIAT dan MAKSUD YANG LURUS. Insyallah ..

PSST... BERDOSA SAJA!

Haha.. kalau menyakitkan, jangan baca lah. Buat dosa saja. Bukan untuk mu. Untuk ku lah Bahlol!! Buat blog sendiri. Expresi diri sendiri. Sadang tah kan membuang masa mengomen mengritik blog orang. Kena ketawakan saja. haha!

Ia tah, orang melayu jarang kan suka meliat orang senang, kalau boleh biar jatuh, nyaman tah tidornya tu.. haha! Tapi .. bila tut..tut..tut.. Wah.. inda tau ia yang di paluie.. Bahlol tah banar.

Kalau kan baca, baca. Terima kasih. Kalau menyenangkan menghilangkan tension, aku jadi kawan penghibur, why NOT! Tapi kalau aku kan kau jadi kan musuh, menyakitkan membaca, jangan buka blog ani.. Tension saja kau. Cel cel di badan mu atu, kan mampus kau inda sadar membunuh bisdiorang.. Yang mati awal kau jua karang. Apa ? Heart Attack! Kerana apa? Lalai sibok kan orang, diri sendiri yang tegelincir. Kalau inda awal ani, kemudian kali.

Bertuah ku meliat and tau siapa kau atu Bahlol!! Kalau ku mati dulu, well ... jumpa saja di akhirat nanti. Paham!! Inda ramai rakan blogggers suka perangai orang ketuyu-tuyuan, mengomen bahasa orang, mengritik cara orang penulis blog ORANG..

Psst... P/S HAHA!! sesuka hati ku cara ku, bukan kau punya idea. Cara ku cara ku. Cara mu cara mu. Bah.. tulis tah blog sendiri. Coba tah gunakan akal. Di beri otak, macam ambok inda pandai memakai otak!! Baik pulang kau bari ambok otak mu atu, bisai pulang ambok kali... Paham!!

NAH! APA RASA NYA? NYAMAN?

BUAH MANGGA

Alhamdulillah... i pass by this one house yesterday, and pokok mangga nya berbuah banyak. I make U turn and bebalik to that house, i saw men picking buah mangga atu. I said kan tanya if he mau jual buah mangga atu. Tais liur ku sudah meliat rumah-rumah orang yang ada pokok mangga bejuntaian buah-buahnya inda bemakan. Yang makan monyet..

But when i stop, i turun kan window kereta, and tanya and he looked at me, belari-lari anak ke pohon mangga atu, and memetik buah-buah mangga atu, and gave me!!! I asked berapa tah nie.. katanya inda payah bayar, pembari ku saja.. Ya Allah.. baik jua hati orang ani. No wonder pokok nya berbuah meriah banyaknya..

Mudahan di perluaskan rezekinya orang atu. Taisliur me atu, dari ari atu sudah. Apa lagi balik rumah, kupas kulit, separoh potong basar-basar, untuk makan with cacah kicap. And separuh di hiris-hiris untuk kerabu udang kering.. wow!! Yummy.

Semoga Allah membalaskan kebaikan nya terhadap seorang makhluk Allah yang inda ia kenal ani yang tais liurkan mangga... Amin..

Psst.. ada di rumah nini. Tapi ambok-ambok sana conquer. Apa inda, basar-basar ambok-ambok nyanta, inda otak lagikan, mana tau di runggkupnya kitani, inda ia mau beranti. Kitani yang ada otak ani okay pulang boleh beranti ganya sekadar buah mangga. Tapi kalau bagi ambok, di pikirnya kitani kan bekelaie sama nya, self defence tia. Kepisan tu eh.. Ku tanya amah ku, eh.. sudah you ask the monkeys to gave me some buah atu.. ketawa ia pulang.. Yang aku menyuci gelas ani, nampak ambok ku teriaki dengan baik, bah.. ampit-ampiti tah buah mangga atu. Bukan kau punya tu, nini punya tu. Umbankan saja atas atap di dapor atu, Nda jua ia peduli. Doi.. makan macam ia punya. Sekeluarga lagi tu.. eeeee.. Kalau ku tah jadi Orang Utan.. Haha!! aku punya tu pokok buah mangga rumah nini atu... (tekidum ku jua nie)

Hahah... ketawa you? SEnyum lah.. Hahah.. auuuuu. Serious that what i said to that monkeys!! Ganya pasal mangga! Lain kalau tais liur ani, semua di makan inda tune..

Balance Diet

Someone text me how to jaga badan. How to maintain sihat? Maintain like me lagi nya. Wow!! Do i look really sihat? I mean do i look ok dari mata you? Macam mana kan diet permakanan seimbang bagi yang ingin loose weight. Espeically like you? - berapa kali makan nasi & etc. Like me, bila makan nasi sikit, esuknya naik.. udah timbangan..

Well.. well.. I pun like that. But i told myself, i woun't makan nasi everyday. So my brain inda makan nasi. Makan nasi sometimes only. I prefer fruits. Banana, tomatoes, labu, papaya, apples, and banyak eh.. must have fruits untuk snack. And when i said fruits, i buy banyak fruits and simpan depan tv. Table depan tv is good, so bila saja perut lapar, garb the fruit and makan. And dirnk green tea, plus water too. Banyak eh.

Perlu menjaga badan, bukan untuk seksi, kurus, or whatever, but untuk sihat. That's yang penting. So you can makan whatever you want, as long as you got limit. And psst.. jangan lupa exercise. Sambong lagi nanti. I got to now.. Didi taking over.

AGING?

Have you ever stop a minute and ask yourself on how long you will live and what you've have done in this life? Ada ah.. that's good. Me too. And its just like that ya. Born and gone. That's kitani and other mahluk yang lainnya. Wow.. If you're in your teenage years, well maybe not thinking about it so much.. when you're in your adult life, maybe if you've gone through such life, but when you're just there.. i mean above 40, wow! That's where it starts. Life starts at 40. We could have different opinion from others but yes.. then only wishing.. So when 40 above, start thinking.. em.. let see if i get to add 20 i will be 60, if i add 30 i will be 70 and if i add another 10 i will be 80. So how long do you think you live? Another 30? or more? Haha...

It's all up to you. You want to live and grow old gracefully? Up to you. ;). You want to think about death and cry and regret with things you didn't do or could have done, well up to you too. If now, you start thinking about you could do something, you can change something, you got a chance to do it, as long as you got the guts to go through it. Serious.

It doesn't matter what you want to do, ask yourself. You know what you want to do.. Something.. just something. Not only by doing something big, you think changing something, but doing little things are also something. Some think, aaaahhhh, i got to impress. Well, you're wrong. You impress yourself with what you do is right. Yes.. inda you paham kali. Sit and be yourself and think.. Then you know what i meant. Sound complicated kan, but hey.. its right there, just invisible yet.

Love your age. Thank to Allah you got to live till this day. Why? I don't know. You? You don't know. Say Thank you to Allah. Banyakan Ilmu di dada, agar kita jangan sampai hilang keyakinan diri. Support each other to live happily. Support each other with one good word everyday.. you already make changes.. Changes in your life and others.. Touch them.. (hiya! not touch touch.. ) touch their hearts, and let them know, that they're wanted and loved.

What is age to you? What is aging to you?

When talked about aging, not all really liking it. That's why some artist commit suiside to be known and maintain young forever. Some would undergone banyak surgery to look younger and not aging. But all in the heart jua.. though you muda, tapi you rasa tua, well tua you tu. But when you think young, young you tu. Its all in you. You is you. haha.. hai, i just wanted to share something. Hope that make sense.

xoxo.

MUTIARA KATA

Siapa yang Tidak Merasa Tenteram Dengan Allah, Tidak Akan Merasa Tenteram Dengan yang lain.. - Itulah tabiat hari-hari yang selalu berubah-ubah, sedang Perintah Allah sentiasa menunggu.

I AGREE with you.

We fall inlove. We fall out of love. We hate each other, at the end we end up together and INLOVE for the rest of our lives, we love each other, yet when we end it with marriage, it didn't last. All ... whatever you say, your opinion, i always agree. We live our lives differently, we think differently, we are human but we are not ever the same. But i must say i agree.

Love. Love is love but its always a mystery. You know why? Everyday, we're inlove, everyday we are out of love. So that everyday we live in we always and never miss to explore different things in lives every saat that you breath! I still agree to you when you tell me about LOVE.

You're right. Damm right. And i always like other's opinion. I wrote what i see, what i feel and wrote about the roller coaster flow in my life and that's my opinion. I love to hear yours too... And it's always interesting to know others' pengalaman. That's a part of life too.

You need to spice up your life. Yes.. your own way. Don't listen to others to tell you how you should live your life. Let them live their own way, their life. Spice up your life the way you wanted it to be. Psst.. You know what's good and what's bad. And always take precaution on whatever you do..

XOXO..

MY PLAN TODAY

I need to do something. I have been thinking about it since yesterday. I hardly talked yesterday, only reserve voice for work. Forget and forgive. And yes i feel better today.. haha. I need to smile more and enjoy what life have for me. Looking forward.. YOu know, always there are reasons when something happen.

Psst.. HOw about you? What's your plan?

My b'fast .. & Me today.

I ate same breakfast like yesterday. But i had Pepsi at the office. I am just so bored at home. My mata mengalih.. haha watching tv inda beranti. Wearing blue jeans, red belt ( i need to get brown and black belt), dark brown tube and white button shirt. And my lovely SEYCHELLES brown shoes. Lovely..

FROG

Haha.. i am laughing out loud di dalam studio ani. My son said - Hi mummy you should see my frog picture it posses just like mummy....;))))

I have a story for FROG. I collected toys, soft toys FROG. Yes.. when i was younger, but still i have some. I can't eat frog. Giler tu eh!! Though i heard sedap! What? Sedap?? Got to be kidding. Anyway, one time i was in Penang, in one of family's friend house. We stayed there for a few days. And the house got water fountain infront of the house.

At night, i heard FROGS singing.. Serious. And lots of FROGS floating. Everywhere. They said they never saw this before. Only that night. And i smile. Inda kan? That was a real story. And a lot more.

Yang funny nya, when i was a younger.. younger, like not sure of good and bad, still in process learning, i killed the tadpoles. Au that is serious too.. That i would called Unlike me.. Haha... to be exact, i would get a plastic bottle, fill up with water and tangkap tadpoles (lurus kah tu jua spelling anak anak katak ah?) ..

Then... i would keluarkan it, and ampaikan di lantai rah parking atu, and i would press its badan, sampai tekeluar that thing dalam badanya... PHew!!! Only if i knew, inda ku mau buat eh. Bari gali when i think about it. That.. adoi.. sama jua siput. Bisai ada kulitnya, i would step on it, and biar pacah.. and liat the snail atu without kulitnya.. Phew!! never ever eh..

LOVE = ?

I like this one. Send to me for my segmen LOVE..

people out there says.. love is not just kisses and holding hands. some says, love is drugs. why so ? cause, at first it'll make youu addict and in the end, it'll ruined your life. but, adaa juaa cakap yang, love is just a game that been play by two players. ihhh.. macam macam muchh.. but, to me, love is just a simple word yang ber-meaningfull ... See Moresekalii. if youu lakuukan dengan yang benar laa. hahah. youu get what i mean.and yeahh, here, i just wanna share a bit :) right what, couples is always in trouble. isnt it? ''it is part of the deal'' so yeah, i agreed, dont you? we have to face it, no matter how hard it is. well thats not the point to make our love lessen.. cause love wont be less, if we are not willing for it.. some couples would say to their lover like ''daybyday, my love to you is getting less'' thats dumbass for who ever used those words. seriously, the fact is love will getting more and more, never less and never too much :) and it wont stop. unless, youre dead, then you'll stop. right?

and remember, love is like life. it isnt always happiness, it can brings a little pain sometimes, but when we dont stop living, why should we stop loving? so, just do the right thing. yes, sometimes it might hurt, but if it is right thing to do then it is necessary.


written by Azwani Aqillah
- For segmen Jatuh Cinta with the topic - Bagaimana Awda Menanangi SIDIA yang bermasalah, namun juga awda bisa menambat hati nya dan dengan cara awda, masih lagi bersama hingga kini.. Still bahagia. Share it with me Segmen Cinta bersama Zura di PelangiFm.

Why BOTHER?

Jika di tahap bubunan, forget about it. Jangan tah kan di pikirkan lagi. Life is not fair, tapi yes ada hikmah all behind it. So got to be reasons why, that's why. But if its hurting you, forget it. Inda bebaloi mati awal just sebab sakit hati.. Haha..

Go watch that movie, Love In The Time of Cholera. That's what i called TRUE LOVE. And haha.. only one in a million.

SCRATCH that CROTCH!! YO!

I park on the side, wanted to wave at one of the ****** man standing infront of the mini shop. He was scratching his crOtch. 'Oh shit! he scratch his balls!' .. That's what i said, and i decide not to wave. I only wanted to wave to ask him, if he could get me a bottle of water and send to my car. I can't park my car there if i am not in the car.

Scratch his crOtch. If you don't know what it is, 'garu-garu his balls' and it looked like he is enjoying it too, because he just can't be bothered with people around, as he was standing di bawah lampu, with his friends. I guess inda ia sadar tu jua. Its normal. Is it?

No offence about ******. I seldom catch others scratch, but ******, ya. I got ****** friends too.. i like them. I enjoyed their company, but its just happen the shop i went atu, the owner ******. I guess men do that only.. Entah what is under, but i presume not wearing underware that makes men scratch. Not only ****** kali. All men... Haha. Ada men marah rah me, but that's the fact. I saw..

Jangan marah. If you do, then its true!!

MY MEAL

I had tuna berchili sandwich today. Toasted 2 slice of bread. White bread yang ada di rumah. And then 2 slice of cheese. Took out from toaster, and place one slice of cheese and top up with tuna berchili and one slice of cheese again and then another slice of bread. Had hot chocolate and a glass of warm water. I am so full until now. Too optimal health supplement, and my Omega3. Plus my coQ10 too. And others. Yes.. i am full. I am drinking water now in the studio too. Keep me not thirsty lah tu ya.. If you're working, always have a bottle of water handy. You never know when you need one.

psst.. have a sip everytime you feel thirsty. Okay good day.

WHORE'S MEAL

Yes.. that's right. Haha. How i know about it? Well that was the original name for one of the menu serve in this one country. Yes this is probably new to you, but history to others. Baru lagi tu.. Mulanya, kan cari anchovies. So i said SupaSave ada. Then, olive oil, onion, black olive slice, herbs and spagetti.

The story about the original name for this receipe. And its name - Whore's Meal. I said why? Well.. people finished work at dawn, night hostess, workers malam, drop by at the almost close restaurant, sure kitchen almost close, like cleaning process, and just had nothing to order. That late, so they told the chef to just add pasta with anything.. so anything is - anchovies with olive oil and with pasta. Wala!! the Whore's Meal it is called. But now, no more but a glamourous name. But i forgot what it is. The one i remember is only the Whore's Meal. Haha..

Every countries have their own popular food. Some starts with a good name, and some yeah a good name, its just some name someone create and luck, it become popular. Haha.. LUck! Wham... WM and its HOT!!

B'day..

Oh.. baru ia. Last night my son's birthday. Last minute nada tia ayam. Planned was.. 2 lasagne (home bake.. me bake), 2 koloMee (one atu for 15 people, order from restaurant), chicken Wings goreng (buat sendiri), and Ayam 3 ekor saja(setentunya beli, inda sanggup kan buat toh) and satay $20 (order). Donuts, apples etc lah. Sekali no Ayam 3 ekor atu! Wah, panik eh. Of course lah.. panik.

I cepat cepat keluarkan linguine pasta. And sauce. Apa lagi, beraksi lah akak.. Haha. Bab di dapor, akak lah jadi nya. Eee... inda ku pandai panggil sendiri akak eh.. alum the right time lagi. So, beraksi lah i. I alread prepared 2 lasagne petang utnuk malam, wow!! Menjadi. So panik punya pasal, masak sauce, and wala!! done another limited edition pasta to serve.

At the end, cukup lah all. Tips - jangan panik kalau inda cukup, jangan menyalahkan sesiapa, work it out, think fast, jangan mengusut, work it out and come up with something.. Wala!! you have a great day.

Alhamdulillah.

SAJA SAJA..

Haha! ani pun ada cerita.. baru ia.

This i got to laugh! Paloi banar eh. Bukan apa, out of the blue, bercerita-cerita tia dorang ani.. Pagi jua di dengar, and petang tadi jua. Aper cerita nya? Nah i share..

Brunei and Malaysia gets emotional, and Indonesia keep it calm. Other countries diam saja.. Haha.. NO COMMENT. apa lah.. CERITA KEDAI KOPI. Oh ada lagu tu, yes.. that is what it meant CERITA KEDAI KOPI. Ada ada saja kan di dangar.

Cuba tah cerita pasal WORLD CUP 2010!! Baru ia. Masa ani jua hangat with WORLD CUP, masa masa ani jua hangat dengan yang lain nya. Jangan terlampau boiling, karang terspill tia jua..

Haha! No hard feelings!

MODELLING

Baru tah terbungkar pasal modelling ani. Nya kenapa you didn't say anything about it? Well.. you should be proud of it representing your country. Au .. but mesti kan tu?

Keluar lah clip from youtube.. Pasal Model top 3 ani. Doi kecian ku meliat. Lawa pulang tapi, kan kata ani, not my bisnes. Tapi kan kata atu, em.. macam memperbodohkan bangsa sendiri.
Atu i have to tell you, the first thing i learned about broadcasting, especially when you're working sama ada on tv screen or radio. You got to be professional.

Never.. never never ever makes youself sound stupid, nor never never ever makes your partner sounds stupid too.. Never ever, though you think you're better than them, never never ever makes one sounds or look stupid. It's your ass too.

A lesson i learned and well.. for you to think about it. Sometime ada jua inda mau alah, mau jua kan di tell the world, ia better than the other, wal hal, never did you know, that you're who you are. Haha!! figure it out lah. NP. mean No Problem tu.

True Legends

Meliat wayang with someone, ending nya would be getting a different opinion. Haha. Aku menintik nitik air mata (meaning i like that movie eh.. haha), and the other just confused with the movie. The movie was good, but the people who watched it ... mmm..

Just again dalam kereta, what was that about ya. I thought habis sudah cerita nya, mati jua sudah bini nya.. what was that end story got to do with him with that.. MMMMmmm.. mendalam jua tu meaningnya. Something got to do with semangat from the wife kali jua. And the son. And i think that's the reason he became like that, up down, penyabar, loose and bangun lagi and become like that lah at the end. Get it? Inda?

But the one who pick the movie, dia. Then bab yang ada touch the perasaan, well.. like inda terasa. Is it because in denial. Denying dari perasaan atu, takut kalah? That i don't understand. Which means, i need to understand. Characterwise etc.. haha. Not Clear. Clearly got meaning bah movie ah.. I laugh jua in my heart.. Banar kan tu?

sigh..

Do you want to know? Well i guess different people got different opinion. But yang nada perasaan.. not perasaan like what, tapi of course some part of the movie must have touch you when you see, not all probably, but hey.. in reality, ada bah orang like this. Nada perasaan. Only enjoyed entah ah .. apa?

Okay for example, Kung Fu Panda, which part touched you? Or .. what was the movie Will Smith with anak nya belakun? em.. Or the latest one Sandra Bullock belakun baru baru ani that based on real story, so which one touched you?

Psst.. nda kan nada. Or other movie, ask yourself. Haha.. serious eh. Yeah, serious, which part you like and which part you don't like.. Go watch that movie. NIce..

Hari atu punya Cerita. Bola lah!

i am watching bola. Very interesting. England VS USA. But of course lah different question i asked. Yang mengalih yang meliat sama. OH.. i missed to see the goal from USA.. haha. Yes now getting interesting. Becareful with human error. Green should not be so confident with that ball. Got ball got to handle it well. Balled it! lol! It is horrible. Haha... Tediam David Beckham. Oh no!! That's is human error. The manager is not amused but USA manager is happy!! Tension..
Yang aku meliat sini ani, nahhhhhhh.. hibernating tia jua my battery. Luckily inda ilang my work ani. England masok - Weldone!! Em.. USA masok??? em.. Horrible Goal!! Why? Well, rugi you didn't see it. Oh no..
I am liking football now. But still alum sure what is offside, faul etc..etc. Start noticing pulang but still learning. 25 days of this one, i will eventually learn something. But i have to say, to keep all in silence, the respect every human have for their National Anthem, kagum ku eh!
'Never be so confident, over confident. You could loose it when you already had it with your own hand' - that's from me.
Breaktime - psst.. don't want to miss this one. Mengantok eh, but meliat the human error goal, makes me em.. okay must see this one. Haha..
2nd half..

ONE WORD AT A TIME..

Yesterday ENDURANCE. Today PROVOKE. and then NEGLECT. oh.. now DEFEND. wOW!! iTS OKAY. Not our mother tongue, but that doesn't mean you can't learn. Or simple ingnorance. haha!! I am smiling while writing. One word at a time. It could be you next. Imagine infront of 1 million viewers..(em ya kan) yes, and someone ask you one word? so learn lah. And keep learning. Sometimes its better to learn with talking sama kawan kawan, but alone pun not bad jua lah.. Whichever, it works.

Psst.. Inda caya, coba. Jangan inda coba.

DIVORCE?

The former HRH Azrinaz. Sigh! Sad to hear. But then why bother to talk about it. Let it be. They were too, couples once married. Like us, we fall inlove, we get married. if it doesn't work out, it ends up in a divorce. I was divorced once, and yeah.. didn't hear good stories too. But then, it my life. I manage to live my life well, and normal. Now i am happily married.

So let it be. So sorry and sad to hear it didn't work out, but that doesn't mean you can talk sesuka hati without knowing the real stories. Just jodoh sampai di situ saja. So lets move on with our lives, think what we want, what our families want and PENTING sekali, what we can give them.

Just wish both of them well! And to you take care too.

SEX

Sex or gender? Is it the same kah tu? In the form, usually gender or sex. Which one you notis dalam form? Oh talking about sex ani, it is akhir zaman. Ada yang sampai tukar gender. I would like to ask one when i meet one, and seriously ask why? Not that i am kepoh, just everytime when i heard people talk about PONDAN, i hated it.

I always tell these people, just leave them alone. I always tell these people, maybe naluri nya too strong like woman, like man etc... And further more, one thing, they don't know what happen. Second, they don't know why PONDAN become PONDAN? Third, why you have to laugh at it? It's scary you know, coz' you don't know how your life be and how one day the PONDAN is you. Not that you want to be, just no explaination. And why i said that, kejadian for a reason. Or same to TOMBOY. Maybe naluri too strong that they can't control it. Have you ever ask?

I know a few, bi-sexual, pondan, tomboy etc.. you name it. And i am okay with that. Not that i agree, i just go along with it, because they are human too. And they have feelings too. Normal friends good to have, the abnormal one also good to have. I know it sound harsh, forgive me. But i can never laugh at them. Laugh the way they dressed, talk or walk. That's a no.. no. Let it be. You don't like it, go away and just ignore it and think of other good things to talk about. You okay with it, get along with it.

Haha.. i think i've seen too much. Much that you would not imagine. So that's why lah. What? Yes.. true.

Let me ask you.. If you are allowed to choose what gender you want in this life, what would it be? Psst.. i've known and got so many friends who are like that, and they are fun happy people. I enjoyed their company. Oh.. one time i was in California, i met a fashion designer, and sHE so cool. I took the summer work for one of the radio station in Santa Monica, and we sat next to each other.. wah! i must say, i enjoyed it. And one time at a friend's bday party, and a lot of them were there, i sat with them group, and i just enjoyed their company. Fun to be with when you know them. They love you too!

Pinjam..

$50 in envelop. Its okay. Bila orang need it, i can help. But not over $50. No.. no.. just don't want just because of $$ inda betagur. So limit be $50. Kalau kena bayar, okay. Kalau inda pun halalkan. If mampu pandai ia bayar balik. Tapi kalau niat inda lurus, jangan harap kan balik duit tu. Pun its okay. Haha.. Permulaan pembukaan kata.

Lama-lama boleh jadi hutang kan. Ia tah, kalau ada hutang harus di langsaikan. Kalau inda inda mau habis tu. Sentiasa mau berhutang.. Not easy kan behutang and not easy to menghutangkan. And kalau kan berhutang, tabalkan muka, and kalau yang menghutangkan memikirkan bila jua banar kan di bayarnya. Inda ja?

Mula arah kawan pinjam. Lama-lama hutang. Wow!! Pinjam sama hutang inda sama kah? Well.. maybe sama, tapi ganya lain caranya.. Fuck eh! hahah! OPS!! OMG!! Zura write unsensored word!! It so UNLIKE me. But its an experiment. Hahah!!(ada pasal nya tu word ah.. only me saja tau tu, let see if it works. If it works, i let you know.) So the same as borrow and loan. So borrow to a friend but loan, loan to loanshark or bank. So the only different is loan ada interest. Haha.. did you ever think of that? Inda kan..

BEKALAN

Dengan matinya sifat Egois

Kebahagian hakiki akan Teraih.

Last Night..

Marinating chicken for order tonite. Watched football.. haha! I like Chile play last night, bersemangat. I don't like Spain play last night, adoi one of those moment when you hope for semangat, just so nada. Well.. i am liking football. Do you think i could be an expert? I mean to know who play with who, and who is the best and etc about football? haha! Well i can if i want to. I enjoyed it.

Haha.. i am reading the text send in by pendengar this morning.. this is one text i received i would like to share.. '999I4 gd morning to Luqman bin Zainal jng lupa buat home work jng buat last minit frm Layana'. Eh macam familiar saja nama nya ah.. haha.

Ah.. today a new day. Looking forward for good day, maybe better.. or perhaps okay. But hope for the best. Working, yes got to be focus. I know lots of problems, but yeah.. we can handle this. We live to solve problems.. You solve it you got good thing coming in your ways. You can't solve it FOREVER problem tu.

Oh, if you got HUTANG belambak, like nada chance to have 10% of your salary for youself, well that's bad. Kalau banyak duit pun alum tantu senang, tapi kalau karing kontang, ppun alum gerenti happy jua. Masalah.. banyak masalah. Tapi kalau mau, ada 10% kah.. settle all the hutang and Insyallah.. Tapi kalau inda mau 10%, teruskan berhutang. Gali lobang timbus jua sendiri. Nda siok eh. Psst..settle kan tia. And say to yourself, kalau ada keinginan untuk berhutang, well lari kan perasaan atu. Kalau inda mampu jangan paksa diri. Yang merana sendiri.

Tidor awal. i didnt makan nasi pun. I think i ingat, pagi tu keraja, so i makan spagatti i make the night before, sepiring saja and a glass of warm water. Then keraja.. half way, makan biscuit and a bottle of water. Then balik go tg.Bunut beli barang. Balik rehat, liat channel CI, and few channel. Then tidor awal. Okay lah tidor awal.. tapi awal atu, hiya.. got hot news. But its biasa jua tu sudah.. hot issue, we are human. So i hope inda diperbersarkan lagi. Well..

When i think about it, haha.. i always think you know, its a process in life. And remember, we only live once. That's it. haha nada yang dapat beli what you have in your life, and that i respect with all you've gone through, and you still live to face another after another. I tell you, this is only the beggining, and there's more to come. Sabar and enjoy the moment!

HOTzzzzz ISSUE EH!

Sultan divorces 2nd wife and all royal titles, decorations & medals withdrawn... That was yesterday's story of the day..

Hot ISSUE but NO COMMENT!

psst.. when there's beggining, there's also ending. So it is.

TEARY EYES.. TEARS OF JOY!

I am touched by them remaja. Have a good sweet heart to do all the V job. The volunteer job. Yes.. Sweet. Boleh kah teary mata ku when we talk about special people. I am so proud of them. I know its not easy being a volunteer, good heart, patient, sense of humor, strong heart and enjoy whatever there is in life have to offer. That's a quality one. I am sure there are lots of them out there. I am so glad and proud.

I told them a short story about related subject too. About a friend i know.. yes. And they are touch too with the story. I am glad. These young people got got heart. Alhamdulillah. Parents must real proud too. We want a healthy nation. And that starts from home, school and from their environment.. Important.. To create a healthy nation, we, you and me got to start it right and healthy too..

FISHING LAST NIGHT..

That is ketenangan. Seriously. Hujan lebat awal petang. Attended kenduri tahlil doa selamat. So makan soto jadi pilihan. Masok jap, keluar lagi sibok orang packing makanan already. Inda sempat kan makan yang lain nya. Tapi good jua at least makanan inda membazir. I got to eat at least 10 biji apam.. haha. Baru ia.

So tadoh jua hujan. Rintik rintik. Pick up point di Jeti opposite Kg.Sungai Bunga. Was at the perairian Sungai Brunei. Siok eh. Tenang. Wondering bila tah kan dapat ikan Kurau.. au ada orang mau tu ikan Kurau. Sambil memancing, kurau kurau mana you kurau. And jua mau kan ikan pari. Lah.. ada orang atu memancing, bediri bah atas bot. Gah usul nya.. nampak bayang-bayang dari belakang. Diam diam.. dengar radio tah jua. Lagu lumayan bila berada di tangah tangah Sungai Brunei ah.. Sekali yang gah ani bah.. wondering jua kenapa. Sekali nah.. tangsi nya telilit rah fishing rod ah.. Ketawa basar ku tarus eh.

Ada yang memakai short, ada yang memakai short sleeve t's. Au meriah nya cuaca nya di malam atu dengan angin bertiup.. sajok jua. Me? Bezip bah full blast pakai jacket. Baik jua.. kalau inda sajok berabiz tu eh.

London Boy Punya Cerita

Kena lepaskan tia.. Hahah.. Ubat ampus eh ceritanya. Langu? YOu know? Ahh.. that's is LONDON BOY. Bukan C-Boy.. atu Buaya tu. Langut - Sea Lizard. That's what i learned last night.

NOT ONLY ME!

Rupanya today, not only me think about death. I received text from Sykin.. Ask me "if i were to die tomorrow, what would you say to me today?" em... let me ask you too... what would it be?

BILA DI TANYA ..

Kemarin i watched tv. And its the HISTORY channel. You know which one ya. So meliat War and people killing people ikut nafsu. Or mesti kah orang mati like that yang not willing to die atu. Uh padih eh. Kalau zaman sekarang, membunuh orang dengan cara lain. Tapi kalau dulu, inda suka bunuh mati satu keluarga beramai-ramai atau dengan peperangan.

So kan bercerita jua. Sakit hati meliat walaupun bukan keluarga. Walaupun bukan sesama agama, sesama bangsa.. tapi amat menyakitkan. Kanak-kanak, ibu bapa, keluarga jua terbunuh kerana hawa nafsu dari manusia jua. Ada yang survive. Kali yang survive merasakan kepedihan sampai hari ani kerana kehilangan. Eh... sakit jua kan.

So sempat lah i write it in my phone, nada internet yesterday for me. So today i share, topik nya pasal MATI.

MATI

How you want to die? How would you imagine to die? You wish you die like this and like that? Try meliat wayang, tv kah or whatever about mati.. whatever that cause death. Then ask your friend or someone next to you. Do you want to die like that? Well... the answer : if you see death look okay, maybe yeah. But if what you see not so good, then you don't want to die like that.

That's what my friend said..'inda eh'. So, how wyould you want to die? How you you know anyway? You don't want, but it that's the way, you wouldn't know when the times come. Reason why i said this, i was watching tv. History channel. I looked at the people dalam tv atu. Real people. Entah hidup or mati pun. History. Those people, some probably survived, the rest long gone! It hurt to see, apa lagi bila relate to you.

Why kill innocent people, and your families di selamatkan. What yang mati atu don't deserve to live? What only their families deserve to live? And who are you to tell who deserve or who not? complicted kan.. Well.. i heard one say - its just have to be done during that time. And i go ????!@# What? Just got to be done during that time?? YOu got to be kidding me. Who are you? - its just during that time nya, coz populations and others things .. etc.. was too much? Ah??

Just wondering if the family were yours? Would you accept that? Do you think you would say, its okay.. it just got to be done. And you are the only survivor? I think one others got different opinion. That be different kan?

So you tell me.. who deserve to live this beautiful life and who not? Who derserve to be kill? and who not? You? Your nyawa taken by other human, or naturally? Which one? Or you want to die old gracefully? Ke jiwa ku tarus eh. I don't know how i will die but i know i will die. When would it be and how would it be? Berserah kepada Illahi.. Semoga we all die peacefully and dalam beriman dan bertaqwa.. Insyallah. Amin.. Dan mudah-mudahan dalam lindungan Allah. Dengan izin nya jua..

Happy Friday. Take care.
Something to think about..

MENDENGARKAH ORANG TU?

I baca newpaper yesterday. Wow.. only on page 2 saja. What interest people saja yang i like to read and the rest dengar Berita saja. Lagi senang. Coz all ada dalam berita pun. So.. kena dengar kah tu apa yang di tulis dalam atu? Akan dilaksana kan kah tu permintaan orang ramai selaku masyarakat Brunei? Em.. Swimming pool.. Plate license lagi.. Lain lagi dengan CC.. and banyak lagi? What actually happen.. Au teruk plang but no comment. I just wait and see. Ada improvment kah inda seperti yang di harapkan oleh Raja kitani.. We all have to use common sense dalam melakukan all that and jangan jadi robot. Ops!!

Though i don't read so much, hear so much ada. But banar kah inda tu, none of my bisness jua to say. But just see what happen.. ada kah inda explaination or siok sendir. Ops!! I wish .. i just wish. All like small things ya, tapi yang small things ani tah yang actually matter. Ops!!

Nevermind lah.. pikir sendiri saja. I love Brunei. And i love HM too. Did all he can, and very perihatin in everything, but does orang yang di harap pun as perihatin as he is? Some yes.. not all. But unlike me to say this, some .. not. Some pakai orang, to gain something. That's selfish, but sonner or later.. tertera jua stupidity sendiri on that forehead. Dapat di baca kali ah.. Haha.
Ahem..

YOU DON'T QUIT!

Go! Go! You can do it! I believe so. You can. Memang payah, that's life. That's why life worth living. Kepayahan atu di lawan. I am sure that you can do like ..Hiya a piece of peanut saja. So, go for it. Cabar yourself. Don't just quit. To think about it, yeah .. easy to say, no i don't think its for me. But hey! Did you know dalam kesusahan atu will membuahkan something big, really big that you can't even imagine, something worth living for you and your future. Its to try you out, it all lie beneath you.. its all there. Its you and your usaha that makes you a a QUALITY one.

Don't say you can't when you haven't even try it. Try it and feel it. And be ONE. Reserved!

TOUGH EH..

Been tough. I still don't understand. There got be something wrong. Haha.. I am living and not understanding. There got to be a way to understand. Better soon coz' living short not helping it out at all. Eh.. i terbaca, don't understand just live it. Ops.. really?

NAMPAK SELUAR DALAM..PINK!!

Au banar. Trend trend jua. Sebenar nya malas kan share this. But i share jua. Been in my mind. I was at the mall yesterday, i would say that girl would look good and decent if she wore jeans. Walaupun tight jeans. I wouldn't have comment about it. Tapi she wore stockings and see through. May be she liat from the front inda nampak kali. Tapi inda kan family or friends nya notis dari belakang? She's not that hard to notis. She's big.

Now the issue is not about being big. Its okay. But the issue was about the PINK/ORANGE SELUAR DALAM she wore. I must say the boys depan kami enjoying meliat and mengutuk, but why?

Seriously, i don't want to comment more. I just want you to know, when you buy stockings or leggings, please make sure you know what you want to wear it with. Ikut trend satu, being a victim satu. I wish i have a camera with me just to take that bit, and post it. But then again.. inda ada. Haha..

So please don't be a FASHION VICTIM.. or TREND VICTIM. Baik tah pakai baju yang selesa, yang make you feel good about yourself, does't matter biar tia nampak sikit tapi still stylish and nyaman mata memandang. That's my view.

pssst.. kalau makai leggings, biar baju nya panjang dikit. Jangan macam bejalan bogel. Bida.. kalau kawasan nya tempat yang meriah memakai leggings and stockings, its okay. But kalau you tah ganya yang menarik attention, just because nampak seluar dalam.. wEll WEAR IT AT YOUR OWN RISK! haha..

MUTIARA KATA

Kita tidak mampu mengubah masa lalu, dan tidak pula merancang masa depan dengan gambaran yang sesuai dengan kehendak kita, untuk itu, tidak ada gunanya Membinasakan Diri dalam kekecewaan kerana sesuatu yang tidak mampu kita ubah.

BAHLOL!!!!

Paloi! Bahlol!! kalau inda tau undang-undang jalan raya, baik tah jangan memandu. Kalau inda tau signboard tertampal-tampal dapan mata, inda terbaca, inda ada idea apa erti nya, baik tah jangan memandu. Ujung-ujung mati orang lain kerana diri sendiri punya kecuaian.

Bukan jua apa, setiap simpang ada line berhenti. And ada jua sign berhenti or STOP!! Inda jua paham tu. Buat buta. Baik pulang buta, tau orang. Ani bemata tapi buat buta. Kan mampus tah banar sudah tu. Angkat tangan, bila inda jadi apa-apa. Tapi kalau terjadi apa-apa, lari kali eh. Angkat tangan??? Tia karang. Paloi banar!!!!

1.40pm.. driving toward rimba. From lambak, pakai jalan belakang. Lintas Pangkalan Tentera Udara. So driving steady, suddenly i saw this car really fast coming from exit jerudong hiway towards rimba. Wah.. i didn't expect him to drive terus and not stop. There was a stop sign, though the other side nada kereta, but on my side got car. Now this stupid driver jalan terus and belok kanan, ke haluan i was going. I was shock, and have to steer my car to the left sikit and i brake to slow down. I wanted to wait for this car, and stop him, and ask him how STUPID he could be????? Very dam Stupid. I don't know who he is.

His driving N****, and the car number KM****. Almost similar color to my car. Gold!!! I was shaking while driving. I hated him but i don't know him. I hated the way he drive!! I hate it when i looked how ignorance he is, when what he did was wrong!!! WHAT IF something happen??? Would he hit and run??? Would he stop and admit he's wrong?? Would he? Whould he? Would he??? What is wrong with this type of people.

You think you can buy nyawa kah? You think driving ani siok kah? Do you think driving ani for fun kah? Do you think driving ani only you kah? How stupid can you be, when you're at the junction, and you DID NOT STOP??? How stupid can you be, when you got an opportunity to drive, and you just make a stupid decision?? NOT STOPPING?????

You expect other people to stop? When you drive like orang gila??? I wonder who he is?? Today Tuesday, at exactly 1.40 pm, weather hot and nice. Nothing happen. Thank God. But WHAT IF... this people who drove like they know everything, they're an expert but STUPID!!!!


Mmmmm... Do you think people need to retake the driving license? Need to understand what are the signs stands for???? I nearly got hit this afternoon. He didn't stop, not even menoleh right, left??? zoom like orang gila macam ia sorang saja drive, and kalau kan mampus, biar mampus sorang. Jangan orang lain di bawa-bawa!!

FB: huhu...same lyk me blm batah ane... Kan kuar spg...tetiba je ia laju dbnr2i nya bh..nda kn dlm kwsn mahkmah pun kn belaju..serius ya buat nda belaku...astaaa... *kabak2 jantung*

FB: Banar tu Zura. . .sometime dengan Bangganya lagi tu cakap "Berapa tahun udah ku Belesen and Memiggang Kerita ane" But dari pandangan mata urang macam Inda Belesen. . .macam kan Merujuh kereta diri dari belakang. . .if emergency Break,tani yang kana marah tu. . . every single day mesti aku tejumpa urang macam ane. . .yang Hot pun tambah hot hehehe

ME: they think they are an expert on the road, lama berlisen konon. OH SuCKS!!! marah ku eh!!!!! marah ku dengan tabiat orang gila cuai memandu macam ia saja kan benyawa!! Apa ingat nyawa dapat di bali kah!!!??? Banyak terjadi tapi apa endnya?? kecian saja orang. yang Gila menyasal, menyasal sampai saat atu saja. lapas atu buat gilanya lagi. SUCKS!!

FB: yeah betul..some drivers need to retake their license..we need people who knows the traffic regulation not just selfishly driving around

FB: betuix3, jgn babitkn org lain, sendiri mampus udh lahh :))

FB: di suruh ambil lesen test bebalik pun nda guna.. Pretend tia mcm org driver mengikot peraturan.. Huhu..

FB: drg tu buta sign board.....

FB: So true zura. Totally agree with ur statement. Baik tah d tarik balik driving licencenya atu. Pikirnya formula 1 kali.


pSST... these are the reasons why we always saw, heard accidents here and there. Everyday inda pandai miss. Who to blame????? DRIVERS lah!!! bukan jalan, bukan signboard, bukan inda cukup itu ini lah. Use COMMON SENSE!!!! USE OTAK LAH. BUKAN PERASAAN!!! Pihak Polis did their jobs. Gov't pun menyediakan kemudahan everything for the road users. But the roadusers sendiri yang BAHLOL!! Yang selfish tetap selfish. Buat BAHLOL buat BODOH, buat SIOK SENDIRI. I don't care who you are, if you feel you are the one, then banar tah tu.

I know NOT ALL ROADUSERS ARE IRRESPONSIBLE, BUT THERE ARE SOME. AND WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENED, NOT JUST HAPPENED. YOU MAKE IT HAPPEN. WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENED, NOT THEIR FAULT, BUT YOURS!! You could elakkan this stupidity, by driving with the speed limit, not less not more. Drive with responsibilities, and cautions. Drive with safety. and DRIVE AND USE YOUR BRAIN TO THINK AND TAKE ACTION with safety comes first.

Another story. I haven't got a chance to go to Police Station yet. Sometime ago, i got hit at the roundabout in Qlap. And this old man was angry with me. He HIT MY CAR, MY SON WAS IN THE CAR AT THE PASSENGER SEAT, AND WAS SHOCKED!! This old man drove a big car, and didn't stop at the roundabout. He said to me i should stop at the roundbout and give him way.. Malas ku kan cakap. I let the police handle that old man. Haha.. How funny can that story sound? Very funny kan. Well, it wasn't funny that time, coz' my son was shock, because it was on his side that the old man with the big car hit. Well, what do you thinK?

SHOULD THERE BE ANOTHER RETAKE FOR UNDANG-UNDANG JALAN RAYA FOR PEOPLE AT CERTAIN AGE??

(this is what i wrote when i stop at my frens house still a bit shock in my car with the incident just now)

KM**** N**** - 1.40PM, DEIVE WITHOUT STOPPING GOING TOWARD RIMBA. THE CAR EXIT FROM JERUDONG HIGHWAY TO MUARA,JERUDONG,TUTONG/RIMBA. HE SHOULD STOP AND MAKE SURE ROAD IS CLEAR. GOING FAST AND STRAIGHT TAKING RIGHT TURN TOWARDS RIMBA (D'RIMBA SUPERMARKET). PALOI TAH BANAR MEMANDU INDA STOP. IT COULD CAUSE AN ACCIDENT IF I DIDN'T MENGELAKKAN. ALHAMDULILLAH..

BERUMOR SUDAH. KARANG DI SALAHKAN ORANG MUDA DRIVE MACAM ORNAG GILA. SAMA JUA HARI ATU, ORANG BERUMOR JUA. DI LANGGARNYA KERETA KU, KELUAR IA MEMARAHI KEDIAKU. AKU SALAH KAN NYA. APA KAN???

PATUT KAH DI DI ADAKAN LAGI, JIKA BERUMOR ATU, DI MESTIKAN MENGAMBIL LISEN LAGI? SUPAYA TAHU UNDANG-UNDANG?? TELAMPAU EXPERT AND LUAN PANDAI BAH.. KALAU LAMA SUDAH MEMANDU ATU.

CREDIT CARD!!

Wow.. serious business. How much did you get to pay yours? How many debts you got to settle every month? And add to this, can you survive? How did you survive? I want to clear my debts soonest. I got my car and credit car. That's it. And i tell you, i am glad the plan for the new credit card payment is going to clear my credit card debt in 3 years, but i am worried, just a bit worried, if i couldn't come up with that amount every month.

Phew!! Did you feel the same? Glad to think it would help to clean sooner, but to clean it need to work extra hard, to find other income. How? Got many ways. But do you have time? Well.. what's needed to be done, got to be done jua. So just tight but will survive.. Smile when settling your bills. You feel better.

MY CAR ..

Send my car to agent today. Hope siap this evening. I love my car. One and only. Black beauty. Simple too. The only problem i have with my car just cermin nya saja. The front right and left. Well, its now 7 years. So last membayar bank. Insyallah clear soon. And huray!!! no more paying car. I hope i keep it that way. Surrender inda mau beli car lagi. Mengalih membayar ani.. haha. Siapa jua inda?

So, i never trust workshop. Bagus kah? Maybe for fixing the bump etc okay lah kali. But not internal. Because i think different car got different whatever lah kali. So i think if send to agent, we know guarantee can bring back. Kalau rah workshop, garantee we pay everytime we send. Eh? Lurus kah tu.. So i hope to hear from them soon. Psst.. I drove my car round Brunei dah, 4 Daerah dah, in out. And also been outside Brunei. To Miri and KK. Wah.. Sampai jua sudah. Weldone to my car. Now got to fix bawah nya. Telampau banyak hantakan... haha.

It's going to be as good as new. I am looking forward to see my car back home this evening. Talking about my car, lots of memories. Sweet really sweet. Mad pun Madness.. haha. But love you my baby. I wonder you have a name for your car? I do.. What's yours?