10.32pm.
Counting the NEW YEAR 2011. I am starring at the wallpaper of my computer ... my late father. I miss him so much. I wish you know how i felt. Days passed fast. Years... Left us in 2002. I wish i spent more time with him. The memories left me with missing him. But yes, other would said the same thing too. Spending more time with him. I really miss him.
Friday, December 31, 2010
KOLEKSI MUTIARA KATA
Peduli lah hal orang jika ia untuk memperbaiki keadaan, jangan peduli dengan cerita keaiban orang jika ia merosakkan keadaan, pedulilah diri sendiri untuk dapat mengelakan diri dari yang buruk untuk memburukan keadaan, dan kekalkan keyakinan diri dengan kebaikan untuk kebaikan keadaan.
Jangan memilih hanya sebab suka. Pilih juga walau tidak suka. Keajiban datang tanpa kita ketahui, kandang yang sebab suka jadi tidak suka dan yang tidak suka jadi suka. Kita boleh kata tapi belum dapat menyatakannya dengan pasti.
Jangan di sesali masa lalu.Lupakan. Hari ini hari baru. Setiap hari yang bakal di lalui akan ada cerita baru, episod baru dan buku baru dalam hidup. Bersedialah dengan kekuatan mental dan tenaga untuk menghadapi apa yang akan di lalui dalam hidup agar ia akan lebih bermakna dalam hidup dari mengenang dan kesal dengan masa lalu.
Kamu boleh jadi hero di dunia. Kamu boleh tipu orang di dunia. kamu boleh ada power di dunia. kamau boleh buat apa yang kamu suka. kamu rosak kan orang demi nama hero. Semua itu hanya di dunia saja and kamu tau itu sementara..
You like hubby orang risiko tinggi. You like single, risiko tidak setinggi hubby orang. Same goes - You like wife orang risiko tinggi. You like single risiko tidak setinggi wife orang. Andangnya tu. Orang punya suka diri punya inda suka. Padahal yang diri punya jauh lebih baik dari orang punya. Inda payah tah buat BLAC...K MAGIC. Karang sudah inda suka, sendiri yang susah. Paham ka?
Harapan memberikan semangat untuk terus berjuang dalam hidup.
Senyum. Senyum lah selagi boleh senyum jangan sampai nikmat senyum hilang baru ingin senyum.
Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. Do whatever you can for today... and let tomrorrow comes when it comes to see you. You see today. Today see you. You can't see tomorrow, but tomorrow will always there to see you..
kalau kan berjaya teruskan usaha, kalau ingin berjaya ya boleh. Jangan menindih orang saja demi untuk berjaya. Setinggi mana pun, akan jatuh tu.. bukan sekarang tapi akan.. lebih dashyat dari yang di imaginasikan..
CREATED BY ZURA
Jangan memilih hanya sebab suka. Pilih juga walau tidak suka. Keajiban datang tanpa kita ketahui, kandang yang sebab suka jadi tidak suka dan yang tidak suka jadi suka. Kita boleh kata tapi belum dapat menyatakannya dengan pasti.
Jangan di sesali masa lalu.Lupakan. Hari ini hari baru. Setiap hari yang bakal di lalui akan ada cerita baru, episod baru dan buku baru dalam hidup. Bersedialah dengan kekuatan mental dan tenaga untuk menghadapi apa yang akan di lalui dalam hidup agar ia akan lebih bermakna dalam hidup dari mengenang dan kesal dengan masa lalu.
Kamu boleh jadi hero di dunia. Kamu boleh tipu orang di dunia. kamu boleh ada power di dunia. kamau boleh buat apa yang kamu suka. kamu rosak kan orang demi nama hero. Semua itu hanya di dunia saja and kamu tau itu sementara..
You like hubby orang risiko tinggi. You like single, risiko tidak setinggi hubby orang. Same goes - You like wife orang risiko tinggi. You like single risiko tidak setinggi wife orang. Andangnya tu. Orang punya suka diri punya inda suka. Padahal yang diri punya jauh lebih baik dari orang punya. Inda payah tah buat BLAC...K MAGIC. Karang sudah inda suka, sendiri yang susah. Paham ka?
Harapan memberikan semangat untuk terus berjuang dalam hidup.
Senyum. Senyum lah selagi boleh senyum jangan sampai nikmat senyum hilang baru ingin senyum.
Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. Do whatever you can for today... and let tomrorrow comes when it comes to see you. You see today. Today see you. You can't see tomorrow, but tomorrow will always there to see you..
kalau kan berjaya teruskan usaha, kalau ingin berjaya ya boleh. Jangan menindih orang saja demi untuk berjaya. Setinggi mana pun, akan jatuh tu.. bukan sekarang tapi akan.. lebih dashyat dari yang di imaginasikan..
CREATED BY ZURA
Thursday, December 30, 2010
POLITIK?
Politik Dunia, Politik Negara dan Politik Opis. Au ... we were reminded not to touch on Politik Negara that yes understood. Barangkali disebabkan we don't really know what what what .. etc so jangan salah cakap lebih baik jangan sentoh lah. Biar tia orang yang mahir bepolitik handle tu, Kemahiran bisdiorang. Jangan tah ikut-ikutan. What they say 'terlanjur perahu boleh berundur tapi terlanjur cakap.. macam mana???' Hehe.. English nya ... ' ....... boat can reverse but ....... talk.... how you think think lah??? ...
So anyway, somehow everwhere got politik. Entah pandai pandai buat politik sendiri. Politik Opis yang paling hangat di kalangan kitani yang bertugas. Entah apa yang personal apa yang inda, but Politik Opis selalunya personal eh. Nada yang inda. Untuk diri sendiri. Nya orang putih or Mat Salleh... Selfish. Bukan ia haiwan laut or makanan laut. Sedang kan Bahasa lagi ada perbezaan meaning, apa tah lagi kitani manusia ani. Semestinya mempunyai pelbagai attitude mmmm.... character dan caranya. Kalau inda percaya coba you bekerja. Hehe... Inda payah tah jauh, at home pun sama lah. How you handle?
Kalau you handle di rumah, you can handle di opis jua bah. No problem. Pakai lah teknik tenik yang sedia ada atu. No problem tu. Paling bagus lagi, ada buku buku yang boleh menolong kitani berpikir cara untuk handle Politik Opis ani. Kalau you mangsanya, ada caranya. Tapi kalau you Hantu nya... mmmm.... you create POLITIK OPIS .... pun juga ada book about how to handle nya. Okay...
Wish you all the best which whatever POLITIK you are involve in. Yang real Politik, yes okay. But most of all... unutk POLITIK OPIS atu... kalau alum mahir jangan coba coba, dan terlampau mahir, persaan saja tu. Bukan nya mahir, but MIHIR.
POLITIK OPIS!!???
So anyway, somehow everwhere got politik. Entah pandai pandai buat politik sendiri. Politik Opis yang paling hangat di kalangan kitani yang bertugas. Entah apa yang personal apa yang inda, but Politik Opis selalunya personal eh. Nada yang inda. Untuk diri sendiri. Nya orang putih or Mat Salleh... Selfish. Bukan ia haiwan laut or makanan laut. Sedang kan Bahasa lagi ada perbezaan meaning, apa tah lagi kitani manusia ani. Semestinya mempunyai pelbagai attitude mmmm.... character dan caranya. Kalau inda percaya coba you bekerja. Hehe... Inda payah tah jauh, at home pun sama lah. How you handle?
Kalau you handle di rumah, you can handle di opis jua bah. No problem. Pakai lah teknik tenik yang sedia ada atu. No problem tu. Paling bagus lagi, ada buku buku yang boleh menolong kitani berpikir cara untuk handle Politik Opis ani. Kalau you mangsanya, ada caranya. Tapi kalau you Hantu nya... mmmm.... you create POLITIK OPIS .... pun juga ada book about how to handle nya. Okay...
Wish you all the best which whatever POLITIK you are involve in. Yang real Politik, yes okay. But most of all... unutk POLITIK OPIS atu... kalau alum mahir jangan coba coba, dan terlampau mahir, persaan saja tu. Bukan nya mahir, but MIHIR.
POLITIK OPIS!!???
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
40 hari
Inda terasa berlalu ... 40 hari.
UNTUK NENEK TERSAYANG
HJH MASINU BINTI SARANG MOHAMMAD
YANG TELAH KEMBALI KERAHMATULLAH
AL FATIHAH
UNTUK NENEK TERSAYANG
HJH MASINU BINTI SARANG MOHAMMAD
YANG TELAH KEMBALI KERAHMATULLAH
10 ZULHIJJAH 1431H/
17 NOVEMBER 2010 MASIHI
MUTIARA KATA
Jangan pura pura baik jika niat busuk. Teruskan kan lah kejahatan atu agar padan dengan muka atu. Bida berpura pura baik depan belakang menabang. Semoga Allah akan membalas setimpal dengan yang di lakukan dan mudah mudahan Allah akan memberi kesedaran tarus agar tidak terlambat untuk bertaubat.
Buat lah apa sahaja yg kamu suka tapi ingat lah kamu akan menerima balasan setimpal dengan nya-ibnu Abbas
Buat lah apa sahaja yg kamu suka tapi ingat lah kamu akan menerima balasan setimpal dengan nya-ibnu Abbas
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
HIDDEN POWER??
I asked about WHAT IS HIDDEN POWER?
How public do you want? And should we just keep quiet and let others hurt? Even our Pemimpin HM inda mau bah nie ada di Jabatan Jabatan nya or di Kementerian Kementerian nya. HM surely hoping for the best, menjaga welfare rakyatnya. Banyak yang di berikan kepada kitani sudah. Hospital FREE bebayar only B$1 saja untuk bejumpa doctor, operation all the medical etc FREE. Education Free hanya beli buku bukan saja. Belajar luar negeri pun ada Scholarship, InService, all FREE if you qualified. Tambang Free, elaun sekolah etc banyak lagi.
I tell you, EVERYTHING IS MONEY di negeri lain, inda sama like Brunei. Macam macam ada opportunity untuk rakyat, ada kemahuan boleh dapat asal usaha.
But with this hidden power?
HM has treated us well, the best for his rakyat. But the hidden power by so called people think they are better then PEMIMPIN kitani kah? Pandai pandai membuat agenda sendiri tanpa memikirkan orang lain punya responsibility. HM never menyusahkan rakyatnya and always menjaga welfare rakyatnya. But who are these people with HIDDEN POWER? Yang suka menyusahkan orang-orang just because of power sikit di berikan.
Alhamdulillah semoga HM sentiasa dalam Lindungan Allah, sehat walafiat dan terus memimpin Negara Brunei Darussalam.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin.. I myself bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di Negara Brunei kitani ani, aman makmur yang susah di dapat di negeri negeri yang lain. We have PEACE and HARMONY here in Brunei.
Tapi masih ada jua yang HIDDEN POWER ani di gunakan .. habis habis kan menyusahkan orang-orang. Dissapointed eh. Patut nya berakal lah. Hidup semantara saja. Kaya dengan power di dunia siok.. kalau di gunakan untuk kebaikan apa jua, tapi sebaliknya.. Masya-Allah..
Just an opinion from a friend.
hidden power from my own opinion ada kebaikan & keburukannya...for me 1st thing is niat & keikhlasan. if these ppl sincere & profesional, alhamdulillah the organisation will flourish, great idea & alot of thing can be done..but kalau these ...ppl ada kepentingan diri that organisation will be a in disaster...banyak penyelewangan & unsur2 khianat akan berlaku..
How powerful these people?..hanya ALLAH yg maha mengetahui but they can change policy, tujuan & arah of those organisation..they can control sapa yg naik or sapa yg turun, etc..etc
BUT sebagai ketua mesti lah mempunyai ilmu & keimanan ... these so call hidden power or should i could them lobbist will keep on pushing their agenda. if ketua atu berilmu & berpengalaman alhamdulillah kedia buleh menimbang cadangan , idea atau agenda atu..
Ada satu buku that i read a few years ago but i forget the title, sumthing like the art of management or apakah lupa udah ku..but it worth untuk dibaca..more or less help me on my job & politik opis..hahaa
psst. btw who are these ppl?..it can be a PA, senior officer , opis by?..driver? ..a normal guy or a group of people yang bergaul with ketua-ketua...ia boleh jadi sapa saja..
cheers zura..
Lastly, banyak kesenangan di berikan kepada kitani, jangan tah telampau tamak untuk diri sendiri. Ingat.. hidup semantara saja. Hanya Allah yang mengetahui..
How public do you want? And should we just keep quiet and let others hurt? Even our Pemimpin HM inda mau bah nie ada di Jabatan Jabatan nya or di Kementerian Kementerian nya. HM surely hoping for the best, menjaga welfare rakyatnya. Banyak yang di berikan kepada kitani sudah. Hospital FREE bebayar only B$1 saja untuk bejumpa doctor, operation all the medical etc FREE. Education Free hanya beli buku bukan saja. Belajar luar negeri pun ada Scholarship, InService, all FREE if you qualified. Tambang Free, elaun sekolah etc banyak lagi.
I tell you, EVERYTHING IS MONEY di negeri lain, inda sama like Brunei. Macam macam ada opportunity untuk rakyat, ada kemahuan boleh dapat asal usaha.
But with this hidden power?
HM has treated us well, the best for his rakyat. But the hidden power by so called people think they are better then PEMIMPIN kitani kah? Pandai pandai membuat agenda sendiri tanpa memikirkan orang lain punya responsibility. HM never menyusahkan rakyatnya and always menjaga welfare rakyatnya. But who are these people with HIDDEN POWER? Yang suka menyusahkan orang-orang just because of power sikit di berikan.
Alhamdulillah semoga HM sentiasa dalam Lindungan Allah, sehat walafiat dan terus memimpin Negara Brunei Darussalam.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin.. I myself bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di Negara Brunei kitani ani, aman makmur yang susah di dapat di negeri negeri yang lain. We have PEACE and HARMONY here in Brunei.
Tapi masih ada jua yang HIDDEN POWER ani di gunakan .. habis habis kan menyusahkan orang-orang. Dissapointed eh. Patut nya berakal lah. Hidup semantara saja. Kaya dengan power di dunia siok.. kalau di gunakan untuk kebaikan apa jua, tapi sebaliknya.. Masya-Allah..
Just an opinion from a friend.
hidden power from my own opinion ada kebaikan & keburukannya...for me 1st thing is niat & keikhlasan. if these ppl sincere & profesional, alhamdulillah the organisation will flourish, great idea & alot of thing can be done..but kalau these ...ppl ada kepentingan diri that organisation will be a in disaster...banyak penyelewangan & unsur2 khianat akan berlaku..
How powerful these people?..hanya ALLAH yg maha mengetahui but they can change policy, tujuan & arah of those organisation..they can control sapa yg naik or sapa yg turun, etc..etc
BUT sebagai ketua mesti lah mempunyai ilmu & keimanan ... these so call hidden power or should i could them lobbist will keep on pushing their agenda. if ketua atu berilmu & berpengalaman alhamdulillah kedia buleh menimbang cadangan , idea atau agenda atu..
Ada satu buku that i read a few years ago but i forget the title, sumthing like the art of management or apakah lupa udah ku..but it worth untuk dibaca..more or less help me on my job & politik opis..hahaa
psst. btw who are these ppl?..it can be a PA, senior officer , opis by?..driver? ..a normal guy or a group of people yang bergaul with ketua-ketua...ia boleh jadi sapa saja..
cheers zura..
Lastly, banyak kesenangan di berikan kepada kitani, jangan tah telampau tamak untuk diri sendiri. Ingat.. hidup semantara saja. Hanya Allah yang mengetahui..
BONUS!!
Pihak polis menasihati orang ramai untuk lebih berhati-hati dimusim bonus ini dan hanya mengeluarkan wang dalam jumlah yang diperlukan samada dari bank atau mesin atm.
Its not about the money..
Membayar $20 for set of Ambuyat is not a problem. I know and you know most fofular set is $16 kan. And no problem to pay but what if the set you're paying not worth even $10? Dissapointed ku tarus. I have to say, i am one of the food lover on this earth. Eatable.. yang boleh di makan. And well.. that $20 for the set i pay not worth it at all.
I asked rah that guy yang keraja sana, siapa punya restoran? Then he told me and i ask for her number. So i got her number. I wanted to call. Tapi dalam keadaan dissapointed atu i didn't call. I don't want to be emotional to tell her how i felt about the ambuyat. May be that's her taste and cara nya membuat ambuyat. My friend said ada that owner inside the kitchen. I don't know really how to tell her. I am one of the customer jua so i think i have rights to tell her how the food are and services jua , especially ambuyat the fave of all people in Brunei ani jua, taste like and presentation of food necessary jua when you already put the price $20.
Psst... not only me yang dissapointed. Yang membayar lainnya, inda happy. Marong and masam jaling jaling jua. I asked kenapa? Kata diorang sudah tah service lambat, sajok lagi makanan, and INDA NYAMAN. I tell you, words spreads faster than you can imagine. Sebab atu tah, kalau ada berita yang entah apa apa, cepat orang kitani menerima and mengantar tanpa tau banar kah inda. But this, banar banar inda nyaman. Kata my friend nya, nyaman lagi kau buat. Ops.. i am not the greatest cook, but boleh jua nyaman jua. Kanyang jua. And bebaloi jua. Adoi..
I don't know. What do you think? She can take it as a positive critic and make it better or she can just look however she wanted to do and people only go there once. That's it. But i hope, yang membuat ambuyat atu just buat ambuyat the way orang atu suka and not thinking yang lain suka like what. Kan?
I went to AA today lunch, and paid $19 saja for 1 set of ambuyat and 1 kasturi and 1 longan. And nyaman berabiz. Fullfilling. Atu baru ia. Walaup pun you put berapa, puas makan puas rasanya and pretty presentation nya.. wala!
I asked rah that guy yang keraja sana, siapa punya restoran? Then he told me and i ask for her number. So i got her number. I wanted to call. Tapi dalam keadaan dissapointed atu i didn't call. I don't want to be emotional to tell her how i felt about the ambuyat. May be that's her taste and cara nya membuat ambuyat. My friend said ada that owner inside the kitchen. I don't know really how to tell her. I am one of the customer jua so i think i have rights to tell her how the food are and services jua , especially ambuyat the fave of all people in Brunei ani jua, taste like and presentation of food necessary jua when you already put the price $20.
Psst... not only me yang dissapointed. Yang membayar lainnya, inda happy. Marong and masam jaling jaling jua. I asked kenapa? Kata diorang sudah tah service lambat, sajok lagi makanan, and INDA NYAMAN. I tell you, words spreads faster than you can imagine. Sebab atu tah, kalau ada berita yang entah apa apa, cepat orang kitani menerima and mengantar tanpa tau banar kah inda. But this, banar banar inda nyaman. Kata my friend nya, nyaman lagi kau buat. Ops.. i am not the greatest cook, but boleh jua nyaman jua. Kanyang jua. And bebaloi jua. Adoi..
I don't know. What do you think? She can take it as a positive critic and make it better or she can just look however she wanted to do and people only go there once. That's it. But i hope, yang membuat ambuyat atu just buat ambuyat the way orang atu suka and not thinking yang lain suka like what. Kan?
I went to AA today lunch, and paid $19 saja for 1 set of ambuyat and 1 kasturi and 1 longan. And nyaman berabiz. Fullfilling. Atu baru ia. Walaup pun you put berapa, puas makan puas rasanya and pretty presentation nya.. wala!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Good NIte.
You must know that there are no answers to your questions. Not all.. Just when you really wanted to know why? What? Wish there are ways to know, but that's not how it works. Writing is my only friend. Where i can say how i feel, i can share how i feel and what i want to let at ease.
It be better to be clear than to make confused and complicated. WEll.. again. When was the last time you got the answers to all your questions? Haha!! I am very sleepy. Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. You can plan but it don't always work but at least you will be equip with plans if it doesn't go through.
What if it horribly went wrong? Well sooner or later it will spill, so what the heck! No fun with no pain and no game. I am so sleepy. This is what happen when you're sleepy and wanting to write. I could write more but its the same as saying and telling someone not to drink and drive. Hahah... so not to be so sleepy and writing. Haha!!!!
I m in a romance mood. But being alone... where is my romance mood going to end? I am heating up here and just don't know what to do. Hahah!!! Imagine it. Good nite!
It be better to be clear than to make confused and complicated. WEll.. again. When was the last time you got the answers to all your questions? Haha!! I am very sleepy. Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow. You can plan but it don't always work but at least you will be equip with plans if it doesn't go through.
What if it horribly went wrong? Well sooner or later it will spill, so what the heck! No fun with no pain and no game. I am so sleepy. This is what happen when you're sleepy and wanting to write. I could write more but its the same as saying and telling someone not to drink and drive. Hahah... so not to be so sleepy and writing. Haha!!!!
I m in a romance mood. But being alone... where is my romance mood going to end? I am heating up here and just don't know what to do. Hahah!!! Imagine it. Good nite!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
365
coming this New Year 2011.. A project. One project not to be miss. That would be 1st January 2011. Truth dare you... Oh so looking forward. Bad Good that's what i got. Its all in.. Fun horrible yes.. that too. Everything whatever ... yes in too. Haha!!!
I am listening to this song now.. Jay Branan 'Beautifully', makes me smile. Just felt like he is singing it for me.. Oh so perasaan. But okay what to be perasaan rather than no perasaan at all. Agree? NOt? Agree lah. Listen to it. Only for girls saja to listen..
365 days.. Only on the 'D' day i will know. I hope i go through the 365 days without any problem, i don't mind struggle to keep it all the way, that's what's its for. Haha.. i am thinking, should it, would it have what i have in my mind with no censor at all.. not that x rated or whatsoever but the truth of 365..
I am listening to this song now.. Jay Branan 'Beautifully', makes me smile. Just felt like he is singing it for me.. Oh so perasaan. But okay what to be perasaan rather than no perasaan at all. Agree? NOt? Agree lah. Listen to it. Only for girls saja to listen..
365 days.. Only on the 'D' day i will know. I hope i go through the 365 days without any problem, i don't mind struggle to keep it all the way, that's what's its for. Haha.. i am thinking, should it, would it have what i have in my mind with no censor at all.. not that x rated or whatsoever but the truth of 365..
What?
i am having Fettuccine with Chilli Tuna and Mushroom Soup for lunch today.Slices of muschrooms added to give the texture. YOu could chopp it if you want to.Caramel pudding for dessert which i prepared last night.
Having a good lunch is like having a good sex. This is something.. a good life is an enemy for a great life. So a good sex is the enemy of a great sex! It was once at the dinner table i heard a lady on that table said, he can have his appetite outside but he eat at home. Haha... her husband was the type who like to chat with woman around him and he is funny too. He flirt infront of her (at least he did it infront of her or perhaps he is who he is) and she doesn't mind really. And when asked, how managed all that? How come you are okay with that? She said that its okay. Men are like that. He can have his appetite outside but eat at home. Wow!! Maybe we woman should do that. But what if its too late??? haha..
You got to be strong to face the reality. that's it. But again why bother with people who treat you like that? You and i don't deserve that. Get busy and do what you love to do and have PEACE in your life. Its okay if there's no fun or love, but PEACE that is something to think about. PEACE AND LOVE it don't work like that. Its either LOVE with dramas etc etc or PEACE. No matter how we wish to have both but again it don't work like that. If LOVE AND PEACE ada, well.. it be Heaven on Earth for me.
You see.. i was only talking about lunch tadi, now to love and peace? Haha.. WEll... eat your lunch.
Having a good lunch is like having a good sex. This is something.. a good life is an enemy for a great life. So a good sex is the enemy of a great sex! It was once at the dinner table i heard a lady on that table said, he can have his appetite outside but he eat at home. Haha... her husband was the type who like to chat with woman around him and he is funny too. He flirt infront of her (at least he did it infront of her or perhaps he is who he is) and she doesn't mind really. And when asked, how managed all that? How come you are okay with that? She said that its okay. Men are like that. He can have his appetite outside but eat at home. Wow!! Maybe we woman should do that. But what if its too late??? haha..
You got to be strong to face the reality. that's it. But again why bother with people who treat you like that? You and i don't deserve that. Get busy and do what you love to do and have PEACE in your life. Its okay if there's no fun or love, but PEACE that is something to think about. PEACE AND LOVE it don't work like that. Its either LOVE with dramas etc etc or PEACE. No matter how we wish to have both but again it don't work like that. If LOVE AND PEACE ada, well.. it be Heaven on Earth for me.
You see.. i was only talking about lunch tadi, now to love and peace? Haha.. WEll... eat your lunch.
:)
Talking about loneliness, a friend told me - Don't look love in others, look love in yourself. Within you ... - Yes true. Loneliness could happen in whatever way, feeling lonely that is something. But what cause it? Well... maybe you're looking for love from others.
To kill the loneliness? Well.. love yourself. Think of what you love to do. You're not born lonely, just because of that you said you're lonely. I am actually talking to myself now. But if you feel the same, you feel what i felt, its okay. Mean there are two of us or probably more. What i know, when you're lonely, the world shut down on you. Well... not actually, for the meantime only that's how i feel. Looking for that light to appear but noway. YOu got to go and look for it which means you got to go through what you're into then at the end of the day you will find it.
Ahhh... make yourself busy. Like do something what you love to do before. Oh ... nevermind. I wanted to say something but i forgot. How's that?
A friend told me - Through these experience i have in my life, i will have transformation that i would or could not imagine. But the transformation wouldn't happen if i don't go through this. So that i yet to see. To go with the flow.. not recommended. Do what your hearts says. Not where the flow takes you. It's going to be hard, but its not the end of the world. - Which is true. It's not the end of the world. Think about it ... As i said if you feel the way i felt, then this is probably for you. IT is NOt The End OF The World. The worst thing could happen probably ............ But it's NOT the End Of The World.
Okay, now i am inside a thunderstorm, i wanted to see the rain. But still couldn't because i got to go through this and i don't know how long how far it is for me to see the rain. I know when threre's rain, at the end of it there will be the rainbow and the sun will shine.. That's it. But since i am here still in the thunderstorm, i could not see clear where is the rain.
Do you know why i said i wanted to see the rain? Well its better then in the thunderstorm. So i take it step by step. I should.. because i just want to see the sun and no more. Haha.. i don't even know if you follow what i meant. But hey.. again don't complicate yourself in thinking what i have to say and meant. If you like reading that's good for you.
This is MUST to remember. IF YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR MIND, YOU CANNOT CONTROL YOUR LIFE.
To kill the loneliness? Well.. love yourself. Think of what you love to do. You're not born lonely, just because of that you said you're lonely. I am actually talking to myself now. But if you feel the same, you feel what i felt, its okay. Mean there are two of us or probably more. What i know, when you're lonely, the world shut down on you. Well... not actually, for the meantime only that's how i feel. Looking for that light to appear but noway. YOu got to go and look for it which means you got to go through what you're into then at the end of the day you will find it.
Ahhh... make yourself busy. Like do something what you love to do before. Oh ... nevermind. I wanted to say something but i forgot. How's that?
A friend told me - Through these experience i have in my life, i will have transformation that i would or could not imagine. But the transformation wouldn't happen if i don't go through this. So that i yet to see. To go with the flow.. not recommended. Do what your hearts says. Not where the flow takes you. It's going to be hard, but its not the end of the world. - Which is true. It's not the end of the world. Think about it ... As i said if you feel the way i felt, then this is probably for you. IT is NOt The End OF The World. The worst thing could happen probably ............ But it's NOT the End Of The World.
Okay, now i am inside a thunderstorm, i wanted to see the rain. But still couldn't because i got to go through this and i don't know how long how far it is for me to see the rain. I know when threre's rain, at the end of it there will be the rainbow and the sun will shine.. That's it. But since i am here still in the thunderstorm, i could not see clear where is the rain.
Do you know why i said i wanted to see the rain? Well its better then in the thunderstorm. So i take it step by step. I should.. because i just want to see the sun and no more. Haha.. i don't even know if you follow what i meant. But hey.. again don't complicate yourself in thinking what i have to say and meant. If you like reading that's good for you.
This is MUST to remember. IF YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR MIND, YOU CANNOT CONTROL YOUR LIFE.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Listening to Good Music..
I must say i am relaxing now.. tuning in to Jazz LOVE Songs. I wish all the true love songs sung all for me.. haha! I love to laugh. Some would never see me laugh. I am funny too.. But some would never see me funny. I am water if you are water, i am air if you are air, i am fire if you are fire and i am stone when you are stone. Haha!! again ... Haha!!
I am relaxing i said kan, but some part of my brain is thinking. How can i say i am relaxing 101%? Never? Well... i used to be this and now become this. But why should i tell you that? Why should i even said that? I don't want to actually but i just wanted to write it so i don't have to keep it to myself alone ... inner me, if you know what i mean. Since you're reading this, then only you know. So keep it to yourself too.
The lists of the LOVE SONGS i am listening.. Psst.. when i listened to these songs, wishing there's a romantic person as the songs sound ... Do you know what i mean? Well if you don't, don't complicate yourself in thinking. Haha!! again...
That means songs says it all.. that is how i express myself when i listened to a very beautiful songs... its like a fairytale story. I know probably you giling giling kali by now, but if you understand.. mean you totally understand me. Haha!! again...
OH the songs .. yes
At Last - Malene Mortensen
Close To You - Carol Duboc
Dream A Little Dream Of Me - Tipitina
Let It Be Me - Inger Marie Gundersen
In My Life - Veronica Mortensen
Can't Buy Love - Katrine Madsen
Misty - Donna Tucker
Crazy - Chaka Khan
The Look Of Love - Monique Klemann
Let's Fall In Love - Svante Thuresson & Kat Madsen
Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow - Inger Marie Gundersen
There Will Never Be Another You - Richard Boone
All The Way - Marie Bergman
It Had To Be You - Romeyn Adams Nesbitt
Always On My Mind - Inger Marie Gundersen (now playing) sooothing...
How Deep Is Your Love - Jacqui Naylor
Jazz Love Songs it is. Lovely... I felt my heart is as fragile as these songs.. Just me as a person is so fragile, but hey ... I am me. You're you. So you express your way and i express my way... K.
I am relaxing i said kan, but some part of my brain is thinking. How can i say i am relaxing 101%? Never? Well... i used to be this and now become this. But why should i tell you that? Why should i even said that? I don't want to actually but i just wanted to write it so i don't have to keep it to myself alone ... inner me, if you know what i mean. Since you're reading this, then only you know. So keep it to yourself too.
The lists of the LOVE SONGS i am listening.. Psst.. when i listened to these songs, wishing there's a romantic person as the songs sound ... Do you know what i mean? Well if you don't, don't complicate yourself in thinking. Haha!! again...
That means songs says it all.. that is how i express myself when i listened to a very beautiful songs... its like a fairytale story. I know probably you giling giling kali by now, but if you understand.. mean you totally understand me. Haha!! again...
OH the songs .. yes
At Last - Malene Mortensen
Close To You - Carol Duboc
Dream A Little Dream Of Me - Tipitina
Let It Be Me - Inger Marie Gundersen
In My Life - Veronica Mortensen
Can't Buy Love - Katrine Madsen
Misty - Donna Tucker
Crazy - Chaka Khan
The Look Of Love - Monique Klemann
Let's Fall In Love - Svante Thuresson & Kat Madsen
Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow - Inger Marie Gundersen
There Will Never Be Another You - Richard Boone
All The Way - Marie Bergman
It Had To Be You - Romeyn Adams Nesbitt
Always On My Mind - Inger Marie Gundersen (now playing) sooothing...
How Deep Is Your Love - Jacqui Naylor
Jazz Love Songs it is. Lovely... I felt my heart is as fragile as these songs.. Just me as a person is so fragile, but hey ... I am me. You're you. So you express your way and i express my way... K.
Monday, December 20, 2010
IKLIM
Produced 1998 by Warner Music Malaysia. Guess why i said that? Now, today 20th. December 2010 i bought this cd. One of my aunty kirim when i was in Singapore but of course nada di sana. So i wonder lagu tahun bila? Siap di kasi title lagu lagi. But only today, its been there in the rack of this one shop, waited for that long for my Aunty. Dia lah yang punya. Hak milik nya sekarang but still with me. This is a memory for me.
The story goes like this - I go to this one kedai cd. Asked for the IKLIM cd. She said this is all she got. Okay.. with serious look face lagi tu just to look for one title in that cd. Dissapointed didn't find that title. So i asked again, are you sure that all you have ... like belabih jua i ani. I asked again, em.. may be in one of the compilation cd perhaps? Well ... demanding you know i masa atu. Expecting her to know one of that title in one of the thousands cds dalam kedai cd atu.. Haha..
Inda jua putus asa. Still standing, those girls looked at me and senyum senyum kambing diorang ani bah.. like season jua sudah lagu atu kali nya and what the heck do i want that cd? You know lah.. young girls yang menjaga ani (boh me ah.. cari pasal tu eh. Hahah!) . So i looked at other cds. Just to get lucky hoping to find may be... just may be ... may be.. aith.. just may be... yes that's what i thought lah, but to my surprised, this rack di bawah all the cds got one IKLIM tape. I picked it up and agai looked for that song and YES!!!!!!! ada. But tape?
I told that lady i wanted this song. So i asked again, do you have the cd for this? Majal jua tu.. bangang jua bini bini ani kata nya. You know i was still standing where i was for the past hour. I stood there, and just holding to that tape till the end. I said.. how ah? I want this cd and of course giling giling said the same thing, we don't have that cd.
Okay... i still have the tape in my hand you know, and told her to test a few cds yang lain. I bought Jamal Abdillah's colllection jua. I bought some of the Slow Rock and whatever Rock Kapak etc, of course yang original ya... yes so true. And when she saw me beli atu, then she called her husband in one of their stores. And got one left. OMG!!!! Yes!!! Kan melumpat ganya inda but i managed to stay calm but yes glowing. Hahah!!!!
And i told her to book it for me. Yes definetely i got it. And one saja yang tinggal. The husband told me that di Malaysia pun ask him to send that cd because dorang pun inda tedapat anymore that cd. Imagine? That cd been with him since 1998? Amazing and the price is still the same. Its been RM$44.90 in 1998 and it is still now 2010. When you really want it, well... that doesn't matter. Its worth it.
I told my aunty about it. She said how did you get the cd? I told her the story and she was so surprised. This is what she said to me .. Masya-Allah. Thank you for cari ing and dapat ting for me. - I smile and feel so good that i didn't give up. I could just easily give up when that lady said that they don't want have it. I don't know why i wanted to looked for it so bad, but i know that one song in that cd meant a lot to her (my aunty) and i felt its a must for me to get that for her. Where i know places where they sell this type of cds.
I told her that cd was there since 1998 and waited for Umi to rescue. I told her 1998 and she replied "WOW!" ... i smile.
and this is where i stop. I feel so good. I got the IKLIM cd that have the song PERGIMU SATU TANDA. And i make her happy. Not much, but i know she be smiling later when she sleep. I told her i pass the cd to her tomorrow. So .. that's a wrap for me.
Nite nite.
The story goes like this - I go to this one kedai cd. Asked for the IKLIM cd. She said this is all she got. Okay.. with serious look face lagi tu just to look for one title in that cd. Dissapointed didn't find that title. So i asked again, are you sure that all you have ... like belabih jua i ani. I asked again, em.. may be in one of the compilation cd perhaps? Well ... demanding you know i masa atu. Expecting her to know one of that title in one of the thousands cds dalam kedai cd atu.. Haha..
Inda jua putus asa. Still standing, those girls looked at me and senyum senyum kambing diorang ani bah.. like season jua sudah lagu atu kali nya and what the heck do i want that cd? You know lah.. young girls yang menjaga ani (boh me ah.. cari pasal tu eh. Hahah!) . So i looked at other cds. Just to get lucky hoping to find may be... just may be ... may be.. aith.. just may be... yes that's what i thought lah, but to my surprised, this rack di bawah all the cds got one IKLIM tape. I picked it up and agai looked for that song and YES!!!!!!! ada. But tape?
I told that lady i wanted this song. So i asked again, do you have the cd for this? Majal jua tu.. bangang jua bini bini ani kata nya. You know i was still standing where i was for the past hour. I stood there, and just holding to that tape till the end. I said.. how ah? I want this cd and of course giling giling said the same thing, we don't have that cd.
Okay... i still have the tape in my hand you know, and told her to test a few cds yang lain. I bought Jamal Abdillah's colllection jua. I bought some of the Slow Rock and whatever Rock Kapak etc, of course yang original ya... yes so true. And when she saw me beli atu, then she called her husband in one of their stores. And got one left. OMG!!!! Yes!!! Kan melumpat ganya inda but i managed to stay calm but yes glowing. Hahah!!!!
And i told her to book it for me. Yes definetely i got it. And one saja yang tinggal. The husband told me that di Malaysia pun ask him to send that cd because dorang pun inda tedapat anymore that cd. Imagine? That cd been with him since 1998? Amazing and the price is still the same. Its been RM$44.90 in 1998 and it is still now 2010. When you really want it, well... that doesn't matter. Its worth it.
I told my aunty about it. She said how did you get the cd? I told her the story and she was so surprised. This is what she said to me .. Masya-Allah. Thank you for cari ing and dapat ting for me. - I smile and feel so good that i didn't give up. I could just easily give up when that lady said that they don't want have it. I don't know why i wanted to looked for it so bad, but i know that one song in that cd meant a lot to her (my aunty) and i felt its a must for me to get that for her. Where i know places where they sell this type of cds.
I told her that cd was there since 1998 and waited for Umi to rescue. I told her 1998 and she replied "WOW!" ... i smile.
and this is where i stop. I feel so good. I got the IKLIM cd that have the song PERGIMU SATU TANDA. And i make her happy. Not much, but i know she be smiling later when she sleep. I told her i pass the cd to her tomorrow. So .. that's a wrap for me.
Nite nite.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
ADDICTED!
I got to say i am addicted ..... Okay addicted to what? Haha!!! That be another different story if i am addicted to ...... hehe. I love to make you think to what i am addicted to what?. But got to tell you i am also.. see i used also here.. also addicted to COFFEE!!!!
Not just sebarang coffee, but Ice Blended Mocha at CB. I can only drink this type of coffee or otherwise ... I FAINT! Serious. I am serious. ( i remember when i was in Dallas, during my high school years, mom gave me the hazel flavor coffee. Oh i love the smell of it. Wangi the whole house with coffe beans. Just so YUMMY!! but when i drank one mug, ooooooooh got to say, i was paralysed, almost pengsan .. yes did not move and only my eye blink. Hahah.. if i remember that, i laugh. I find it funny now but not then. Hahah.. And if you ask me, i don't know why?)
Yes that was a bit of my story once upon a time ago, and i started to sip one or two Ice Blended Coffee at CB when i come back to Brunei. And hey i can without fainting effect. Haha.. But i took it when my perut kosong, i am done. Pengsan tah jua cerita nya. Haha!
Yes.. everything starts in Brunei. Ambuyat pun i remember first time when i got back from UK. Kata my ngangah ... bari malu orang Melayu inda pandai makan ambuyat. Wow!! Challange .. satu cabaran yang harus di lalui tu for me .. so i remember in Bunut, sat with everybody berurak bah di lantai, tasting my first ambuyat, can you imagine tejuluak jeluak but talan eh, now its one of my FAVE dish. Pandai menumpahi lagi.. hahaha...
So about coffee, it hype me up. I need one everyday. How come? Entah.. it gives me energy. I like it. That's how come. Hahah. Hello.. hello.. i drank jua green tea. I drink 4 to 5 cups everyday and without sugar. What hype you up? heheh.. you know and i don't know. Its okay as long as you're hype and happy with that feeling ah..
Today, i want to share this with you. I must say that guy was kind. Very kind because he lend us his umbrella. He i don't know who, but yet lend me his umbrella. A person just passed by, holding on to his umbrella, and i just said that time siapa ada payong ah? And guess what? Yes.. you guess it right.
One hand handing me out one umbrella. Wow!! Yup Mama and the rest was surprised too.. but then i asked him, is it okay to borrow for a while, and he said.. yes with a smile. Sweet.
You don't see so many people do that. Yes .. he got off from the rain, and got tempat yang teduh, and dengan menghulurkan tangan nya with that umbrella .. kind. I have to say he have a kind heart. Like others, who would care. Wish there are more people like that too.. haha. Superb. Bless him. That is one good thing you could do today without you realizing it. Its automatic. When you have a kind heart, its always forever kind. Alhamdulillah.
You can also smile. You can donate. But make sure you donate to the right people and for good cause. And you could pick up somone in the rain and ask where they want to go and send them or banyak lagi. But when i said pick up, it all depends. Don't pick up selarah larah nya, make sure your instinc is right and its safe, then its okay. But otherwise you don't have to do that but instead, give them umbrella and let them use your umbrella. Besar pahala. Yang baik atu always di balas dengan yang lebih baik. When.. only God knows and never doubt it.
Mmmm... if i said something tadi jua? Woooww.. i couldn't imagine eh. But you know, i am sure you also got that moment, where you say something it happened. Not always but always when you're not expecting it. True? Yes.. good. So be very careful when and what you or me wanted to do and sayl. I remind you and me too lah. It could be doa yang terus di makbulkan or it could be just a word that you say with nothing happen. But again, rugi if it were to be doa yang di kabul kan terus... OH.. i let you think lah.
Any way.. just wanted to share what happen today. Something good. Hope you do something good too. Take care. I am still working .. and i finish at 6pm.
Not just sebarang coffee, but Ice Blended Mocha at CB. I can only drink this type of coffee or otherwise ... I FAINT! Serious. I am serious. ( i remember when i was in Dallas, during my high school years, mom gave me the hazel flavor coffee. Oh i love the smell of it. Wangi the whole house with coffe beans. Just so YUMMY!! but when i drank one mug, ooooooooh got to say, i was paralysed, almost pengsan .. yes did not move and only my eye blink. Hahah.. if i remember that, i laugh. I find it funny now but not then. Hahah.. And if you ask me, i don't know why?)
Yes that was a bit of my story once upon a time ago, and i started to sip one or two Ice Blended Coffee at CB when i come back to Brunei. And hey i can without fainting effect. Haha.. But i took it when my perut kosong, i am done. Pengsan tah jua cerita nya. Haha!
Yes.. everything starts in Brunei. Ambuyat pun i remember first time when i got back from UK. Kata my ngangah ... bari malu orang Melayu inda pandai makan ambuyat. Wow!! Challange .. satu cabaran yang harus di lalui tu for me .. so i remember in Bunut, sat with everybody berurak bah di lantai, tasting my first ambuyat, can you imagine tejuluak jeluak but talan eh, now its one of my FAVE dish. Pandai menumpahi lagi.. hahaha...
So about coffee, it hype me up. I need one everyday. How come? Entah.. it gives me energy. I like it. That's how come. Hahah. Hello.. hello.. i drank jua green tea. I drink 4 to 5 cups everyday and without sugar. What hype you up? heheh.. you know and i don't know. Its okay as long as you're hype and happy with that feeling ah..
Today, i want to share this with you. I must say that guy was kind. Very kind because he lend us his umbrella. He i don't know who, but yet lend me his umbrella. A person just passed by, holding on to his umbrella, and i just said that time siapa ada payong ah? And guess what? Yes.. you guess it right.
One hand handing me out one umbrella. Wow!! Yup Mama and the rest was surprised too.. but then i asked him, is it okay to borrow for a while, and he said.. yes with a smile. Sweet.
You don't see so many people do that. Yes .. he got off from the rain, and got tempat yang teduh, and dengan menghulurkan tangan nya with that umbrella .. kind. I have to say he have a kind heart. Like others, who would care. Wish there are more people like that too.. haha. Superb. Bless him. That is one good thing you could do today without you realizing it. Its automatic. When you have a kind heart, its always forever kind. Alhamdulillah.
You can also smile. You can donate. But make sure you donate to the right people and for good cause. And you could pick up somone in the rain and ask where they want to go and send them or banyak lagi. But when i said pick up, it all depends. Don't pick up selarah larah nya, make sure your instinc is right and its safe, then its okay. But otherwise you don't have to do that but instead, give them umbrella and let them use your umbrella. Besar pahala. Yang baik atu always di balas dengan yang lebih baik. When.. only God knows and never doubt it.
Mmmm... if i said something tadi jua? Woooww.. i couldn't imagine eh. But you know, i am sure you also got that moment, where you say something it happened. Not always but always when you're not expecting it. True? Yes.. good. So be very careful when and what you or me wanted to do and sayl. I remind you and me too lah. It could be doa yang terus di makbulkan or it could be just a word that you say with nothing happen. But again, rugi if it were to be doa yang di kabul kan terus... OH.. i let you think lah.
Any way.. just wanted to share what happen today. Something good. Hope you do something good too. Take care. I am still working .. and i finish at 6pm.
1432 Hijrah ...
Selamat menyambut tahun baru Hijrah 1432. Semoga di panjangkan umor dengan kesihatan yang di harapkan sihat walafiat, di kuatkan mental dan physical, di kuat kan Iman, di perluaskan rezeki dan semua usaha di berkati dan di beri rahmat dan doa doa di maqbul kan. Semoga segala amal bakti di terima dan di redai oleh Allah. Mudah mudahan kita bertambah semangat baru dalam menempuhi kehidupan ini.. Amin.. Amin.. Amin..
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
NOTHING IS .. IMPOSSIBLE!
Make today the most important days in your life! No Worthy Goal is Impossible. Open your mind.
Who Knows?
I hate what I dream today. Why I hate? I just hate being lost. First, woke up in this room.. a suite. Beautiful room, but don’t know where and what I was doing there. One blink, I was in another place. I just don't know the purpose? I tried to call and even look for familiar faces, but no.. nope.. i was totally nowhere. That.. i don't like. I realized I lost my phone. Yes my HP. And the next thing, one blink again, i was telling those people i don't know that i lost my phone. And one guy pity me.. Hah! I was totally lost. I hate being lost especially in my dream, and don’t know what’s happening. Okay? So .. I hate my dream today.
Second story… I just have to leave when things get rough. Rough in arguing. When you just know it will not stop and by being there makes it worst. My remedy would be just to leave that place. No matter where you are. I did. I leave. I just have to get out from there or I will mentally be sick. Sick cum gila. Scarry eh.
Third story .. I never sit at the sofa just outside the ladies room. Not liking the germs our from that room. But today, I sat there. Sat there thinking. What? What should I do? Hot outside, crazy I must say. My nose numb I can’t smell anyting. I felt cold. So cold that my heart become cold. Drama? Drama when you’re hungry. Never.. never .. never.. I opened my book, and read this chapter introduction The Miracle of Think and Grow Rich. It said – There Are Miracles In Having A Major Purpose In Life where you alone can direct your thoughts, control your emotions and ordain your destiny. Well… yes.
I would prefer to avoid it rather than being mentally rape... hahha!! Mentally rape with those unpredictable situation and uncontrollable thinking whatever! Just remember, you can control your Emotions.. remember. Yes!
Second story… I just have to leave when things get rough. Rough in arguing. When you just know it will not stop and by being there makes it worst. My remedy would be just to leave that place. No matter where you are. I did. I leave. I just have to get out from there or I will mentally be sick. Sick cum gila. Scarry eh.
Third story .. I never sit at the sofa just outside the ladies room. Not liking the germs our from that room. But today, I sat there. Sat there thinking. What? What should I do? Hot outside, crazy I must say. My nose numb I can’t smell anyting. I felt cold. So cold that my heart become cold. Drama? Drama when you’re hungry. Never.. never .. never.. I opened my book, and read this chapter introduction The Miracle of Think and Grow Rich. It said – There Are Miracles In Having A Major Purpose In Life where you alone can direct your thoughts, control your emotions and ordain your destiny. Well… yes.
I would prefer to avoid it rather than being mentally rape... hahha!! Mentally rape with those unpredictable situation and uncontrollable thinking whatever! Just remember, you can control your Emotions.. remember. Yes!
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