BOHONG - SYAHRINI

VERY nice song eh.. i drove this morning to work and i was thinking bah... apa kan tu ah.. yea lah like this lagu ani. em.. its like okay.. you actually love this person BUT apa yang you lalui selama ani dengan KEBOHONGAN atu bah... you perasaan saja him/her for you... tapi actually ia BOHONG bah...

Tapi nya.. cakap inda mau lagi bersama nya.. memang pun.. Bila di pikir pikir kan, everybody got own attitude. But this one got AN ATTITUDE.. Where is the LOVE atu.. LOVE build by foundation kepercayaan kan.. So bila KEPERCAYAAn sudah tiada, how.. WHAT LOVE BECOME??

atu yang buat me marah sometime.. Marah because i don't understand. Inda percaya but again its reality.. CONFUSED.. I tell you i think in a relationship ani kan best untuk berterus terang.. baik pulang . .. May be ada yang dapat menerima may be some inda dapat menerima.. Tapi cua you pikirkan lagi.. apa sebenar nya yang you dapat menerima atu.. and apa sebenarnya yang you inda dapat terima atu..

Immune dah.. like darah di tubuh badan. Kalau nada darah mati karing eh.. but kalau ada hidup eh.. so kalau you figure it out. Its hard for me too.. I see all my friends getting married. Senang dapat JODOH.. but then sama ada long lasting kah inda.

Yang cali.. well not so cali lah when you are like tumble down with love ani.. CALI lah when you look back dengan attitude you masa toh.. but it will heal lah. no worries. Anyway..

orang belum kawin kan kawin.. orang kawin nak kawin lagi.. dah lah berbini sampai empat pun tak cukup lagi.. nak kawin juga bila orang kawin.. bila date 888 semua nak kawin.. pebaik tia bebini kawin jua.. inda mau ketinggalan.. dah quota empat kena tolak satu sebab nak kawin lagi.. nasib quota empat saja di beri, tu pun kalau ikut sunnah Nabi... tolak satu demi satu.. kawin tak berhenti anak dah menimbun.. tak larat bila dah tua nanti.. kawin kawin kawin.. sampai lupa anak sendiri... APA NAK DI KATA..

Masa muda enjoy kawin inda beranti.. walau inda mampu. Biar bini memberi makan. Satu lagi, bini ani mau jua kawin kalau tau sudah orang atu kawin.. dua tiga..empat.. yang memberi makan bini kedua.. kadang bini pertama.. or ke tiga or ke empat.. tapi mau jua.. sudah beranak banyak, inda larat lagi kan memberi makan.. complain.. all inda nampak kan..

Bukan sikit toh.. melarat eh. mula confused about WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LOVE then now jadi orang kawin inda beranti.. huhu.. Tapi banar eh, when i drive tadi, terpikir bah. Apa yang di maukan kalau sudah rasa kasih atu hilang. bukan jua peduli cara worried di mana orang yang tersayang atu.. because melayan yang satu lagi terlupa dengan keperluan kasih sayang yang sorang ani.. masa ani happy eh yang sorang atu.. kena layan. Apa inda happy, aku pun happy toh.. cua tebalik kan.. inda ia happy toh.. Well biar tia sampai ke akhir nya...

I am happy jua for myself, may be something i did dulu dulu is the balasan now.. which is good. Ringan sikit kalau kan di bawa MATI but again sakit eh... tapi sakit lagi kalau di bawa semua dalam KUBUR.. kan..kan...

We all have our own skeleton in our closet..(melayunya tulang di dalam almari)..he.he.. and only you know it saja... i do .. and i know it saja.. Sometime i cry jua.. but then again if not that i woun't learn. I wish wish wish.. menitik air mata me.. but then i wish i wish i wish... What i learn i can and will share with remaja belia to be a GREAT PEOPLE... that is the only way to want i wish for.. if what i share with remaja belia makes them who they are now.. i am proud at least from that pengalaman i have i got to see them become GREAT PEOPLE.. and biar pun i got to lalui nya.. then from that they don't have to go through what i have been through.. and learn what's new. Again life is life.. Reality check everybody eventually go through pengalaman manis and pahit nya untuk mejadi matang..

Sometimes you want to have a life yang sempurna.. but sometimes inda dapat you know. Kalau inda sempurna with DOSA saja buat apa kan.. only you yourself know what you want because you always think of MATI every saat every minute.. you takut kan... I DO.. takut ku kan mati.. MATI inda memberitahu.. enjoy sana enjoy sini mana mana like as though rasa inda sama macam orang.. no lah.. no.. i you we sama like orang.. selagi ada nadi.. bila bila masa nyawa di cabut.. bukan negative but you know this is what i think all the time.. just takut saja.. siapa inda... MATI INDA BERITAU bila kita mati.. kalau MATI kita tau bila.. abis kucar-kacir manusia ketakutan.. apa tah lagi bila tau mati nya cana.. like mengerikan jua tu.. YA ALLAH..

I want life yang sempurna.. i want life yang bererti.. hidup sorang sorang ani LONELY.. i need belaian.. i need all that.. LONELY membunuh ku.. i need someone to talk to.. someone to laugh with and someone to hold on to in times of good and bad.. i need kesempurnaan dalan hidup ani.. inda siok hidup sendirian lagi...

My friend well.. from far far away land.. getting married soon sometime in 2009.. wah in my heart i wish i am the one. May be ada reason jua alum married ani kan.. kan nya kalau all the way gelap thunder bekilat tamparik pun akhir nya you will see the sun shining kan.. the beautiful day i wait for... ps. ada lah orang atu kan told me.. (you know who) me ani alum ready kan kawin. I really don't understand what it meant.. seriously.. okay me not ready kan kawin, bila tah? oh well.. for me JUST ALASAN untuk nya but di katakan untuk me... kalau hidup di penuhi dengan DOSA daripada PAHALA ... what is HIDUP??