FRUSTRATED

Its nice to know when you have friends. Tapi its hurting jua when you have a friend yang not appreciating you. Its okay plang. Menyakitkan sampai bila jua orang kan tahan. I have many friends and some are well and some are not well. But jangan tah ambil hati. You're treated special jua. I have my way on treating my friends. All fair. Ganya inda ku pernah bercerita apa apa mengenai myself to my friends. What i have been through. Bersyukur tah bila i can spare time for you.


Ada sebab sebab nya kenapa like that. Capability masing masing that's where i see all. Tapi kalau sudah ganya kan menerima text dengan perkataan yang menyakitkan, well.. really baik tah jangan. Sakit hati ku membaca text. Yet kemarin i did a lot of things. Inda payah tah ku kan ceritakan. Its my life and i do whatever i want.


Awal pagi ku bangun menghantar anak ku sekolah, ke RIPAS sekajap melawat nini. Balik ke rumah masak untuk my huby and my anak kan balik tengahari. Ambil anak ku balik sekolah. Sampai rumah, menyediakan makanan bisdiorang. Lepas atu menghantar anak ku sekolah Ugama. Then balik lagi jumpa laki ku. Lepas atu, mengemas rumah. And then berehat sekajap. Tidor kah ku, apa kah ku.. inda ku kan lakat dengan talipon di tangan bila ku berehat. Petang menghantar my amah rumah nenek and my anak there already. Ada sembahyang hajat di rumah. Lepas atu takut ku jam di bandar, terpaksa ku awal ke Bandar. Park my car, and ke RTB ready to work. Lepas atu laki ku mengambil sekajap membawa makan. Atu pun gagas. Ia pun ada acara. So i work sampai pukul 12 pagi. Balik rumah, itu ini, baru kan tidor pukul 2pagi. Bangun pukul 6pagi. Menghantar anak ku lagi tadi pagi sekolah. Balilk ke rumah kan pengsan rasanya. Ada lah text ku terima, ada yang okay ada yang menyakitkan. Inda ku kan bercerita setapak ke mana ku pigi, bukan masa ku FREE selalu. Ada ku luang kan masa ku jua. Bila ada masa ku, ku luangkan sepenuhnya. Ku dulur jua. Tapi kalau sudah kawan sendiri inda meliat and appreciate, well its a waste. Wasted saja.


I have friends. Lots of friends. We jumpa lain hari sebab i know everybodys' busy. With own life. Bukan kitani umor 5 tahun, umor 13 tahun, yang kan bemain saja. Tapi inda pernah ku menyangka apa apa yang buruk about my friends. Ada ku mendengar cerita my friends jalan jalan with other friends nya jua, tapi inda jua ku jauh hati tetext text memberitahu ani lah ini lah.. apa lah!! Ya Allah, apa ku buat salah saja di mata nya ani kan?? Inda baik aku ani, jangan bekawan sama aku. Kalau aku baik, bekawan tah. Sampai mati pun boleh bekawan.


Don't tell me who i can be with and who i can't be with. I am who i am. If you can accept me who i am, thank you, tapi if you can't, if you feel banyak kekurang ku sebagai kawan, inda you suka, you mau kawan you ikut cakap you, well... that's a bad news. Don't give a friendship's name a bad name.


I am very upset. This happen again. Be yourself lah. I accept you as my friends in whatever state you are in. That's friend. I would not comment about your life, atau i will not say anything i feel i shouldn't and i will not allow myself to text my friends to make them mad. I am me!!