TWO THREE FOUR

Oh well.... two three four LOVE????

That got to be LUST!

DO YOU KNOW WHY ?

Just to share.. a man told me he is inlove with three. And i said what? you mean three.. okay.

this man is one of my friend. And i asked.. why three?

he answered :

i love her dearly (1st one) but cant be with her???

i love her so much and i wanted to be with her.. (2nd one)

and he told the second one, i love her (3rd one) but i couldnt be with her..

but we are inlove...

I smile.. haha in my hati. I ask him.. How does the second love feel when he told her that he and the her (3rd one) inlove but could not be together?

being with the 2nd one, i wonder.. would she be confortable in whatever she do with him knowing that he is inlove with somebody else...?

woman... what do you thing? whos is stupid here?

Saybalak Albi

i just open a new blog. New life new story.. http://saybalakalbi.blogspot.com/

Do you know what Saybalak Albi means?

A NEW BOOK FOR ME..

I have decided to close my book of the chapter that have never ending stories. And now i am opening a new book of my life. A new life with someone i love. I am a trouble maker but i can't change the past but i know i can do something for my future. And i am seeing it bright. I have been wanting to have love, peace and harmony in everything.. now i am going to start a new life and a new episode. Its not easy but from the experience, well insyallah will be better.

Okay... A new chapter begin... Let it begin from this saat onward and i am smiling now.. I know that doesnt mean there would be no trouble or problem, or whatever.. i am ready and this is it... I hope you do the same if you feel like it too... Its not easy.. but i am ready!!!!

Cerita pasal Harimau, Buaya, Tikus dan Lebah dalam kehidupan seharian...

Adalah seorang hamba Allah ni, dia pergilah bersiar-siar di tepi hutan.Sedang dia menghirup udara rimba yg segar tu, tetiba dia terdengar satu bunyi.. jeng!jeng!jeng! .. bunyi...... aauuummmmm!! !

Bunyi harimau yg kelaparan dan hanya menunggu mangsanya saja. Jadi, si hamba Allah ni pun lari untuk menyelamatkan diri. Harimau tu kejar hamba Allah ni. Sebab dia dah lapar sangat ni. Harimau tu pun kejar, kejar, kejar dan kejar. Hamba Allah ni punyalah takut, berlari lintang pukang. Sempat juga dia berdoa agar dia diselamatkan daripada dibaham dek harimau tadi.

Dengan kuasa Allah diperlihatkan sebuah perigi di depan mata nya. Jadiuntuk menyelamatkan diri si hamba Allah ni pun terjunlah ke dalamperigi.Perigi tu ada tali dan sebuah timba. Si hamba Allah ni bergayut padatali tu. Tali tu pendek jer. Jadi dia bergantungan di tengah-tengah perigi.Di mulut perigi, harimau yg lapar tu menunggunya. Si hamba Allah ni punberfikirlah macam mana nak menyelamatkan diri, sambil berdoa kepadaAllah agar dia diselamatkan.

Tengah dok berfikir camner nak selamat, tetiba dengar bunyi kocakan air di bawah perigi.Aaaaa!!!!... Ya Allah..... lagilah seram dibuatnya. Nak tahu ada apa katbawah tu? Ada 2 ekor buaya yg kelaparan. Apalah nasib. Dah jatuh ditimpa tangga. lagilah takut si hamba Allah ni. Atas ada harimau bawah ada buaya. Semakin risau dan takut.

Tengah berfikir untuk mencari jalan keluar, tetiba keluar seekor tikus putih dari lubang celah-celah perigi, naik ke atas ikut tali yg hamba Allah tu bergayut. Sampai kat atas tikus tu gigit tali tu pulak. Cis, kurang ajar punya tikus.

Alahhhh... cam ner ni. Pas tu, keluar lagi seekor tikus yg berwarna hitam. Naik mengikut tali tadi, cit!cit!cit!cit! sampai kat atas.Tikus hitam ni pun gigit juga tali tu. Cis,lagi satu. Macam mana aku nak buat ni... habislah jadi mangsa buaya.

Berfikir lagi. Kalau naik kat atas makan dek harimau. Kalau tunggu taliputus dan jatuh ke bawah makan dek buaya. Macam mana nih... Sedang hambaAllah tu berfikir cam ner nak selamatkan dirinya, tetiba.... terdengarsatu bunyi.... uuuuuuuuuuuuu. ..

Bunyi lebah bawa madu.Si hamba Allah ni pun mendongak ke langit, melihat lebah yg sedang bawamadu. Tetiba setitik madu terjatuh dan terus masuk ke dalam mulut sihamba Allah ni tadi. Punyalah nikmat sehingga tidak terkata.Hamba Allah tu kata, 'Fuh manisnya madu ni , tak pernah ku rasa manisnya ni.

Sedapnya. Subhanallah sungguh sedap ni.' kerana setitik madu sihamba Allah tu lupa pada harimau yg sedang menantinya di mulut perigi danbuaya yg menantinya di bawah.

Kalau semua nak tahu ...si Hamba Allah itu adalah kita semua. Harimau yg mengejar tu adalah mautkita, ajal memang sentiasa mengejar kita, so beringat-ingatlah. 2 ekorbuaya itu adalah malaikat Munkar Dan Nakir yg menanti kita di alam kubur nanti.Tali yg tempat di hamba bergayut tadi adalah jangka hayat kita kalaupendek talinya maka panjanglah umur kita dan kalau panjang talinya maka pendeklah umur kita.Tikus Putih dan Hitam tu adalah dunia kita siang dan juga malam yangsentiasa menghakis umur kita. Kan tikus tu gigit tali tu.Madu... madu yg jatuh setitik ke dalam mulut hamba itu tadi adalah, nikmat dunia. Bayangkan setitik saja madu tu jatuh ke dalam mulutnya, dia lupapada harimau dan buaya tu.. Macam kitalah bila dapat nikmat sikit lupa pada Allah. Waktu susah baru la nak ingat Allah. Astaghfirullah. ..

1 minit untuk mengingati Allah

*SUBHANA'LLAH *ALHAMDULI'LLAH *LA I LAHA ILLA'LLAH *ALLAHU AKBAR *ASTAGHFIRU' LLAH *LA ILAH ILLA'LLAH, MUHAMMADUN RASULU'LLAH*ALLAHUMMA SALLY WA SALLEM WABAREK ALA SAYYEDINA MUHAMMAD *WA AALIHE WA SAHBIH AJMA'EEN

Duduklah sambil merenungi betapa kekuasaan Allah dalam kehidupan kita seharian kerana melakukan segala yang di redhoiNya Bersamalah kita berdoa agar sentiasa di nikmat kesejahteraan dan kelapangan akal danfikiran dalam kita menjalani kehidupan seharian dalam apa jua yang kita.

MY SMILE THIS MORNING..

"i was look at the mirror, at my right hand is tooth brush, my left hand is a toothpaste, buka sudah. In my mind i want to wash my face and then i press it.. i squeeze the toothpaste sebesar kacang.. i look at the mirror.. with the confidentnya i apply to my face.. i look at the mirror. By the time .. i was thinking why is feel sticky.. why is look greenish.. AAahahhhh... i m shout i apply toothpaste on my FACE!!!!!! What a Waste!!!! and i can't imagine if i apply all over my face.. haha " she laugh berabiz!!!!

Me? haha.. while typing smile wide. Can you imagine. You can only read here but with her expreassion that's hillarious!!! I am laughing out loud silently....... Just imagine my morning here with a SMILE.

FOR YOU..

Time doesn't wait if you think you found the right one..
Treasure the person, Don't let that person get away..
Dont let fear hold you back..
Give it a try or else you might regret it later..

"No one other than ourselves know what can truly makes us happy."

Good Nite..

xoxo

What i am gonna tell you....
and you can really hear me
all the years .... that will come ...
you will always be in them ...
even if it takes long...
i will wait for you....

SAYBALAK ALBI by Brigitte Yaghi

"I'm leaving my Heart" that's what it meant.. beautiful. I will not forget this song. Beautiful meaning too.. I asked my my good close friend somewhere in the world to translate it for me.. and i must keep this one. It meant a lot to me..

Yallah (saying with the will of God) - i leave my heart and my mind with you....
I will live for you and die with you... Yallah.....

thank you.. xoxo

SEMANGAT..

Bukan nya dapat di ajarkan. Di tularkan.. Haha. Bukan nya senang tu. I woke up this morning open my Dream Book. Okay lah busy now. Tapi in the next 5 years i am sure i will have all the time. Looking at the 5 years atu sebenarnya for me is not far. Its like entah kelip mata saja and now berlalu. The same like last time.. that was way in 2003. Imagine. Now 2009... how many years berlalu.. And i am still i am and no change yet..

You.. you look at yourself. 2003 until now.. ada difference nya? yeah may be weight gain.. yeah maybe makin cantik.. yeah makin handsome.. but sampai bila ya.. So any major changes? Well yang lucky atu ... yeah lucky. But are you happy? All mesti ada yang inda ngam walau apa pun.. So ... what do you think? Do you want it to be the way it is now to forever? .....

Me? NOp jawapanya. Hard but willing to go through it because untuk kepuasan hidup. Hidup for what? Just doing what you are doing saja? Well... there are more to it. Bukan tamak.. but you deserve to do more... And have a Great LIFE akhirnya.

I don't want to be the same like now.. I want extraordinary life. Great life. What is a Great life yang zura cakapkan ani kan? Wah... if you could imagine.. all bah. Can you imagine all .... Not really yah. Yes i would understand.

Oh i am listening to Bisnes ini Fun! Talk a bit about the pension you get. Itu pun if you got pension. But if nda.. well think about it. Do you want to live less? Or better than you have now? Why aren't you doing anything about it?

I know in whatever level you are.. deep down you're still looking for options in life on how to have a great life. From you not expecting from other in your family members. From you untuk kepuasan. Baru puas hidup. All ya in Dunia and Akhirat jua. Sumber hidup negative from everywhere.. but if you have a goal untuk menghindari all you can. So if you're looking for option .. open your heart and really open deep ke dalam naluri.. and ready for everything.

I don't know too how i get to be like this. But my mind will not accept to imagine living less than i have now in the future. Jadi kusut.. bingung.. stress... but ada solusi nya jua. So that's why i am okay jua. If only masalah saja kan di layan ..WAh!! boleh giler or meletup and gone terus. For you yang responsible memberi makan untuk di rumah.. sounds no good ya. Imagine tia.. But if you layan masalah with solusi.. Insyallah you can SMILE anytime of the day everday until ke sudah because you know how to handle it wisely and people would think that you never have problems... haha that's what my frens said to me.. like HAPPY GO LUCKY????

Ah.. is there really HAPPY GO LUCKY? not in my dictionary. Just not allowing negative thoughts in my Dictionary of my LIFE... that's all. Everything we do is ALL FUN if we make it FUN.. Make it fast and consistant.. and face THE PROBLEMS as PROBLEMS that can be solve.. When you're down you feel the HORROR.. but hey.. wake up.. it okay to feel HORROR..haha... and laugh it out WHAT??? is that HORROR??? hahha....

Happy Working!!

You're Not Alone!

i am listening to MJ - you're not alone... Memberikan ku semangat. Dalam kesakitan bukan aku sorang saja yang mengharunginya.. 95% yang kita lakukan akan gagal.. So why wait untuk gagal hadir dalam hidup? Lawan saja terus untuk hidup yang di harapkan degan usaha yang gigih dan tidak kenal erti kalah or putus asa.. Ingat bila kita kalah ada yang ketawa.. sebab atu yang suka di lihat rather than kemenangan... So lawan dengan hati yang cekal kuat dan teruskan saja... Setiap kali berkata dalam hati..

I miss everything.. i have to delay everything. Sometimes kan meliat wayang, kan enjoy sama kawan pun paksa di tangguhkan.. Kadang sesuatu perkara lebih baik di diam kan daripada di heboh kan. Inda yang kenal and tau apa isi nya bagi orang di sekeliling. Sendiri saja menangong and sendiri yang menyelesaikan... Cari solusi nya...

I am looking forward for my holiday in Jakarta this weekend. I am looking for something and i hope and wish to Allah i will find something. Amin..Amin..Amin...

Ps. How about you? How's your plan this weekend? looking good?

TOUGH IS THE WORD..

When you have a GOAL for that day and you're just at home.. IT HURTS!!

PSYCHO you..

Just can't get over it hah!!! Normalize yourself. I guess low self esteem is your problem. Poor thing.. Anyway you're beautiful outside and inside you are like HELL... Oh well.. you know who you are.. pity..just pity on you... May Allah bless you and gives you strength to face the world and hope the BITTERNESS you have in your heart will be erased FOREVER... I also DOA for you .. though i don't know you well.. your heart is so bitter on me.. that i forgive you.. its how you feel towards me beyond your control, and i know how you feel....

YOU NEED TO KNOW..

Salah sebuah katil di dalam bilik ICU sebuah hospital ternama kerap mengalami kejadian pelik. Setiap pesakit yang ditempatkan disitu pasti akan meninggal pada setiap hari Jumaat pagi tanpa mengira umur, jantina atau tahap kesihatan mereka. Perkara ini sangat membingungkan para doktor... Lalu para doktor memutuskan untuk memantau katil tersebut...mungkin makhluk halus ada menetap disitu. Apabila tiba hari Jumaat yang berikutnya... beberapa org doktor bersiap sedia untuk mengenalpasti penyebab kepada kematian di katil tersebut yang mana pada ketika seorang pesakit lelaki muda sedang tidur... Beberapa doktor memegang Yassin dan Quran sebagai persiapan menghalau makhluk halus..Masa berputar... pukul 08:00am.. 08:30am sehingga jam 9.00 am...tiba-tiba......



Pintu bilik ICU itu terbuka.... Kemudian masuklah Makcik Timah Seorang pekerja sambilan sebagai pencuci yang hanya bertugas setiap hari jumaat..Makcik Timah masuk... mendekati katil keramat tersebut... dan terus.............................mencabut....soket elektrik untuk alat pernafasan bantuan agar dapat menghidupkan.. vacuum cleanernya....

IT TOUCHED AND SCREAM

4.50am.. today i woke up screaming loud. And i tell you it touched me and i scratched it and it scream!!! It freak me out and my temperature raised to the max i woke up and never sleep.. Gila eh. I know why and just so real this time..

I felt the cold ugly textured hand .. long.. i know i didnt want to toleh and see what and i felt the thick hair on my arm and just so cold!! My heart is beating now as i type ani.. and i put my hand ontop of its hand and scartched deep and it scream!!!

I could not voice out as i felt it shut my mulut ani bah.. but i ...i...iii just coba saja until i tebangun and out loud BISMILLAH... YA ALLAH .. its so real...

I AM SMILING NOW..

On the way to work tadi, i just remembered something. Something really important that i should wear. And i totally forgot!! darn it.. I never forgot this one unless i purposely saja do it.. but i totally forgot about it.. My oh my... this is bad.. but nobody know what it is... only me saja.. hahahaha.. dat makes me SMILE.. and i will remember this.. :

I FORGOT TO .... MY ... !!

WHAT ABOUT LOVE?

I will be working tonight and thinking of what topic i can share ABOUT LOVE..

LOVE IS...

SO TRUE..

KALAU NAK SERIBU DAYA

TAK NAK SERIBU DALIH

AL FATIHAH

AL FATIHAH

HAJI AMER HAIRUNUDDIN PEHIN DATO ZAKARIA

Semoga Allah memberikan keampunkan

dan rohnya di cucuri rahmat..

Amin.. Amin.. Amin..

I AM THINKING ABOUT IT...

Today i decide to write again.. and i do miss blogging. I tahan and i try to tahan, but i cannot tahan. Now it seems like .... well i want to have a fun blog. Not stressful one.. haha.. but of course ada lah yang terselit toh.. the stress bit atu. haha...

I am sleepless tonite.. biasa lah. Bila badan tired catu lah. But i have fun for the past few months.. wah macam lama lak i didnt write. True lah what my fren say, inda me tahan not blogging. Apa nya kalau orang bercinta.. like nadi nya... So that's how i felt. I start today ya...

As i go along in life ani, i met a lot of people. All different variety kali ah.. And you know what? I tanya myself, does these people have another option in their life if anything happen to them? Not that i want anything to happen to them, but this is life. You want a lot to choose when you go shopping.. when you go see movie... when you want to marry someone kan... What about us? In this world we lived in, its like a game.. if you can see it good, but if not.. then not sure good or not.. but sooner or later you got to see it jua... (eh... eeee.... nda me pandai explain eh.. )

So, this world, us... and the game.. Gambling jua toh.. if you dont have option then mana you going to go? You get it or not? Imagine, after all those time you spend your time and life on your work, and now sudah 40 or 50 years over you worked, pencen.. and then what? To start a new bisnes? Are you experience? Well, not really... again the question "DO YOU HAVE THE OPTION? AFTER? DO YOU HAVE OPTION?"... Pssst... cuma put your ego in your pocket dulu for few years .. atu saja..

If your lifestyle like this, do you want to live less? If you lifestyle less, do you want to live more less like worst? .. Ask yourself.. me takut eh. Takut to see to live less than what i have now... Not a good night sleep every single minute... saat even. Of course got to live and live fun.. So not to stress yourself work and be with frens and family who really care for you... Naaaah... alum lagi habis nie.. a lot more sebenarnya...

I always think of the good life.. the great life ahead of me. Of course ani masa hidup saja.. but still we have to live the best from this great life.. The after life, different story. That each of us need to prepare it ourself. Nada orang kan prepare it for us. That we have to remember jua. Stay humble whoever you become... We are only human and at the end we die and we will still going there jua..... young and old.. grow old gracefully and then gone...

Anyway.. sambong lagi esok. I am SLEEPLESS...