Before i close my eyes tonight, i would like to share the moment i have today with my friend. One of my friend, been friend since what.. 90's. early surely. And just today after work and zoom to mall. Met her there and we spend time a bit.. haha a bit!
One booth i went and i spend about two hours bah, and got what i wanted. Its not easy when you want something and that something is hard to get. So then we were laughing, and giggling. I said to my friend ani like we never shop before. Au banar. But it was cool to do that once in a while.
After that, we went took dinner. We had Mushroom Pizza (new! in the menu) and i had plain hot water and cheese stick, with desert Coit Tower. My Friend shared pizza with me and actually she wanted to drink Teh Tarik. Tapi sayangnya nada. Oh well..
So makan, and cerita-cerita. I called her Anih. I got so many Anih in my friends list. So bercerita lah. We know each other WOW! since we wer single, married, and complicated and divorced and now engaged. Haha.. So we are the unfortunate one that we do have someone in our lives but never seem to exists. Haha.. ketawa jua kami.
But yes seriously, we have someone but that our someone never around. How's that? Like invisible. haha.. So i pun share some of my stories with her. I told her about my friends jua. I got a real good friend and known her since i started work with Pelangi. I told her about my friend ani pun namanya sama jua. So my friend ani Anih, i am Anih jua and my friend satu Anih jua. Confused you ? Nah.. you will get over it nanti and get used to it nanti tu.
So I told her about Anih. She was touched by my stories. A good one of course. About semangat in life. And i told her about my other friend jua. A lot of stories lah i share. And she herself pun seems to know from the FB.. and banyak lagi.
I told her, its nice to have friends yang like us.. Haha. Like we are friends but have own privacy. Not bossy and alway look after each other. Though nda nampak, but we do look out for each other. That's what friends are for. The way we were before, wow.. malas kan cakap. Tapi though our lives like that, we find it very interesting. We got to learn awal lagi than maybe some of you about life.
Haha.. yang paling cali, one thing we have in common, masih jua di kepala ah. But that's between me and her. Yeah!! Oh well.. kalau dulu bejalan-jalan single, sekarang ada anak, anak-anak yang kan di peduli jua.. So dulu bejalan-jalan single, sekarang bejalan-jalan ramai sih.
Kecian eh my friend kan minum Teh Tarik tadi tapi nada. Tais liur nya lain tu. Kalau me inda me tahan jua tu. Neh, baik tah minum Teh Tarik, jangan sampai kempunan. Pun sia sia.. jauh kan dari balah.
From 6.45pm to 10.05 at the mall, puas banar. But that was one of the moment i must tressure. Once in a while jua, haha jadi peaibunan setahun sekali. Maklum lah, bilang orang bekeraja cari makan, so bila ada off tah ganya belaku. So atu pun bila inda bejanji. Kalau bejanji susah tu. Inda pandai jadi. Banar inda?
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
BREAKFAST!!
Benefits of a Healthy Morning Meal
Breakfast really is the most important meal of the day -- it gives you energy to start the day and is linked to many health benefits. Studies show that eating a healthy breakfast can help give you a nutritionally complete diet, higher in nutrients, vitamins, and minerals; better weight control; improved concentration and performance in the classroom or the boardroom; more strength and energy to engage in physical activity; and lower cholesterol levels.
Bottom Line on Breakfast
If you find yourself at a fast-food chain in the morning, always opt for the healthiest breakfast options, or eat a smaller portion and save the other half. You can eat out healthfully, but nothing compares to the numerous breakfast options at home, from an egg and whole-wheat toast to a whole-grain breakfast parfait with fruit and yogurt. Short on time? Pack it the night before and take it along with you.
PS. i have a pice of bread. Toasted and slice in the middle and fill up with Spicy Tuna. Yummy.. Had Milk. Had Water. And my GreenTea.
Breakfast really is the most important meal of the day -- it gives you energy to start the day and is linked to many health benefits. Studies show that eating a healthy breakfast can help give you a nutritionally complete diet, higher in nutrients, vitamins, and minerals; better weight control; improved concentration and performance in the classroom or the boardroom; more strength and energy to engage in physical activity; and lower cholesterol levels.
Bottom Line on Breakfast
If you find yourself at a fast-food chain in the morning, always opt for the healthiest breakfast options, or eat a smaller portion and save the other half. You can eat out healthfully, but nothing compares to the numerous breakfast options at home, from an egg and whole-wheat toast to a whole-grain breakfast parfait with fruit and yogurt. Short on time? Pack it the night before and take it along with you.
PS. i have a pice of bread. Toasted and slice in the middle and fill up with Spicy Tuna. Yummy.. Had Milk. Had Water. And my GreenTea.
How About You?
What was YOUr BreakFast?
SORRY
It's good to say sorry - from you. It's nice to hear the word Sorry - for me. But it hurts and can't undo what have been done. And yes i do accept it. But again too much Sorry become meaningless. Which one is the real Sorry? The sincere Sorry? Or just perhaps the Sorry for Sorry? - Oh this is about JANJI.
Appointment Pagi..
So ke hospital appointment at 8.30am. Waited until 9.30am. Alum jua ada. Its okay. I can wait but not too long. Just have to prepare for work soon. So make another appointment. A day that i don't have to work, and start check up in the morning. Baru ia. Though i waited for an hour, alum ada, i understand for a check up not jua kan begagas, i really appreciate jua the sopan santun at the counter tadi. Excellent! How i wish all have that attitude - POLITE. Haha..
I asked when would be my turn? So oops!! Alum lagi nya.. alum.. Check lagi with the doctor, masih ada patient. Just wait lagi sekajap. Don't know how sekajap. Coz' problem patient have bukan jua easy to attend, not for a short while, inda puas. Kalau i am there, i woun't be puas jua kalau check up only for a short while - begagas. Mau jua tau and jelas with what the result of the check up .. I must say, them at the counter tadi was polite. I like.. I was polite jua, that's why menjangkit. Lebih polite lagi them. Saying sorry. Left saying thank you and i will call.
I asked when would be my turn? So oops!! Alum lagi nya.. alum.. Check lagi with the doctor, masih ada patient. Just wait lagi sekajap. Don't know how sekajap. Coz' problem patient have bukan jua easy to attend, not for a short while, inda puas. Kalau i am there, i woun't be puas jua kalau check up only for a short while - begagas. Mau jua tau and jelas with what the result of the check up .. I must say, them at the counter tadi was polite. I like.. I was polite jua, that's why menjangkit. Lebih polite lagi them. Saying sorry. Left saying thank you and i will call.
Monday, March 29, 2010
LOOSING IT?
Is Your Sex Drive in Park?
Are you or your partner losing interest in sex? A variety of physiological and psychological factors can impact your libido. Check out these common sex-drive killers.
Sex-Drive Killer: Medication
Drugs commonly linked to libido loss include:
Antidepressants
Blood pressure medications
Antihistamines
Oral contraceptives (some studies show a link; others don't)
Chemotherapy
Anti-HIV drugs
Sex-Drive Killer: Relationship Problems
Unresolved relationship problems are one of the most common killers of sex drive. For women in particular, emotional closeness is a major ingredient in sexual desire. Simmering arguments, poor communication, betrayal of trust, and other barriers to intimacy can steer your sex drive off the road.
Sex-Drive Killer: Obesity
Being overweight or obese is linked to a lack of sexual enjoyment, desire, and difficulties with sexual performance. The reason isn't clear, but may be linked to self-esteem, unsatisfactory relationships, social stigma, and other psychological issues.
Sex-Drive Killer: Too Little Sleep
If your sexual get-up-and-go is gone, maybe you're getting up too early or getting to bed too late. Or maybe you have insomnia or sleep apnea. Whatever it is that's interfering with your sleep, it's also interfering with your sex drive. Too little sleep creates fatigue. Fatigue saps sex drive.
Are you or your partner losing interest in sex? A variety of physiological and psychological factors can impact your libido. Check out these common sex-drive killers.
Sex-Drive Killer: Medication
Drugs commonly linked to libido loss include:
Antidepressants
Blood pressure medications
Antihistamines
Oral contraceptives (some studies show a link; others don't)
Chemotherapy
Anti-HIV drugs
Sex-Drive Killer: Relationship Problems
Unresolved relationship problems are one of the most common killers of sex drive. For women in particular, emotional closeness is a major ingredient in sexual desire. Simmering arguments, poor communication, betrayal of trust, and other barriers to intimacy can steer your sex drive off the road.
Sex-Drive Killer: Obesity
Being overweight or obese is linked to a lack of sexual enjoyment, desire, and difficulties with sexual performance. The reason isn't clear, but may be linked to self-esteem, unsatisfactory relationships, social stigma, and other psychological issues.
Sex-Drive Killer: Too Little Sleep
If your sexual get-up-and-go is gone, maybe you're getting up too early or getting to bed too late. Or maybe you have insomnia or sleep apnea. Whatever it is that's interfering with your sleep, it's also interfering with your sex drive. Too little sleep creates fatigue. Fatigue saps sex drive.
TANPA MU
Listening to that song now.. Quitet night. Bulan out and terang outside. Amazing.
So this song.. Tanpa Mu.. ku tanya my heart, ya kan? Is it really true kalau Tanpa Mu... lalala.. Oh well.. It all depends. I heard another song Derita Merindu.. I more like that one jua. Better ku Derita Merindu daripada .... Just listen to it. I like the lyrics. I used to like the lyrics from a song but now i realize lyrics and irama plays important role in song. Hehe..
More on the song list to add. Many good songs you like, well..Enjoy it. Its gives you kepelbagaian dalam memories and it's siok berabiz. The moment of everything roll in your lives are different with the songs you hear or heard. Haha.
I am in a jolly good mood. Tapi migrain eh. Lambat makan. Bad attitude to skip meals. But when its late, its even worst.
Nyte!
So this song.. Tanpa Mu.. ku tanya my heart, ya kan? Is it really true kalau Tanpa Mu... lalala.. Oh well.. It all depends. I heard another song Derita Merindu.. I more like that one jua. Better ku Derita Merindu daripada .... Just listen to it. I like the lyrics. I used to like the lyrics from a song but now i realize lyrics and irama plays important role in song. Hehe..
More on the song list to add. Many good songs you like, well..Enjoy it. Its gives you kepelbagaian dalam memories and it's siok berabiz. The moment of everything roll in your lives are different with the songs you hear or heard. Haha.
I am in a jolly good mood. Tapi migrain eh. Lambat makan. Bad attitude to skip meals. But when its late, its even worst.
Nyte!
:) Love Drug You
Haha.. i smile. Talking about how powerful people who can talk about one thing everybody follow. Yeah.. Same like LOVe. So true. I smile.
Love drug the nations. And are you? Well.. when you're inlove, you got so addicted to it. Though you didn't say about it, but it sure drug you. Lalok with love. Who to live without Love. Don't know you, Love could be loving whatever you wish to Love.
A pinch of love, like a pinch of salt, like a pinch of sugar and a pinch of your emotional feeling would make a difference in your life. Changing without you realizing it but you know so because you know who you are and i know so because i know who i am.
I am at home, and doing research on how listener would want to hear whats onair. Just something useful for the people. Maybe about Health, about LIFe, about LOve. All related to a healthy balance life. How many achieve it? Simple but hard to reach that goal.
When you are inLOve, macam-macam ada. The chemistry you know you got it. If you don't how would it work. Learn chemistry and physic. Haha.. how life works? All banyak eh all very useful. No chemistry, you try no matter what pun woun't happen. Rare very rare only it happen if one sanggup to tolerate all the time. (I sometimes write whats out from my mind, and sometimes betul kah or salah kah?) but you the reader, what do you think?
I sat and wondering, tiga kelompok. Let say kelompok satu at the early stage of Love, baru kan kenal Love.. baru kan becinta.. and that would be at a tender age of 18 to 21. And then come to mid of 20s and to 30s. Then to end 30s and 40s. then above that.. Just so perfect tiga kelompok in one room.. and you got to see putarannya. You may not know what i am taliking about, but the reason i write this so i woun't forget. Haha..
Em.. the first time meeting, first time experiencing was the best. After that surviving. haha. I am naive at time, but i am not dumb. Its just as time lalu, you tend to just go along with it. But yea.. Learning everyday. Love with chemistry is so heaven feeling.. but no chemistry so gantong-gantong. Haha.
Sometimes i get nervous when i see an open door, close my eyes.. Always looking for the answers.. And what would your Love be? You got addicted to it? Why? What to addict about? Feel good when you are inLove or out of LVOe?
Love drug the nations. And are you? Well.. when you're inlove, you got so addicted to it. Though you didn't say about it, but it sure drug you. Lalok with love. Who to live without Love. Don't know you, Love could be loving whatever you wish to Love.
A pinch of love, like a pinch of salt, like a pinch of sugar and a pinch of your emotional feeling would make a difference in your life. Changing without you realizing it but you know so because you know who you are and i know so because i know who i am.
I am at home, and doing research on how listener would want to hear whats onair. Just something useful for the people. Maybe about Health, about LIFe, about LOve. All related to a healthy balance life. How many achieve it? Simple but hard to reach that goal.
When you are inLOve, macam-macam ada. The chemistry you know you got it. If you don't how would it work. Learn chemistry and physic. Haha.. how life works? All banyak eh all very useful. No chemistry, you try no matter what pun woun't happen. Rare very rare only it happen if one sanggup to tolerate all the time. (I sometimes write whats out from my mind, and sometimes betul kah or salah kah?) but you the reader, what do you think?
I sat and wondering, tiga kelompok. Let say kelompok satu at the early stage of Love, baru kan kenal Love.. baru kan becinta.. and that would be at a tender age of 18 to 21. And then come to mid of 20s and to 30s. Then to end 30s and 40s. then above that.. Just so perfect tiga kelompok in one room.. and you got to see putarannya. You may not know what i am taliking about, but the reason i write this so i woun't forget. Haha..
Em.. the first time meeting, first time experiencing was the best. After that surviving. haha. I am naive at time, but i am not dumb. Its just as time lalu, you tend to just go along with it. But yea.. Learning everyday. Love with chemistry is so heaven feeling.. but no chemistry so gantong-gantong. Haha.
Sometimes i get nervous when i see an open door, close my eyes.. Always looking for the answers.. And what would your Love be? You got addicted to it? Why? What to addict about? Feel good when you are inLove or out of LVOe?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
SLEEP OR WHAT?
I slept at 12.30am last night after a long serious talk. Long serious talk very tiring. I woke up at 12 noon today. That's how tiring it is. You know who you are and i know who i am, that's all i wanted to share so i woun't forget what i have said. Its simple.
I think it rained heavily this morning, i heard i think i thought that was in my dream. In my dream, it rained too. I have a good dream. I like it. Make it easy to wake up in a calm mood. OOOO.. want to know what dream? Haha.. nah, i keep it for me saja. haha. I like it. Silly but i like it..
Oh.. I wore the same baju as yesterday. Exactly the same. My jeans and my lady footlocker white&black and my black revedition. Just feel plain and boring. I am supposed to be in Jakarta this weekend, but i am here in Brunei. Hiya!!! Mesti exciting nya di Jakarta nya. Malas to think about it.
Long sleep for me. Read BB this afternoon during my lunch time at Yappy's and at the front page, an article and a picture of a car accident, a teacher age 27 died in an accident and supposed to get married in July this year 2010. While eating, in my heart says 'thank you Allah for giving me another chance to live, to let me eat and enjoy my food and to be with my family'..
And i started to think, well we all got children. We want the best for our children. We look after them, jaga them, give the best education for them. Graduates and grown up. We live and get to see them growing, in happy and bitter moments of our lives, and there .... Tuhan lebih sayangkan mereka. And took them away from us. That moment... can you feel it and can you imagine it? Its just pinjaman semata-semata for us and its only temporary. Us? Yes .. us just sementara.
I ate real slow and i wonder. Food tastes tawar to me though nyaman jua, tapi ia lah. Kecian her families and jua bakal her hubby. The day looks mendong, and i can imagine how mendong the keaadan is. Well..
And another article about other things. Yes.. we are what we read. We are what we eat. So how about you? Talking about that jua, in the long talk, we talk about human being. Well we human are the same, but we are different as a human living. You are you. And me are me. And the people around you, each one of them are different. You don't believe, you watch and see.. You can see forever or you can start now and realize that you, yourself are different. Entah ah!
I think this is what i get for sleeping too long. Haha.. from 12.30am to 12 noon today. Em.. What do you think?
I think it rained heavily this morning, i heard i think i thought that was in my dream. In my dream, it rained too. I have a good dream. I like it. Make it easy to wake up in a calm mood. OOOO.. want to know what dream? Haha.. nah, i keep it for me saja. haha. I like it. Silly but i like it..
Oh.. I wore the same baju as yesterday. Exactly the same. My jeans and my lady footlocker white&black and my black revedition. Just feel plain and boring. I am supposed to be in Jakarta this weekend, but i am here in Brunei. Hiya!!! Mesti exciting nya di Jakarta nya. Malas to think about it.
Long sleep for me. Read BB this afternoon during my lunch time at Yappy's and at the front page, an article and a picture of a car accident, a teacher age 27 died in an accident and supposed to get married in July this year 2010. While eating, in my heart says 'thank you Allah for giving me another chance to live, to let me eat and enjoy my food and to be with my family'..
And i started to think, well we all got children. We want the best for our children. We look after them, jaga them, give the best education for them. Graduates and grown up. We live and get to see them growing, in happy and bitter moments of our lives, and there .... Tuhan lebih sayangkan mereka. And took them away from us. That moment... can you feel it and can you imagine it? Its just pinjaman semata-semata for us and its only temporary. Us? Yes .. us just sementara.
I ate real slow and i wonder. Food tastes tawar to me though nyaman jua, tapi ia lah. Kecian her families and jua bakal her hubby. The day looks mendong, and i can imagine how mendong the keaadan is. Well..
And another article about other things. Yes.. we are what we read. We are what we eat. So how about you? Talking about that jua, in the long talk, we talk about human being. Well we human are the same, but we are different as a human living. You are you. And me are me. And the people around you, each one of them are different. You don't believe, you watch and see.. You can see forever or you can start now and realize that you, yourself are different. Entah ah!
I think this is what i get for sleeping too long. Haha.. from 12.30am to 12 noon today. Em.. What do you think?
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Pantai Serasa
Mencat kuku dalam kereta mendengarkan OST GLEE songs. Macam-macam lagu nya eh. Ada yang i like .. Endless Love. When i listened to that song on the way to Pantai Serasa, di repeat bebalik-balik. Baik jua cd, kalau kan menyanyi hilang suara eh.
So Endless Love reminds me when i came back from my break dari USA. I came back, that was in the 90s and i sang for the first time Kareoke at my cousins house in Bunut this songs. Haha.. reminds me how innocent i was in life.. and it makes me smile coz i remember how fresh it was, and how happy go lucky i were, that i am not scared of or afraid of anything. Like nada feelings at all yang involved broken hearted. Sang like whatever!
Hah.. i listened to it on the way, and i feel fresh. I started to sing along with it too.. practicing my vocal.. though i don't seem to be good at that. I wanted to flush out what i've been thinking, and it works.
I remeber those days, nice bah. Really nice. Did you ever feel the same when you hear songs yang menyenangkan you? Like gives you fresh memories? I bet.. Well enjoyed it.
I met Ann at Pantai Serasa. She was alone. I looked at her from my car, because i was in my car bz mengcat kuku, and with lights on, and she was drinking soda, and i said to myself.. should i get to know her.. hahah!
Yes i did. Reverse my car, and drove closer to her car, and i say HI! The magic word. I asked her what's she's doing at pantai alone? She said menghilangkan STRESS! Wow.. that's nice. Good for her. I am glad i said hi to her before i left Pantai Serasa.
Did you get to say HI to anyone? Do so, at least you add a new name in your list that could be your friends too. I am going to sleep. Take care.
So Endless Love reminds me when i came back from my break dari USA. I came back, that was in the 90s and i sang for the first time Kareoke at my cousins house in Bunut this songs. Haha.. reminds me how innocent i was in life.. and it makes me smile coz i remember how fresh it was, and how happy go lucky i were, that i am not scared of or afraid of anything. Like nada feelings at all yang involved broken hearted. Sang like whatever!
Hah.. i listened to it on the way, and i feel fresh. I started to sing along with it too.. practicing my vocal.. though i don't seem to be good at that. I wanted to flush out what i've been thinking, and it works.
I remeber those days, nice bah. Really nice. Did you ever feel the same when you hear songs yang menyenangkan you? Like gives you fresh memories? I bet.. Well enjoyed it.
I met Ann at Pantai Serasa. She was alone. I looked at her from my car, because i was in my car bz mengcat kuku, and with lights on, and she was drinking soda, and i said to myself.. should i get to know her.. hahah!
Yes i did. Reverse my car, and drove closer to her car, and i say HI! The magic word. I asked her what's she's doing at pantai alone? She said menghilangkan STRESS! Wow.. that's nice. Good for her. I am glad i said hi to her before i left Pantai Serasa.
Did you get to say HI to anyone? Do so, at least you add a new name in your list that could be your friends too. I am going to sleep. Take care.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
:)
This yang buat me ketawa. TAim marah and perasaan berkecamok tadi pagi, i put this in my FB. So liat yang reply nya.. haha!!
Dari me (FB)- ' i didn't stop you from doing whatever you want. I always gives you times and space. But it got filled up with all these mess. And giving space i thought would help, but it gives a chance and allow others to mess up this.. entah eh!!!!'
Replynya:
Abgwira Sygabglai
bohs lenx Zura...napa ia tue ..heehe he he last last ato bah ku soka ..entah eh !! heeh he he btw salamz selamat pagi lenx..
6 hours ago ·
imagine you.. membaca taim you like hilang perasaan. Ketawa jua tu. Inda jua mau ilang mood. Haha..
Dari me (FB)- ' i didn't stop you from doing whatever you want. I always gives you times and space. But it got filled up with all these mess. And giving space i thought would help, but it gives a chance and allow others to mess up this.. entah eh!!!!'
Replynya:
Abgwira Sygabglai
bohs lenx Zura...napa ia tue ..heehe he he last last ato bah ku soka ..entah eh !! heeh he he btw salamz selamat pagi lenx..
6 hours ago ·
imagine you.. membaca taim you like hilang perasaan. Ketawa jua tu. Inda jua mau ilang mood. Haha..
Ilang Sudah..
Sakajap boleh sabar. Sakajap inda. Bila inda, waduh!! sakit rasanya. Bila sudah, nyaman jua. Tenang jiwa. Malas kan pikirkan. Baik berzikir ada hasil.
Inda ku suka eh perasaan marah. I hate it. Inda suka perasaan inda sabar. I hate it.
Ya Allah, mohon perlindungan di jauhi dari kejahatan.. dari hasutan iblis dan syaitan. Amin..Amin..Amin..
I am okay already.
Inda ku suka eh perasaan marah. I hate it. Inda suka perasaan inda sabar. I hate it.
Ya Allah, mohon perlindungan di jauhi dari kejahatan.. dari hasutan iblis dan syaitan. Amin..Amin..Amin..
I am okay already.
THANK YOU FOR SHARING..
i FELT UNEASY lately. I don't know what to do and what to look for now. I am not feeling happy this morning. I cried whole night but who cares. Why with mainan perasaan.
I share my feelings in my FB this morning. I was upset. Really upset. Someone is happy with that but i got had too, you know. It hurts eh. Giler berabiz. I got this text from someone..
"As 4 sure..my type ani opnminded person..so smtims any1 yg bri slm or tgur,ofcoz lyn cam biasa..Thn time goes by..frm friend..bcm closer..coz y it felt lk dis due 2 "time"Meaning n exmple - I ws alone all d time n wifey bkraja..thn blek rumah..mkn pas 2 mandi thn tido.- thts y I feel mcm kurang layanan..kmsraan atu mcm nda lyk b4, thn again I knw wifey tired so let's jst call it a day..so tht is the time u need to be with sum1 or minta layanan..n since wifey tido or away due to work..I go looking for sum1 yg dpt layan like chatters..iatah dri sna punchanya smua ani jdi cmatu.. bt nw I learn my lesson dah k...as a husband. .I must remember tht I vowd during nikah n also there is no one else pun jga me slain bini sndiri..sakit pun bini jua jga..if si scandle apa ia dpt buat?-"mkn ubat ah" only advicing..if tani ksmpitan $ pun bini jua pinjamkn $ wlaupun bini sndiri butang...si scandle apa ia dpt buat?-"sory syg..$ mama pkai" silly reason n pas 2 ckp dlm hati mnyindir...now see the diffrence..iath ka..nw me dh insaf tht bini segala2nya ka..susah senang sma2 jua...si scandle punya prinsip..sng sma senang..susah. .."ko sndiri la".."
Thank you for sharing with me and i hope some would see the same as you.
I share my feelings in my FB this morning. I was upset. Really upset. Someone is happy with that but i got had too, you know. It hurts eh. Giler berabiz. I got this text from someone..
"As 4 sure..my type ani opnminded person..so smtims any1 yg bri slm or tgur,ofcoz lyn cam biasa..Thn time goes by..frm friend..bcm closer..coz y it felt lk dis due 2 "time"Meaning n exmple - I ws alone all d time n wifey bkraja..thn blek rumah..mkn pas 2 mandi thn tido.- thts y I feel mcm kurang layanan..kmsraan atu mcm nda lyk b4, thn again I knw wifey tired so let's jst call it a day..so tht is the time u need to be with sum1 or minta layanan..n since wifey tido or away due to work..I go looking for sum1 yg dpt layan like chatters..iatah dri sna punchanya smua ani jdi cmatu.. bt nw I learn my lesson dah k...as a husband. .I must remember tht I vowd during nikah n also there is no one else pun jga me slain bini sndiri..sakit pun bini jua jga..if si scandle apa ia dpt buat?-"mkn ubat ah" only advicing..if tani ksmpitan $ pun bini jua pinjamkn $ wlaupun bini sndiri butang...si scandle apa ia dpt buat?-"sory syg..$ mama pkai" silly reason n pas 2 ckp dlm hati mnyindir...now see the diffrence..iath ka..nw me dh insaf tht bini segala2nya ka..susah senang sma2 jua...si scandle punya prinsip..sng sma senang..susah. .."ko sndiri la".."
Thank you for sharing with me and i hope some would see the same as you.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
LAWAN
Kenapa dulu Kawan sekarag jadi Lawan? Heran kan. Well, you akan lalui nya jua tu. Garenti punya. Kalau you get to live to see all. Oh i've watched this movie, you should too. Forgiveness is a powerful weapon for you. Its for you and your enemies.
I watched it with my son, we laugh, and he caught me with my tears running down my face. I caugh and caugh, i was not well jua, and he asked me.. 'Mami menangis?' .. and i said em.. inda. Mami not well.. but i think he knows i did kali. The reason why my tears keluar, because mengenangkan he is a child. A child growing up. Fresh.. still in learning process about life. How innocent children are .. and there is me and you, kalau meliat wayang keluar air mata sebab apa tu nah.. maybe you see that's the reality of life.
Go watch it if you want to. Its called INVICTUS. I didn't know until i watched it. Its always like that.. so why not!
I watched it with my son, we laugh, and he caught me with my tears running down my face. I caugh and caugh, i was not well jua, and he asked me.. 'Mami menangis?' .. and i said em.. inda. Mami not well.. but i think he knows i did kali. The reason why my tears keluar, because mengenangkan he is a child. A child growing up. Fresh.. still in learning process about life. How innocent children are .. and there is me and you, kalau meliat wayang keluar air mata sebab apa tu nah.. maybe you see that's the reality of life.
Go watch it if you want to. Its called INVICTUS. I didn't know until i watched it. Its always like that.. so why not!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Learning..
Everyday every saat, every minute every hour in a day i learned something new. All the time new.. From pemikiran and perasaan. Human all about that.. and lepas tu action. Kan? It's difficult to talk to ownself, but hey at least better than talking to someone who pretend to listen.
LIfe is like puzzles kan. Like a box of chocolate. Like whatever you want to say about life. How you go through life, how you struggles and how you achieve and how you survive. A lot. And it's not easy. All you have to do, to go through it with chin up. And not too up, coz you might not see where you going, but not too low, coz its just not you di ciptakan untuk feeling that. So balance life lah. Same like balance diet. If not balance, then something is wrong.
I am actually mad and upset. But yes all the time like that, just not prioritizing it in my life. Yes i do felt like you, but why bother.. You have better things to do than to prioritize your madness. Let a minute, think about it, its on a thin fine line and which direction you're going?
Ask about why? Why? Why me? But when i read books, it's already tertulis. Sabar saja. Fools? I do agree i am a fool. Yes at times. But i know how to ease myself. I am lonely. Seriouly lonely. That's no doubt. I wish someone out there would understand me. But no.. as every human are different, so the only way for someone to understand me is my soulmate.
I will not talk about that. Its just too common for me to talk about soulmate. I know.. And you know. Sometimes you just want to go away. Away from all this. Too i don't want to talk about it. Boring being lonely ani. Being young, pretty (em.. that's what i always hear from others) tapi lonely. Apa kan?
You go out, and you see all this people. Inda jua lonely dorang atu. Riang ceria jua. How ah? I am probably a boring person in this whole world. I don't like to hang out at cafe. What purpose? Or have i forget all that already? Its just not my way of life anymore. Only with purpose saja okay.
Yes, one of my dream to travel around the world. One day. I wish i just wish i felt how i felt when i was in those days. Whatever i wanted to do, i do. And just not feeling worried, berani, and also berakal lah. But those were the days.
YOu know.. kalau dulu when you were young everybody were your friends. Your girlfriends your real friends. But now i am so takut to have friends. I don't know whose is friends. Being a girl, not really easy. As you grow up, girlfriends just don't care about you. Especially about your feelings. Your life. Ada jua girlfriends makan you. That's worst. But i am glad to see all that. I know what i am worth and i don't feel rugi if my girlfriends want to do that. I know who i am, and i am sure girlfriends know who they are.
But i really wish i have girlfriends yang really girlsfriends who respect each other, in everyway. There's nothing to gain for something ....... malas ku kan cakap. Sometimes, girlfriends ani yang you trust, tah yang makan you. Unbelievable.. But hey.. one day you will go through the same. I may not be alive to see it, may i will.. but time will come.
Being lonely is boring. I know..i know.. filling activities yes.. to make you not think so much about being lonely. Hey, i am human, I need one to fill up my life. To share the joy till death do us part. Scarry ya.. but wait till you're there, grow old together, then you will know, who is really your soulmate. Who will look after you when time comes? Who will talk to you? Who will cook for you? Who will be there for you for the last breath you give out? And who will be there to tell stories about you? What you've done? etc.. etc..
Ah.. merepek kan what i said. This is the process of learning in my life. Anyway that's me bila sleepy. I am tired. Need to sleep now. But you know, i wish i have someone to bisikkan good nyte.. Nyte.
LIfe is like puzzles kan. Like a box of chocolate. Like whatever you want to say about life. How you go through life, how you struggles and how you achieve and how you survive. A lot. And it's not easy. All you have to do, to go through it with chin up. And not too up, coz you might not see where you going, but not too low, coz its just not you di ciptakan untuk feeling that. So balance life lah. Same like balance diet. If not balance, then something is wrong.
I am actually mad and upset. But yes all the time like that, just not prioritizing it in my life. Yes i do felt like you, but why bother.. You have better things to do than to prioritize your madness. Let a minute, think about it, its on a thin fine line and which direction you're going?
Ask about why? Why? Why me? But when i read books, it's already tertulis. Sabar saja. Fools? I do agree i am a fool. Yes at times. But i know how to ease myself. I am lonely. Seriouly lonely. That's no doubt. I wish someone out there would understand me. But no.. as every human are different, so the only way for someone to understand me is my soulmate.
I will not talk about that. Its just too common for me to talk about soulmate. I know.. And you know. Sometimes you just want to go away. Away from all this. Too i don't want to talk about it. Boring being lonely ani. Being young, pretty (em.. that's what i always hear from others) tapi lonely. Apa kan?
You go out, and you see all this people. Inda jua lonely dorang atu. Riang ceria jua. How ah? I am probably a boring person in this whole world. I don't like to hang out at cafe. What purpose? Or have i forget all that already? Its just not my way of life anymore. Only with purpose saja okay.
Yes, one of my dream to travel around the world. One day. I wish i just wish i felt how i felt when i was in those days. Whatever i wanted to do, i do. And just not feeling worried, berani, and also berakal lah. But those were the days.
YOu know.. kalau dulu when you were young everybody were your friends. Your girlfriends your real friends. But now i am so takut to have friends. I don't know whose is friends. Being a girl, not really easy. As you grow up, girlfriends just don't care about you. Especially about your feelings. Your life. Ada jua girlfriends makan you. That's worst. But i am glad to see all that. I know what i am worth and i don't feel rugi if my girlfriends want to do that. I know who i am, and i am sure girlfriends know who they are.
But i really wish i have girlfriends yang really girlsfriends who respect each other, in everyway. There's nothing to gain for something ....... malas ku kan cakap. Sometimes, girlfriends ani yang you trust, tah yang makan you. Unbelievable.. But hey.. one day you will go through the same. I may not be alive to see it, may i will.. but time will come.
Being lonely is boring. I know..i know.. filling activities yes.. to make you not think so much about being lonely. Hey, i am human, I need one to fill up my life. To share the joy till death do us part. Scarry ya.. but wait till you're there, grow old together, then you will know, who is really your soulmate. Who will look after you when time comes? Who will talk to you? Who will cook for you? Who will be there for you for the last breath you give out? And who will be there to tell stories about you? What you've done? etc.. etc..
Ah.. merepek kan what i said. This is the process of learning in my life. Anyway that's me bila sleepy. I am tired. Need to sleep now. But you know, i wish i have someone to bisikkan good nyte.. Nyte.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Salads!!
I forgot to buy Red Onion yang big one, and MUSHROOMs.. Huh!! Three types of daun already, got Goat's Cheese too, lime ada dah, and button olives. Yummy. I am going to have Salads top with Chilli Saussage. Bought it at Mabohai SupaSave. Good salads and fruits there too. Where did you get yours?
I got Fresh Orange, the big bottle, Cheese, Olives, 3 types of salads, Red Apples, Green Apples, Peaches, Bananas, em.. Bluberry Jam, Fresh Milk, 2 large Saussages. Yes.. Yummy for tomorrow lunch. Couldn't wait. Yummy...
Tonight i only have 2 slice of toasted bread, and mushroom soup. Still not well.. but i am okay. Runny nose dari hari atu eh.. and now caughing. Alhamdulillah.. i can still walk and shop!! That's a bounus.
I think i am going to sleep early. Don't have mood to do anything except to read. I wonder where all my friends gone? Are there on holidays? Or are they busy totally? Or do i even have FRIENDS?.. hahah!
I am tired.. good nyte. Cheer up you. And cheer up me. Haha. Ps. i always feel there's someone out there who read this page everyday. I am glad, though not sure. Why would anyone want to read it? Ya lah.. But if you do, hope it cheer you up. And hope you also in good health. And hope always hope..and just HOPE for whatever you wish will come true. I am done for tonight.. though i don't feel like stopping, but i got to sleep now... GOOD NIGHT!
I got Fresh Orange, the big bottle, Cheese, Olives, 3 types of salads, Red Apples, Green Apples, Peaches, Bananas, em.. Bluberry Jam, Fresh Milk, 2 large Saussages. Yes.. Yummy for tomorrow lunch. Couldn't wait. Yummy...
Tonight i only have 2 slice of toasted bread, and mushroom soup. Still not well.. but i am okay. Runny nose dari hari atu eh.. and now caughing. Alhamdulillah.. i can still walk and shop!! That's a bounus.
I think i am going to sleep early. Don't have mood to do anything except to read. I wonder where all my friends gone? Are there on holidays? Or are they busy totally? Or do i even have FRIENDS?.. hahah!
I am tired.. good nyte. Cheer up you. And cheer up me. Haha. Ps. i always feel there's someone out there who read this page everyday. I am glad, though not sure. Why would anyone want to read it? Ya lah.. But if you do, hope it cheer you up. And hope you also in good health. And hope always hope..and just HOPE for whatever you wish will come true. I am done for tonight.. though i don't feel like stopping, but i got to sleep now... GOOD NIGHT!
Ikut MOOD!!
BORING EH!! Baru ia. Ikut mood.. boring eh. Why????? Next time jangan tah di pikir about planning to do something with someone. Think of what's your own plans. That's just spoiled it. Boring jua banar.
Sometimes.. (talking from experience), wating too long pun boring. And just as you plan to do something together, well... bad NEWS!! Nada mood tia. So there's goes your plan in the trash. Oh well...just spoiled it berabiz.
So, when you plan, buat lah plan sendiri. Inda jua frustated. Trying already to make it fun, though mengalih with other things, then.. nada yang kan cheer up. Oh well.. Oh well.. Girls always terasa like this. Just tune in saja with the segmen panas-panas, haha. No wonder. Ya lah, atu yang inda kena balas sms or misscall nya. And bla..bla..bla... banyak lagi.
So, next time, jangan tah bother.. mun kan siok sendiri, kalau you can do, i also can do bah. So best do own things, hasil ada. Or make plans with one or two girlfriends to fill up time. Don't be wasted. I am wasted enough. And i wasted enough.. haha.
Cheer up me!! There's always tomorrow. Hey love this song - LIVE LIKE WE'RE DYING! Yes, i know you know the singer. Not personally i know.. but you know the song. Live like we're dying.. like we're dying.. take chances.. live today turn it all around, and live like we're dying!! You never know what will happen, this is all we got.. la la la la la.. live like we're dying!!!!!!!!
Sometimes.. (talking from experience), wating too long pun boring. And just as you plan to do something together, well... bad NEWS!! Nada mood tia. So there's goes your plan in the trash. Oh well...just spoiled it berabiz.
So, when you plan, buat lah plan sendiri. Inda jua frustated. Trying already to make it fun, though mengalih with other things, then.. nada yang kan cheer up. Oh well.. Oh well.. Girls always terasa like this. Just tune in saja with the segmen panas-panas, haha. No wonder. Ya lah, atu yang inda kena balas sms or misscall nya. And bla..bla..bla... banyak lagi.
So, next time, jangan tah bother.. mun kan siok sendiri, kalau you can do, i also can do bah. So best do own things, hasil ada. Or make plans with one or two girlfriends to fill up time. Don't be wasted. I am wasted enough. And i wasted enough.. haha.
Cheer up me!! There's always tomorrow. Hey love this song - LIVE LIKE WE'RE DYING! Yes, i know you know the singer. Not personally i know.. but you know the song. Live like we're dying.. like we're dying.. take chances.. live today turn it all around, and live like we're dying!! You never know what will happen, this is all we got.. la la la la la.. live like we're dying!!!!!!!!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Sshhhh...
Jangan makan ubat jika you plan kan drive long distance. Inda you tekontrol tu mata you untuk tutup. Kenapa i say like that? Sebab i ate ubat tadi, complete before work. Kan kena suroh makan morning, petang and malam. So sure i took one in the morning before work. Wah.. suka ku eh. Kan tetutup saja mata.. tapi atu taim work saja still can control with all kesibokan dalam conti.
Tapi, imagine you when you drive? Driving under memakan ubat/drugs? Well not good. Not good at all. Especially when you are not well, and wanting to get well, and makan ubat. Well if mesti jua jalan, suroh tia orang lain drive. Ujung-ujung lain pulang ceritanya. Okay.
Sama-sama beringat, agar sentiasa dalam keadaan selamat walaupun makan ubat. Hehe..!
Tapi, imagine you when you drive? Driving under memakan ubat/drugs? Well not good. Not good at all. Especially when you are not well, and wanting to get well, and makan ubat. Well if mesti jua jalan, suroh tia orang lain drive. Ujung-ujung lain pulang ceritanya. Okay.
Sama-sama beringat, agar sentiasa dalam keadaan selamat walaupun makan ubat. Hehe..!
Songs Pelayan Emosi
I am listening to Arab songs now. Lawaaaaa berabiz. Ke jiwaaaaa. Memori yang di bawa nya dan melayan emosi saat hari panas macam di Dubai rasa nya. Masak eh... Suspen kan. Eh.. tapi seriously felt like in Dubai. Panas lagi sana, ani baru jua saja rasa ketmpiasannya. I miss that..
I remember when i used to play these songs all the time, all year round atu in my car. Amazing feelings.. wish i have that feeling like masa atu. But you know, it doesn't come selalu. Tenang, happy, like the world you punya. But still sharing with others and not you punya. Hanya semantara saja.
Tapi setiap kali this song, now i am listening, tepat masa nya, nilu bah ulu hati ah, I think you know what i mean. And when you di bawa dengan angan-angan, like you're in one place and you will cry. Cry for what? I don't know. You will... menghayati nya dengan penuh perasaan... i tell you, you will. Inda caya, coba. Tapi i got the songs. How jua. Tapi tenang you..... fuyo!
Arab jua. Haha. Ada jua lagu lagu yang lain. Sebenarnya taim i drive this morning otw (on the way) to work, i listen to few channels. That's include negara jiran. Amazing how we got the frequency ya di sini jua. I wonder if they got ours di sana? ... Haha Mimpi saja.
Realize you all the songs now about patah hati? Like selingkoh? Like love come back after betrayal? etc... All about human punya pengalaman in kehidupan. Notis you, like now, trend kali. Like all the song writer atu tau kan perasaan orang yang mempunyai masalah in love life, and banyak lagi. So even to the extend that you pun inda kan tepikir that it would happen. And ada lagu nya tu. Tau saja orang yang melaluinya. Kan all got love problem, and got different way to solve it, but soal hati atu macam sama saja. Lepas tu adalah lagu memberi semangan perjuangan hidup. Tepat jua..
And not just part Asia, Asean and jua International. Tell me what's the different between lagu-lagu dulu and sekarang? Ada perbezaan dari irama and lyrics lagu kan. Ya ada dulu yang like this tapi inda jua banyak. Banyak lagu-lagu yang menghibur dan menenangkan fikiran. Bila dengar sajok saja.. Does that happen to you?
Ia lah, this morning, lagu-lagu almost come up to the same meaning. Ada tia lagu-lagu yang siapa better, woman or man. Ada kan? And apa ciptaan lagu yang di nyanikan oleh penyanyi lelaki, penyanyi perempuan pun kan menyanyikan yang sama... Saja tukas gender nya, dan tukar sikit lyrics lagu, nah.. cun tia untuk dinyanyikan.
Eh macam-macam lagi. But it is very interesting ya. Now in 2010, i wonder how would songs writer write for the next 20years. And how would the irama be and the trend of life be. As you go along, you wonder. I wonder jua.. But will i get to live to see all that.. haha. Yes i would love to, but ... our life is just lima jari away. So.. enjoy your life and make it meaningful to you and your family to have you in their life too...
Salam..
I remember when i used to play these songs all the time, all year round atu in my car. Amazing feelings.. wish i have that feeling like masa atu. But you know, it doesn't come selalu. Tenang, happy, like the world you punya. But still sharing with others and not you punya. Hanya semantara saja.
Tapi setiap kali this song, now i am listening, tepat masa nya, nilu bah ulu hati ah, I think you know what i mean. And when you di bawa dengan angan-angan, like you're in one place and you will cry. Cry for what? I don't know. You will... menghayati nya dengan penuh perasaan... i tell you, you will. Inda caya, coba. Tapi i got the songs. How jua. Tapi tenang you..... fuyo!
Arab jua. Haha. Ada jua lagu lagu yang lain. Sebenarnya taim i drive this morning otw (on the way) to work, i listen to few channels. That's include negara jiran. Amazing how we got the frequency ya di sini jua. I wonder if they got ours di sana? ... Haha Mimpi saja.
Realize you all the songs now about patah hati? Like selingkoh? Like love come back after betrayal? etc... All about human punya pengalaman in kehidupan. Notis you, like now, trend kali. Like all the song writer atu tau kan perasaan orang yang mempunyai masalah in love life, and banyak lagi. So even to the extend that you pun inda kan tepikir that it would happen. And ada lagu nya tu. Tau saja orang yang melaluinya. Kan all got love problem, and got different way to solve it, but soal hati atu macam sama saja. Lepas tu adalah lagu memberi semangan perjuangan hidup. Tepat jua..
And not just part Asia, Asean and jua International. Tell me what's the different between lagu-lagu dulu and sekarang? Ada perbezaan dari irama and lyrics lagu kan. Ya ada dulu yang like this tapi inda jua banyak. Banyak lagu-lagu yang menghibur dan menenangkan fikiran. Bila dengar sajok saja.. Does that happen to you?
Ia lah, this morning, lagu-lagu almost come up to the same meaning. Ada tia lagu-lagu yang siapa better, woman or man. Ada kan? And apa ciptaan lagu yang di nyanikan oleh penyanyi lelaki, penyanyi perempuan pun kan menyanyikan yang sama... Saja tukas gender nya, dan tukar sikit lyrics lagu, nah.. cun tia untuk dinyanyikan.
Eh macam-macam lagi. But it is very interesting ya. Now in 2010, i wonder how would songs writer write for the next 20years. And how would the irama be and the trend of life be. As you go along, you wonder. I wonder jua.. But will i get to live to see all that.. haha. Yes i would love to, but ... our life is just lima jari away. So.. enjoy your life and make it meaningful to you and your family to have you in their life too...
Salam..
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